what is wrong
Monday, June 4, 2007
You know, I am pissed. Really really pissed. Okay, it's fine if you don't like MayDay anymore. I don't care how you feel, it's your loss. I don't care if you think MayDay has changed, because hell, I won't know, if not because of the concert videos. Okay, so you love the old fans. Go on, continue to love them. Continue to live in your memory. But what is pissing off is, why do you have to look down on others. Why don't you want to give us a chance. Okay, so in your opinion we can never be as great as how you were before. We are lesser of a fan than you guys are. We may as well don't exist, since you hate us. You sterotype us. You think we're all those kind of Fahrenheit/5566 fangirls. If you think so, then you are so wrong. Of course, we weren't there when MayDay was first formed. We were not there at TKZC concert. Hell, I wasn't even at Final Home. Okay, so now you have categorized me as a 'xin wu mi'. But have you ever considered, why I wasn't there? Why we were not there? Do you seriously think
we like MayDay because of their looks? If that's the case, we will not be here in the first place. If that's what you think, then you are being ignorant. You are trying to hate a huge population of MayDay fans who simply love them for who they are, for their music, your their passion, but were too young/too dumb to like them when they first formed the band. Discrimination.
Y'all know, I've always respected those who were with them since the beginning. Those who continue to support them after so many years, and even though people are bound to change, they still have faith. But you don't like us. You don't want to be associated with us. Fine. But do you seriously think we are any different than what you used to be? Do you actually believe that we only love their more popular/commercialized songs? Like you, we love the first three albums, especially the taiyu songs. Like you, we cry while watching Ni Yao Qu Na Li. We watch 168 too, and Shi Wan Nian Qing Zhan Qi Lai, trying to imagine how it's like if we were to be born a few years earlier. That's how we live through each day, filled with regrets. Many of the things you have experienced, we would die to go through. Just that we never had the chance. Not trying to sound to bitter, but really, we feel terrible. I feel really bad, because I know we've missed a lot.
If you don't understand what I mean, how we feel now is like unwanted younger siblings trying to trying to be accepted by the elder brothers/sisters. I don't expect any one to embrace us with open arms - no matter what, we're still learning, we're still going through the phases that you have gone through and left behind, but why, before we even utter our very first word, you condemn us? You decide to hate us? What have we done wrong?
Continue to cling on to your memories, if that's what you want. Nobody is stopping you.
If you are determined to hate us, then.. I don't know.
On this day, 4June2007, two days after JUMP S'pore, I promise that twenty years down the road, I'll still love MayDay, and I'll embrace a new generation of MD fans with open arms.
Love, sometimes, is all you need.
--愛做夢的傻瓜--
7:02 PM
