Okay after sleeping for eleven and a half hours last night, and another 4 hours in the afternoon, I'm finally back to my old self again. [I hope] If I said some incoherent rubbish to you yesterday, or did some dumb things, I'm so sorry. Blame it on the lack of sleep.
So as a result, I couldn't understand 1% of what I said yesterday, and I did talk a lot, sadly. Most of the stuff once out of my mouth didn't make much sense, and for the first time this year [if my memory hasn't failed me], I actually slept in class. [And it has to be physics, wow. I'm gonna fail my SPA.]
Then something hilarious happened. Linlin was hungry, so she managed to get a biscuit from Shuyu. Being nice, she offered to share half with me. And guess what! Without even thinking, I just stuffed the whole biscuit into my mouth! And it's only when she exclaimed something like, 'Wah! That's so mean YiXin!' that I finally realized what I was doing. 0.0 What's so humiliating is that I think that's not the only stupid thing I had done that day. And I've done dumber stuffs over the years. Greeaaat.
Oh yeah. Apparently I heard from Yihui a few days back, when I was telling her about sodagreen, that Sijia talked about 'a new cool band' in class, so on Tuesday, when I saw her, I asked her about it. The conversation went like this:
Me: Hey Sijia! Heard you like a 'new, cool band'. Sijia: Yeah! Me: -Nods- Mmm! Yes! [Didn't know what else to say] Sijia: [Looks incredulously at me] You like them too?!! Me: Yeah! [Suddenly realized that I haven't asked her who they are] Who are they? Am I thinking what you are thinking? Sijia: Oh yes! 苏打绿 right? Me: YES!!!!!! YES I LIKE THEM TOO!!! Sijia: REALLY?! OMG you like them too? Me: OF COURSE! THEY ROCK! [...] Me: Oh yeah! I thought I saw Huihui at their autograph session! Sijia: Huihui? Oh you mean the prefect Huihui?! I know her! Really?! She likes sodagreen! I didn't know!
Okay. It's pretty dots on my part, heh! But on Thursday Sijia told me that she talked to Huihui and she was surprised to know that Sijia likes sodagreen haha! And apparently Sijia told Huihui about me and the latter told the former that she heard about me, and I can talk to her about them anytime. Okay. I am flattered! XD BUT YAY! The RG sodagreen supporters just increased strength to 3 people. XD
Then yesterday! When I was moving around the school in my half-conscious state, Jing Ying [I think that's her name!] called out to me and asked me if I went for the MayDay JUMP concert. Then she told me she saw me there! WOAH! This is cool. And she wasn't sure if it was me back then, since I wasn't carrying my usual bag. [But since she's in my MSN list, so perhaps she saw my nick (:] So her parting words were 'The concert rocked!' so I replied 'Yeah! IT ROCKED!' This is really, really cool. So now I know of 3 people from our school [including the alumni] who went for the concert. Huiling, Marilyn [Gosh I hope I got her name right] and Jing Ying! Woots. Plus May who likes MayDay quite a lot, Esther who kinda likes them, someone in my MSN who had 'MAYDAY! JUMP!' as her nick, Jessie who likes them. Alright. Quite a bunch.
Random: The history notes are hilarious! I *think* Mr Ganesh typed the last one, because of all the sarcastic comments in brackets after every sentence or so.
Back from buying some takeaways from the hawker centre opposite my house. Something must have happened, since there were around 5-6 policemen crowding around a store. [COOL! I love their guns. 0.0] At first I thought they were ordering food. 0.0 But whatever it is, it can't be a huge case right? Probably, there was a break-in, or someone stole their money. In fact, the owner of the store was smiling. You won't think something major happened, right? So, why were there so many policemen? Perhaps, Singapore is too safe a place, so all those guys in blue jump at the chance of cracking a case, no matter how small in scale it is. I mean, really. Compare it with LA or eh Liverpool. [Maybe I read too many thrillers and/or watch too much CSI. 0.o] It's a boring life for the blues here, I'm sure. So now, my mum's trying to use that strand of argument to convince me not to join SPF when I graduate. She has to work harder, I guess.
Gah I'm addicted to shows. To be more specific, 吴秀波's shows. I'm watching them non-stop! After watching 立案侦查, 军人机密, 道可道 , 非常道, 29天半, 冰器 and 追查到底 in the past 3 days, I think I still like him in 立案侦查 the most. I guess that's because it's one show with him not dying at the end! 道可道 is nice I think, so is 非常道 and 29天半, but sometimes I just want to tell the scriptwriters, make up your mind whether to kill the bad or the good! You don't kill 吴秀波 all the time, no matter how bad or how good he is! It's.. it's unfair! -cries- I like 冰器 too, but why the hair. It's like.. Johnny Depp in Sleepy Hollows. Gross.
Talking about Johnny Depp, saw a thread comparing him and 吴秀波 in baidu. The thread starter asked us if we think he looks like WXB, which is of course NO! But they are actually really similar in many other ways, I reckon. It's the eyes.. The demeanor.. The somewhat subtle acting.. Heh. And yeah I was talking about another thread comparing Zhong Zong [中宗] from Da Chang Jin [大长今] and WXB right. Hah. It's like chancing upon a thread on Counter-Strike in a MayDay forum [which happened before], or a thread on MayDay in a 梁朝伟 forum [which I don't go, so I won't know.]. Totally random! But quite exciting, no doubt. XD
Oh still on JDepp, my class feels that I'm going to be the mostly likely person to kill Mrs Johnny Depp. 0.0 LIKE NO!!! I'll never do things as crazy as that. I'll never do things that'll hurt JDepp's feelings. [Gosh I can't believe I'm talking like this. I must be insane.] A better title for me, perhaps, is The Most Likely Person to Kill MayDay. [Reason: Because they have a book called 追杀五月天 (Kill MayDay). Haha!]
I have lots of dreams. That include both the Martin Luther King Jr kind of dream and dreams, you know, when you get at night while sleeping.
Three nights ago, I had this really queer dream. I was standing near the edge of a cliff in a secluded mountainous area, and the sun was setting. Looking out, I could see reddish clouds moving around, ever changing. Then, as I watched with fascination [Shows how bored I must be in my dream to be observing clouds. 0.0], the clouds formed the shape of a doorway. A portal. So the first thing that came to my mind was '我看到了「圣堂之门」！阿沁的那首歌！' Oh mans. I saw a doorway that leads to, I suppose, heaven? What is that suppose to mean. I need a dream doc!
That's not the first time that I've dreamt about weird things that have NO link to my life. I mean, I'm okay with dreaming of MayDay autograph session four consecutive nights before the actual day, dreaming of sending them off, dreaming of the concert, dreaming of Mr and Mrs Smith inviting me to their house [Ah that's another weird one], dreaming of Frog visiting my house [ah this is one embarrassing dream]. But why did I dream of some Star Wars kind of universe? And me being a boy living in a hut near an airbase in that universe? And that the pilots of the fighter planes were the protectors of the universe? And that they were my heroes? But they were prosecuted by the High Court of that universe for killing an innocent civilian? And the day before their execution, they flew on the skies one last time, which made me cry like mad? Hello, I don't even watch Star Wars. I watched one episode after that dream. 0.o Then there's another weird one. I dreamt of Backstreet Boys! That's not all! I'm one of the 'Boys'! Woohoo! And I was pissed off with my bandmates! So I wanted to quit!
Sometimes, I think the person I understand the least is myself.
Then I'm going back to MayDay. [Of course, wocha expect?] The five of them dream loads too. I guess that's why I'm here. That's why they are where they are now. Just read an article in i weekly on the concert, and dang, it's touching. It's written in a way only a fan will, or at least one who understands MayDay's music. Not like any other concert report, this one talks more about their 音乐理念 [music beliefs?!] and why, after so many years, they continue to draw crowds.
How well written. 不想放弃，因为还有属于自己的倔强，还天真的相信。可能永远只能做一个憨人吧，一条翻不了身的咸鱼，但是活得开心就好啊。
I'm changing my blogskin. To my old one. Is it because I'm losing faith? Truth is, my ship is sinking. My Sparrabeth ship. I'm.. sticking with the ship as it gets swallowed by the Kraken. Faith, ain't it a strange thing? The minute you start to believe, you won't stop believing in it till the very last second of your life. Even if you think you have lost faith, there's still a small spark of hope in the deepest corner of your heart. But if you choose not to believe, then you'll never believe. [What am I talking about? I'm not making any sense here.] To have faith and to lose faith, both are equally difficult choices I guess. 要拿得起，放得下，其实很难。[Oh, I'm not talking specifically about religion here haha.]
五月天。有了你们，我才重新找回了最真实的自己。
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
7:18 PM
what is wrong Monday, June 4, 2007
You know, I am pissed. Really really pissed. Okay, it's fine if you don't like MayDay anymore. I don't care how you feel, it's your loss. I don't care if you think MayDay has changed, because hell, I won't know, if not because of the concert videos. Okay, so you love the old fans. Go on, continue to love them. Continue to live in your memory. But what is pissing off is, why do you have to look down on others. Why don't you want to give us a chance. Okay, so in your opinion we can never be as great as how you were before. We are lesser of a fan than you guys are. We may as well don't exist, since you hate us. You sterotype us. You think we're all those kind of Fahrenheit/5566 fangirls. If you think so, then you are so wrong. Of course, we weren't there when MayDay was first formed. We were not there at TKZC concert. Hell, I wasn't even at Final Home. Okay, so now you have categorized me as a 'xin wu mi'. But have you ever considered, why I wasn't there? Why we were not there? Do you seriously think we like MayDay because of their looks? If that's the case, we will not be here in the first place. If that's what you think, then you are being ignorant. You are trying to hate a huge population of MayDay fans who simply love them for who they are, for their music, your their passion, but were too young/too dumb to like them when they first formed the band. Discrimination.
Y'all know, I've always respected those who were with them since the beginning. Those who continue to support them after so many years, and even though people are bound to change, they still have faith. But you don't like us. You don't want to be associated with us. Fine. But do you seriously think we are any different than what you used to be? Do you actually believe that we only love their more popular/commercialized songs? Like you, we love the first three albums, especially the taiyu songs. Like you, we cry while watching Ni Yao Qu Na Li. We watch 168 too, and Shi Wan Nian Qing Zhan Qi Lai, trying to imagine how it's like if we were to be born a few years earlier. That's how we live through each day, filled with regrets. Many of the things you have experienced, we would die to go through. Just that we never had the chance. Not trying to sound to bitter, but really, we feel terrible. I feel really bad, because I know we've missed a lot.
If you don't understand what I mean, how we feel now is like unwanted younger siblings trying to trying to be accepted by the elder brothers/sisters. I don't expect any one to embrace us with open arms - no matter what, we're still learning, we're still going through the phases that you have gone through and left behind, but why, before we even utter our very first word, you condemn us? You decide to hate us? What have we done wrong?
Continue to cling on to your memories, if that's what you want. Nobody is stopping you.
If you are determined to hate us, then.. I don't know.
On this day, 4June2007, two days after JUMP S'pore, I promise that twenty years down the road, I'll still love MayDay, and I'll embrace a new generation of MD fans with open arms.
Love, sometimes, is all you need.
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
7:02 PM
JUMP like you have never jumped before
Back from MayDay JUMP concert.
Shuhui, Bernice and I went for the Sodagreen autograph session before the MayDay concert, since I couldn't jolly well sit still at home! And Sodagreen is an up and coming band. Fresh, yet capable of doing something great. In order not to have any regrets years down the road [like how we feel about MayDay], we went to Chinatown Point. In our JUMP tee! Haha. Shuhui was wearing the red 打泡熊熊 tee, while me and Bernice wore the black 摇滚铁人 tee, which represents 梦想&勇气. (: The autograph session went really smoothly, and while waiting songs like 小情歌、符号、我的未来不是梦 were played repeatedly. Bought two of the four singles, plus the 小宇宙 album! My forty bucks. 0.0 They were selling Sodagreen's August concert tickets too! Hmm. 青峰's voice is really good! He was down with flu, and yet he could hit the high notes without much effort. But while singing 小情歌，he did paused to cough once, and the crowd of us just filled in for him! (: Such a unique voice he has! (: They were really friendly too! Later at the autograph session, they talked to fans as they signed the albums and concert tickets, and didn't really mind taking photos with them. So I wondered, was MayDay like that when they first 出道？Sigh. So many regrets. So let's appreciate Sodagreen before they become commercialized. Like.. MayDay. ):
We did not get our albums autographed, since we were there just to listen to their music anyway. But I did see Huihui from our level. Or so I thought. In fact, the person from UFM1003 actually interviewed her and she DID say her name was Huihui. Hmm. She appeared in a few pictures I took of 青峰 at the a/s. Haha.
After that, we set off towards expo. When we reached expo, it was 4.30! So freaking early. zzz. I wanted to get the Stay Real tee, so I thought it'll be better to be early since Stay Real tees are limited. It turned out, we were REALLY VERY early. There was freaking nobody outside Max Pavilion? Saw Stacey the tall girl. So the four of us stood outside the max pavilion feeling like idiots. [Okay that's how I felt.] So I went up to a group of people at the side of the pavilion to ask where they sell the merchandise [I was so HIGH that I could do anything, really.], and it turned out they were from Taiwan. 'Cos I spoke to them in English at first and they were like 'huh?' So I switched to Chinese and finally we could understand each other. Apparently they were here just for the concert! Woah! That's cool man. That means they follow MayDay around the world! Coolness. Then they asked me, '你是不是当地的人？' So I was like '是啊！' Woah they were shocked. One of them said '不像啊！听起来想台湾人。' Hmm. Has my accent changed throughout the years? Hmm? Maybe because I watch too many MayDay videos? Weird. Just then, music started to play from inside the pavilion! 香水！最重要的小事！I went insane. Crazy. Whatever. They were rehearsing. Finally! So those Taiwan people said '本来是想听他们彩排的，可是到现在才开始。' But I was just so HIGH! Sang along with the music. AHHH!
So we went to have dinner first. I ate three eggs. GOSHness. Shocking. Then Stacey and I went back to the pavilion, and we could hear Ashin singing I Love You 无望！When the music stopped, we got our things and the four of us waited outside the door. Finally, the 工作人员 came out with the merchandise! Me and Stacey chionged up to be the first in the queue haha. It was quite embarrassing but whatever! Even the women knew we were the first in the queue. Stay Real tee!!! So pretty! So shiny! Me Stacey and Shuhui all got Ls. STAYREAL!!! Designed by Ashin and No2Good! Coolness. I was so delighted when I got my hands on the pretty bag that contained the pretty shirt. Ahhs! Then we got MayDay JUMP batt operated lightsticks and I got the stickers plus the Final Home army tag as well. They were selling the OTHER kind of lightstick too, but gah, I'll never get THAT. Also selling was the WAES 2nd Gaiban DVD. It's tempting, yes, but I'm not getting THAT too. I'm not going to have 3 cds that are almost the same, besides the Taiwan WAES concert dvd. Until I'm rich enough. Or someone tells me that the only way to get MayDay back in Singapore is by buying the cd. Not all MayDay fans are rich or working. zzz. Then we finally got inside Max Pavilion. WAES concert video was playing while we queued up. And when we got seated, 摇滚本事 was playing on the screen. 你要去哪里！-Cries-
When everyone was seated, the lights dimmed and we started yelling with the other fans! So the huge budget video came on. Apparently, there was this huge epidemic, called 黑眼病 or something. It was deadly and people with the disease could turn into ashes [That's what I interpret from the clip]. First we saw Monster appearing in the video, then Masa, GuanYou, Stone, Ashin. Masa was really funny! (: 公主！Monster and Stone were so man. Ashin was talking to a girl and giving her this metal dolphin like thing [didn't manage to see it properly]. Then men in black protective wear came down from helicopters, and there was much explosion. Somehow, the girl died in the process even though Ashin was tying hard to save her, and the dolphin thing was stepped on by one of those men in black. [A crushed dream? Hmm.] Then we could see the men in black surrounding Ashin, whose head was bowed. The camera zoomed in on Ashin. He raised his head. Ah, his eyes were turning black! So somehow he contracted the disease from the girl, unknowingly! HMM. I was pretty shocked. Then a child/a few kids started singing 倔强 (抒情) .
I guess it was supposed to be moving? Yeah, my heart quivered. 很感人耶。But I heard screaming, and true enough, Stone appeared at my side of the stage while Monster appeared in a similar fashion at the other side. -Screams!- 武装 music came up, followed by pulling off of the huge cloth covering the centre stage, revealing Masa! Ashin! Guan You! -More screams!-, so everyone [well almost everyone except some people sitting in the first two rows] stood up and started waving their lightsticks and singing to the music! There was a lot of explosion eh. Like a Rain concert? Haha. 武装 really reminds me of 天空之城！Ah! 伤感。I love the song mans.
After 武装，Ashin sang 香水！Then 风若吹！轧车！为爱而生！雌雄通体！疯狂世界！晚安，地球人 (爱死这首歌了)！透露 (超HIGH!)！JUMP歌 (反正是新歌就对啦)！天使！摩托车日记！孙悟空！阿姆斯壮！约翰蓝依 (开心ING! 太喜欢了!)！阿信和屏幕上的十岁的他对话，然后唱'我'！
Yeah, so from 摩托车日记 onwards it's mostly about different characters. Eh. Then they'll feature the char's face on the screen, together with a quotation. But for 我 I think, if my memory isn't failing me, the quote was from MayDay.
“离开地球越来越远，离自己越来越近” - 五月天
Then there was introduction of the members. (: GuanYou was so funny! So was erm 士杰！Masa tried to 入乡随俗，and talked to us in Singlish! We laughed like crazy! Monster wanted us to 踏破地板，leaving the ceiling in tact, to prepare for next year's concert. [I hope it'll be held in indoor stadium or something! Bigger crowds!] Can't remember! And they asked us to JUMP! woots! So Ashin started singing 垃圾车 (朋友版), followed by the ultra cute 宠上天！Haha the 技师团 was hilarious ah! The drums! The hand waving action! The video at the background! Really, really cute. 士杰 fell while trying to high five someone. So drama! Ashin was staring at him in disbelief. Haha. 士杰很可爱！
Then Ashin told us, '我很怕鬼。每次来新加坡，就会听说前两排的人都是僵尸。但是今天我发现，新加坡没有鬼！' [We screamed] Oh yeah have I mentioned, Monster's tattoo was cool? It read '新加坡' and had a merlion like thing on it. Of course it's fake, but it sure looked nice.
知足！一千个世纪！I LOVE YOU 无望!(Massive K-歌 session. I love this song. The same song we heard them rehearsing before the concert!)
Masa appeared on the stage right infront of us! Solo-ed Coldplay's Yellow, 最重要的小事, before joining his bandmates in the rock version of the song, and asking us to 一起踏地! It's pretty hard to make any sound stamping on the stone floor, but for those sitting at the platform, it was quite easy. [Masa was grinning while soloing, and after the performance he bowed to us! I yelled Masa's name a few times. He's really cute I think. (:]
I went insane singing 我又初戀了. For 戀愛ｉｎｇ, I think maybe we were not loud enough, the five of them plus the 技师团 shook their heads and left the stage! So we had to shout L-O-V-E really loud [I think that's how I lost my voice] for a loooong period of time before they came back up! Stone led us in the L-O-V-E hand sign, and Monster led those at the left, while Masa led those at the back. Then everyone sang together. (: HIGH 爆了! 終結孤單! Ashin taught everyone a set of new actions: 左手hey，右手hey，雙手hey，再jump! Haha. FUN!
志 明與春嬌! One of the must-sing MayDay concert songs! Ashin came down the stage to walk in front of us. Many people went forward or stood on their seats. 溫柔! I felt a tingling sensation while listening to this song. Man, it brought tears to my eyes. It was like a sing along session, everyone was singing to the song. What Ashin said was really.. touching. Not sure if I was thinking too much, but I thought it applied very well to those people who used to like MayDay but have left us. Such a beautiful song. Too bad Fahrenheit spoilt it. Go MayDay.
不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口 我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦 没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过 如果有就让你自由 music 自由这是我的温柔
Then Ashin went on to say all the sponsors' names, but apparently he couldn't remember after two or three names, so he took out a slip of paper from his pocket! Haha 小抄! We laughed at him! I think he realized since he was smiling too. Then for one of the names he was stumbling, so somebody [either Masa or Monster] went up to him. It was quite funny actually! Because after he announced each sponsor, we cheered. Or booed. I don't know! I think should be cheering right? Since we are such nice people. (x
After that, he went like 'Now it's time for us to sing the last song, to go back to the Earth. Who has the most beautiful voice on Earth?', and started singing 憨人! Woah that's another of those must sing songs. When the song ended, he told us we had the most beautiful voice on Earth!
阿信： '世界上最美的歌声是属于谁的？' －唱憨人－'世界上最美的歌声是属于你们的！！！'
我的心内感觉 wa e xin nai gan ga 人生的沉重 lin xing e din dang 不敢来振动 mu ga lai ding dang 我不是好子 wa mu xi hou gia 嘛不是歹人 ma mu xi pai lang 我只是爱眠梦 wa ji xi ai min mang
我不愿随浪随风 wa mou wuan sui ying sui hong 飘浪西东 piao long sei dang 亲像船无港 qin qiun zun mou gang 我不愿做人 wa mu wuan zuei lang 奸巧钻缝 gan kiao lang pang 甘愿来作憨人 gang wuan lai zuei gong lang
我不是头脑空空 wa mu xi tao nao kang kang 我不是一只米虫 wa mu xi ji jia mi tang 人啊人 一世人 lang a lang ji xi lang 要安怎欢喜 me an zua hua hi 过春夏秋冬 guei cun ha ciu dang
我有我的路 wa wu wa e lo 有我的梦 wu wa e mang 梦中的那个世界 mang diong e hi lei sei gai 甘讲伊是一场空 gang gong yi xi ji diun kang
我走过的路 wa gia guei e lo 只有希望 ji wu hi mang 希望你我讲过的话 hi mang ni wa gong guei e wei 放在心肝内 bang zai xin gua nai 总有一天 zong wu ji gang
看到满天全金条 kua diou mua ti zuan gin diao 要煞无半项 me sa mou bua hang 环境来戏弄 huan ging lai hi nang 背景无够强 bue ging mou gao giong 天才无够弄 tien cai mou gao lang 我逐项是拢输人 wa da hang xi long su lang
只好看破这虚华 ji hou kua pua zei hi hua 不怕路歹行 mu gia lo pai gia 不怕大雨淋 mu gia dua ho lang 心上一字敢 xin xioung ji di ga 面对我的梦 min dui wa e mang 甘愿来作憨人 gang wuan lai zuei gong lang
After the concert, we were still reluctant to go. When they finally bowed to us, all I could do was to yell and scream in order to drown my sorrow. That's it? The end of the concert I've been waiting for for so long? When can we see them again? :( But the concert was rocking, I loved it. SUPER HIGH! I jumped for all the HIGH songs! (x Heard that Gary Cao Ge and Sodagreen went for the concert too. Hmm! Interesting.
We missed the last train. The taxis were hard to come by. When me and Shuhui finally got on one, heard 咸鱼 over the radio! Woah coincidence huh. By the time I reached home, I was jaded. Next day, went to the airport. And then, they left. Just like that, they're gone from our lives once more. Gah. I am tired, I am sore all over, my arms are aching, my legs are aching, my voice is almost gone.. And worst of all, I'm suffering from MayDay-withdrawal syndrome. Save me! Help.
For those people who want to listen to the original 温柔 by MayDay, here's the live videos from Sat. And Ashin's voice sounded really good in this one. Massive K-歌 session! (: I'm glad I'm part of it!
Another one. I think this is clearer.
Introductions! Masa is really, really hilarious. [Good night everybodiii! I'm so happii huh. Tonight is veri specion! LOL!] GuanYou.. well he's being himself. (: ShiJie was so extra ah! XD
The Jump! song. But it's not taken from last Sat. Most probably from the stop at Xiamen or HK.
Likes _____________________
MayDay
Sodagreen
Tizzy Bac
831
1976
Cheer
FIR
Ayue
Wonfu
縱貫綫
Fukuyama Masaharu
Johnny Depp
and all his movies
CSI NY
CSI Miami
numb3rs
x-files
Severus Snape [HBP]
Agent Smith [Matrix]
Zaizen Goro [GWT]
Harry Bosch books
Pendergast books
Green
Black
Precious Words _____________________
Once Upon a Time in Mexico, Gilbert Grape was Finding Neverland in the Chocolate Factory, pretending to be a Pirate called Donnie Brasco with Scissors as hands. while dancing with Corpse Bride.
