Nostalgia..
Saturday, July 28, 2007
I used to tell myself, they are something from the past. No use going all sentimental over them. Yet, the past always comes back to haunt me.
I thought, Backstreet Boys are people of the past. I still remember those days when I sat on the sofa watching their MVs and concert videos.. And now, while sorting through the songs in my itunes, suddenly had this urge to listen to their Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely.. Incidently, my favourite song back then, due to a really memorable Scully Mulder fanvid. [I used to be big on X-files] And I loved Coldplay's Swallowed in the Sea, because of a cool Jack/Liz fanvid. Okay, I am so influenced by youtube videos. So I went to watch a clip of a recent performance by the fivesome.. And wow, really brings back memories! Incomplete.. Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely.. The One.. :D Nostalgia! -Tearing-
I thought, after the long hiatus Jo took after Order of the Phoenix, that I stopped liking Harry Potter. True, from that book onwards, I started hating the main protagonist, and instead, was intrigued by Snape. So began my change of heart, though it was till Half-Blood Prince that I really became a Snape fan, Snape believer and a Snape/Lily shipper. [And I can say, I'm proud of our dear Sev in DH. Make all of our Snapers' dreams come true. :D] -Cue Lily's Eyes- [Gah I've grown so fond of this song!]
I've modified the song to suite the Sev/Lily-ness.
He has her eyes.
The boy has my Lily's emerald eyes.
Those eyes that loved my enemy-never me.
Those eyes that never saw me,
Never knew I longed
To hold her close,
To live at last in Lily's Eyes!
Okay the whole song speaks Sev/Lily. Too bad the fanvid is removed, it's a good idea [but terrible singing].
I SHALL STOP SNAPE-ING AND START STUDYING NOW!
Our dear potion master is irresistible. XD
谁能告诉我谁能理解我
只能怪自己习惯不说爱慕
暗恋的情书你不懂阅读
我却让时间像烟花一样溜走
没人帮助我没人理解我
只能让自己对爱放下自我
暗恋的情书爱在心深处
为你我尝尽青春的酸楚
Sigh Snape's unrequited love is heart-wrenching.
-Happy Birthday GuanYou!-
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
9:16 PM
A Prince's Tale
Saturday, July 21, 2007
... And yes, I've finished reading the book. So if you don't want spoilers, don't read this post.
Dreamt about Harry Potter book 7 ending last night [Guess I was too excited, heh?], and it's really lame!! Apparently in my dream, in the last chapter J.K. Rowling had this author's note, where she stated, in Chinese! all the evidence proving that Snape is bad [which made me moan and cry], and then in the last line, she wrote，‘可是他其實是一個大好人’。Like dots!
Maybe because of the dream, coupled with mounting excitement, I woke up at around 8.30 to go online. And blimey, it was a BADDDD idea! Since Britain released the book earlier than we did, I chanced upon many spoilers. And after that, I couldn't resist the temptation to read more! I even looked at some photos of pages of the book [taken by some bored people I believe], that were circulating the web. By 9.30, I knew exactly who would die and in which chapter; in fact the whole plot [a rather lengthy one, I say] was up on wikipedia, so can you imagine! Me, tearing and screaming [silently] to my computer screen, extremely stricken by Snape's death, even though I had long resigned to the fact that he WOULD die. When I finally got my hands on the books from Toh Payoh Popular and sat down in Burger King to read the book with Yihui, the spoilers were proven true. Oh wells. At least I was right about many things. [I must be a seer! XD]
Like Snape's Dumbledore's man. Snape loved Lily. Snape was the guy Petunia overheard telling Lily about Azkaban and Dementors. Dumbledore wanted Snape to kill him. Dumbledore trusted Snape and Snape switched sides because Snape felt remorseful about Lily's death. That's the reason why Snape never ever spoke to Harry about his mum. Snape's worst memory involved Snape calling Lily she a mudblood [and never again did he call anyone a mudblood, even forbidding Phineas to say the word], which explains why the memory was his worst. Snape protected Harry out of love for Lily. Snape saw Lily in Harry's eyes. Snape's last words were, 'Look at me..' or something to that effect. Then after that J.K. Rowling wrote something along the lines of 'the green eyes met the black eyes', before poor Snape finally died.
But Snape died for nothing, seriously. I'm astonished to learn that Snape became a headmaster of the school. Snape loved Lily since they were kids? That's earlier than I thought. [I was suspecting the infatuation started from Potions classes.. Or Slughorn's Club (Fanfics hooray!).. Oh nevermind.] And wait! Snape patronus ain't what some people had guess, it's actually a doe -> Lily! After all those years.. (!!) Even Dumbledore was touched by Snape's everlasting love for Lily. Gawdd. I cried when I heard the spoilers. And nothing could prevent me from crying again after reading and rereading The Prince's Tale. Snape's end is tragic. Pleasantly surprised though I was, to find out that Harry named one of their kids [the only one with green eyes!] Albus Severus, and told the boy Snape was the bravest man he had ever known. The irony is not lost on me.. In Half-Blood Prince, didn't Harry call him a coward?
Annoying bits: It is boring in the middle. Seriously. And I HATE how Percy came crawling back, and how there are deaths every few pages or so. Really, some people don't deserve to die. Like Snape. Like Dobby. Like Wormtail. Well at least Dobby died saving Harry, Wormtail's hestitation cost his life but saved others, however I can never understand why Snape has to die like that.
He died with the belief, and possibly in regret, that for all his trouble, he was still sending Potter to his grave. His last words.. The letter.. Okay I should stop before I start bawling my eyes out over him again.
Even though I really want to say, 'So I was right all along! Knew it!' in triumph, my anguish over Snape, Lupin and Tonk's death is too much to bear. [I have this love-hate thing with unrequited love. It's tragic, but I still like it.]
I trust Severus Snape. I love Severus Snape. I am a Snape/Lily shipper. I'm a Snape's man through and through. Now, I am certain that I have not trusted/loved/shipped the wrong man. (:
It's that familiar path again. Only this time, Snape's walking the path to the Land of the Dead. Doubt he'll return, I'm sure he gets more comfort there, with Lily and all, than in the real world, where life was cruel for him, more than anyone else. Like Harry and Tom Riddle, he called Hogwarts home. I can imagine how memories of Lily haunted him, and Harry being a living reminder of what could have been - if only he didn't mix around with the wrong crowd, and if he didn't say the word to her. Unrequited love. I am touched by the young Sev, how he slept outside the Gryffindor dormitory just to plead for her forgiveness. Snape is a good man. A tortured man.
Rest In Peace
Severus Tobias Snape
[January 9, 1960 - July 21, 1997]
Potions Master [1982-1995]
Defense Against the Dark Arts Teacher [1996
Headmaster [1997]
Head of Slytherin House [1982-1997]
In Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
Died as a good man, with courage and dignity
Look what Wikipedia says about Snape!
"This history of divided allegiance to both the Death Eaters and the Order of the Phoenix, and his actions in apparent support of both sides, make him one of the most ambiguous and morally complex characters in the series, and, arguably, its only anti-hero, assuming that he is a double agent for the Order."
More spoilers, go
here and
here. (:
I am waiting to see more Snape/Lily fanfics! In fact, there are quite a number that rather accurately predicted the events in Deathly Hallows. For example, Snape being the 'nasty boy' Petunia mentioned in the Order of the Phoenix, the friendship ending after Snape called Lily 'mudblood' in Snape's Worst Memory, and Snape joining Dumbledore's side after knowing that the Potters were targeted by Voldemort [prophecy!]. That's why, I love Potter forums. It's always nice to go in there, when you have nothing better to do. But as the series draw to a close, maybe I should move on.
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
6:51 PM
寫給包子的話
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Hello Shuhui!
包子你好！
寫這篇文章的時候，心裏充滿的是感激，不是厭恨；是感動，不是懊惱。剛剛看完幾個五月天JUMP離開地球表面演唱會廈門站的短片，雖然視覺和音響效果不是怎麽的好，但是單單看到那五只賣力的演出，用音樂打動現場的每一個人，足以讓我感到莫名的自豪。
是啊，說起來也真的難以置信，第一次接觸到五月天的音樂，也只不過是十個月前。再想一想，其實認識你，也就是四個月前的事耶！還記得那一天嗎？那是我們兩個第一次見面，也是第一次親眼看見五月天現場表演。說實話，那天我並不想去，因爲沒有什麽朋友能陪我，想到自己要孤零零的跑老遠，就盟起退縮的念頭。但慶幸的是，我還是硬著頭皮去了，而且至今我還堅信當天的那個決定是正確的。也不知是哪裏冒出的一股勇氣，帶我來到了IMM，第一次等候五月天的到來[咳，一群 不守時的傢伙… 讓我們白等了一個小時]，第一次被五月天感動，第一次…遇見了你。
聼起來也蠻荒謬的，我們的結識竟要感謝五個我們不怎麽 了解的人，爲了他們的音樂，我們才會發現彼此的存在，哈哈。可能是我們的處境差不多吧，年齡又相仿，所以能談得起來。我們都是新一代的五迷，有感受到那種 好像生的不是時候的矛盾心情，都曾瘋狂過、懷疑過、無奈過。那些自稱是‘老五迷’的人整天嚷嚷五月天變了，跟以前不一樣了，被商業化了，他們[也不知爲什麽莫名其妙的]憎恨我們，不想和我們搭界，也懶得睬我們。而我們這些從來都沒有和五月天共同經歷苦難的‘新五迷’，每天過的日子並不比那些與五月天經歷過 風風雨雨的‘老五迷’來的好受！沒錯，‘十萬’的時候我們不在。‘你要去哪裏’、‘天空之城’也是如此。我兩連兩年前的 Final Home 都沒有去。
懊惱嗎？當然，怎麽可能不會呢？後悔麽？我不後悔，我想你也是吧！至少，我懂得欣賞五月天的音樂。至少，我傷心的時候會因爲一 首五月天的歌而頓時心情好了許多。至少，我認識了你這個包子！可能我們起步比較晚，但又怎麽了？流失的七年，能用一千個世紀來補回；他們的青春，是我們記 憶中的永恒。
很高興能認識 Bernice, Stella 等等的同齡五迷。更高興能認識你。因爲你，我懂得欣賞好音樂；真的很開心能和你一起哭、笑、瘋狂、[裝]理智[因爲我好像沒有理智過哦]。還記得三月那時 我們許下的約定？那個五年后才能生效的約定？那個三十年后才會過期的約定？嗯。我是永遠不會忘記的。
勾勾手，蓋手印這一刻的約定因爲五月天，我開始相信。沒辦法，這個世界是很現實的，當然娛樂圈也更是如此。最後再正的物品都會變質，更何況一個樂隊呢？但是，可能自己太天真了吧… 哦不，是太固執了吧，所以從不想放棄，也不想懷疑。誰叫他們一直以來都是這樣教我們，誰叫他們天天歌唱著自己的信念、執著，一遍又一遍地告訴我們不要放棄？
包子，謝謝你。包子，我欠你的實在太多了。幹嗎對我怎麽好呢？[我淚呀！] 就趁你十六嵗生日的遷一禮拜，由衷的祝福你：生日快樂！天天開心！‘O’ 水準要到了，所以要加油哦！
搖滾萬歲！搖滾無罪！
讓我們肩並肩，勇敢地面對未來的種種挑戰吧！
<3 泡芙 [Yi Xin]，19/07/07
P.S. 希望你喜歡那張五只的擁抱和打綠的遲到千年啦！答應你的一張卡片… 嗯可不可以免了？XD
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
6:45 PM
Snape's Army
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Ah as we draw closer to 21/07/07, I'll probably live in Potterland for the next 9-10 days. XD
101 Most(?) Important Questions Survey: Results!One curious thing to take note: A surprising number of people actually think positively of a possible Snape/Lily revelation in the last book!
22.
Snape's main motivation is: a. 74.3 (50.2%) Lily.
b. 11.3 (7.7%) revenge against his childhood enemies.
c. 19.3 (13.1%) revenge against Voldemort for someone other than Lily.
d. 7.0 (4.7%) hatred of his muggle father.
e. 11.7 (7.9%) a life debt to James Potter.
f. 4.0 (2.7%) to supplant Voldemort as Dark Lord.
g. 24.3 (16.4%) being a grade A git.
h. 9.0 (6.1%) other.
23.
Snape's other memory(ies) that he was putting into the Pensieve (OotP) was (were): a. 65.3 (43.8%) things about Lily.
b. 20.3 (13.6%) the truth about James rescuing him from Lupin.
c. 21.2 (14.2%) more scenes of humiliation from his childhood.
d. 45.7 (30.6%) incriminating evidence about his true loyalty to Dumbldore
e. 14.3 (9.6%) incriminating evidence about his true loyalty to Voldemort
f. 29.5 (19.8%) something else.
g. 32.2 (21.6%) something about which we will never read.
h. 1.0 (0.7%) other.
24.
Snape's Worst Memory: a. 60.5 (40.6%) was because ofLily, not James.
b. 12.0 (8.1%) will be confirmed as his worst memory because of what happened with James.
c. 33.0 (22.1%) both b&c are equally bad to Snape.
d. 3.0 (2.0%) actually is set up to be a product placement ad.
e. 38.5 (25.8%) will not come up again.
f. 2.0 (1.3%) other.
25.
"DON'T TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!" (PoA Chap. 19); what was not understood was: a. 38.0 (25.7%) all the stuff about Black's prank on Snape.
b. 24.5 (16.6%) Snape's Worst Memory.
c. 59.0 (39.9%) how much Snape actually cared for at least one of Harry's parents.
d. 3.5 (2.4%) the amount of effort that Snape had put into framing Black himself, and how it might go to waste.
e. 24.5 (16.6%) something that will not receive further clarification.
f. 3.5 (2.4%) other.
See
that! It's really quite shocking, heh. Didn't know our Snape's Army has such a strong membership. (: This is quite encouraging. [They should add more scenes in Harry Potter movies! I pay 8 bucks every year or so
to see Snape, not Potter!]
On the way home today, I was telling Eelyn about the Snape/Lily ship and how Snape will turn out to be a good guy, and somehow along the way I said something like, 'Many people say Snape is bad purely based on him killing Dumbledore..' Shocked, she asked me, 'Dumbledore DIED?!' GOSH! For two whole years, she didn't manage to read finish Half-Blood Prince, and yet she was never spoilt about the ending! So for the past two years, she was kept in the dark! Only a week before the 7th book's release, she was spoilt by me heh heh. Okay I find it highly amusing.
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
6:54 PM
070707
Saturday, July 7, 2007
近幾天發現，自己真得很厭恨主流。對於那些所謂的“偶像團體/歌手/劇”，都產生莫名的反感。沒辦法，喜歡上 band sound 就不再可能會頭喜歡這些靠一張美臉吃飯的藝人。
也很討厭八卦，到底有多少個人想知道誰又和誰在一起了，誰因爲沒有去誰的演唱會，所以兩人分手了。拜托！這很無聊好不好？世界這麽大，需要我們貫注、我們擔心的事情太多了，誰還有空看你們這些沒事找事、無聊透頂的人一番造謠？
我媽說我很怪。她問我，主流有什麽不好？不是越主流越好嗎？幹嗎什麽都要與衆不同？不會讓人感到你的思想很怪異嗎?
沒 錯，我就是不喜歡和別人一樣，雖然我知道這樣做只能得到他人異樣的眼光。我就是要走不同的路，儘管道路崎嶇，隨時都可能摔個粉身碎骨。我就是喜歡非主流， 就是喜歡不討好的人物，就是喜歡別人憎恨的角色，口味就是與衆不同。我不認爲世上有所謂的“完美”、“童話”、“英雄”，只有人性的“反英雄” [
anti-heroes]。
(Flawed characters? Think Snape. Or
Captain Jack Sparrow. A surprising number of my favourite characters made it to
the list of anti-heroes.)
我想，最環保的樂隊，非五月天莫屬！原因：他們叫我們丟掉電視、丟掉電腦啊！ [離開地球表面的歌詞 (x]
終于看了幾個小時的 Live Earth 氣候轉變世界演唱會。說實話，五月天的演唱會比這個披着慈善、拯救地球外衣的“大型嘉年華演唱會”強一百遍！哈哈，也許我有些偏心啦。
五月天！萬歲！
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
7:01 PM
