我的另類妄想世界

あの夏も海も空も

2010-01-09T23:37:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, would I still like Masha if he was not a musician?

I think the answer is no.

His acting is okayy, flawed but not too bad.

I can’t comment on his radio programmes since honestly, I don’t get what he says. Japanese sounds like utter gibberish to me most of the time haha.

His photography skills are rather decent for an amateur without professional training.

But without his music, he is just an average (albeit good looking) ojisan. XD

It’s not merely that he is a singer, composer, lyricist, producer, or that he is able to play the guitar (very well, in fact), the harmonica, drums… The melody of his songs are beautiful, and his lyrics are rather inspiring, in addition to his deep, soothing voice. XD

Recently I begin to see a link between the celebrities I am fond of. All of them (Johnny Depp, Masha, Alan Rickman etc.) are still not used to their star status (and never will, I presume) and downplay their popularity. Depp has always been telling reporters that he does not find himself charming at all, and Masha is extremely low-key and shuns the limelight. :D Mehhs why do I find this common trait of theirs so mesmerizing?!

Oh this is just one of the many Masha songs that I love. But I reckon this is the best version of あの夏も海も空も. :D

Joker!Masha

2010-01-08T17:47:00.002+08:00

...And I succumbed to temptation, oh dear.

That I temporarily forgot the fact that I don't understand Japanese words. =.=

So there, bought the Joker!Masha magazine without second thoughts.

Kino is becoming my second home.

Oh dear me.

Rationality Wins

2010-01-07T21:24:00.002+08:00

In the end, rationality won.

(Okay maybe not. XD)

Perhaps due to the upcoming taiga Ryoma Den, I was greeted with a shelf of Masha magazine covers when I entered Kino. :D

Initially I was tempted to grab a music magazine featuring our dear ‘pin-up boy’ on the cover page, boasting an exclusive interview with TEH MAN, but I resisted. :D But while I was struggling with my inner self, a fangirl/fanwoman picked up a stack of Arashi magazines and placed the whole lot of them on top of the pile of Masha magazines! Ooi, I know he is an ojisan but is he really THAT insignificant, you otaku! (Meh it’s like me slapping myself, no? XD)

Oh and I spotted a Japanese comics magazine with a caricature of Ryoma-Masha! XDDD I totally lunged myself at it LOL.

And just as I was about to make my purchase, spotted 3 other Masha magazines (??!!!) on the first shelf, together with the Ryoma Den Intro book. I think the Japanese ojisan reading a news periodical at the shelf was staring at me as I browsed through the magazines, apparently not understanding a word, but excitement written all over my face HAHAHAHA.

As I poured through the books, unable to make up my mind, I remembered the magazine I have with the 2000 words interview that I have not touched since erhhh September 2008. So I reluctantly let go of the 4 magazines.

Rationality won.

Afterwords, went over to the Chinese section and found Galileo’s Worries (!!) while picking up another Higashino Keigo book loosely translated as The Beautiful Weapon. Really, the faint green and white cover was so easy to miss beside the dashing red book.

So in the end I bought the two books above. Only two books. XD

Galileo’s Worries, as the title suggests, is a collection of short stories on Manabu Yukawa, also called the Weirdo Galileo by his colleagues and peers, and his investigative prowess - using physics to solve unexplainable crimes. (Yes, very similar to numb3rs.) Yep! It’s newly released and we could finally see the Higashino Keigo’s Kao Utsumi in action! And she is sooo different from the drama-Utsumi. So much cooler and smarter and less annoying oops. Most of the stories are not released on the goggle-box yet, so it’s worth a read. Now looking forward to The Saint’s Retribution (聖女的救濟) traditional Chinese version, due to come out by the end of the month in Taiwan. :D

But frankly speaking, I don’t like the Galileo books as much as his other works. [I’ve always thought he injects too much lovey dovey moments between Yukawa sensei and his ex-classmate Kusanagi Shunpei (much like the interactions between Holmes and Watson) that keeps slashers happy.] I thought Midnight Sun’s Journey was better, and Riverside Murder was epic. Yeah there are the others, like Fate, Letter, Doorway of Murder etc. I love the twists that come in the last few pages (or sometimes even the last page) of the books. Higashino Keigo is really a master at depicting the dark side of human nature. Thumbs up, yeoh!

That said, I am addicted to Galileo fan fictions. Most of them are pretty good, really, some even surpassing the original series IMHO. There are those novel-length fics with complicated plots and elaborate criminal methods, and there are others that are less than a thousand words but speak millions. I loved Harry Potter fan fics, but the good ones are so few in numbers and so hard to find. Galileo fan fics are mostly pleasant to read. :D

The Ryoma Intro book is an interesting read. It is not a picture book as I initially thought. In fact it’s rather wordy towards the back. And it contains a lengthy interview HAHAHAHAHA. Translator, anyone? XD It’s fun to look at the relationship chart though. There are so many characters in the drama so it’ll prolly be rather hard to keep tabs on who-is-who once the show begins, especially if I’m watching the keyhole quality video without subs. But seriously, he was married to one woman and loved by three others?! Lucky dude. XD Most interestingly, 4 of the main actors are from Beauty or Beast! :D Especially Watanabe Ikkei gosh! Masha and Watanabe-san collaborated not just in Ryoma and BOB, but in Galileo too! This guy follows me everywhere, I even spotted him in Liar Game and Trick2. =.= (Okay I looked up his name on wiki, apparently he starred in 11 dramas just in 2007 alone. -.-)

OH I just scanned through the names of Ryoma’s production team. The screenwriter wrote the Galileo, Hero and CHANGE scripts too. Figures.

So yep, really excited about Ryoma. Let’s go! :D

Final Words

2010-01-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

Let’s talk about the last day of 2009.

Initially wanted to stay at home watch Kouhaku Utagassen at home (HAH I’m such a recluse) but of course I didn’t in the end.

This year’s countdown is awesome! :D Spent it at Stacey’s house with the two. XD The concert was secondary - it wasn’t exactly amazing or whatsoever, most of the artistes put on mediocre performances that we love to bash. XD BUT it’s the company that counts; I don’t remember the last time I spent my new year with anyone (My parents would be asleep by 11. Yeah, they are becoming old. -.- Not that I mind, since my mum has a knack of interrupting me at the most crucial moments i.e. when MD/Sodagreen/Cheer performed. =.=)

So the last few hours of 2009 were spent watching Taipei最High Countdown Concert. Here are some of the highlights (The WOOHS and BOOHS)

BOO #1: Fahrenheit’s performance was painful. Our dearest temperature boyband was so obviously lip-syncing that they didn’t bother to hide the fact. So why on earth were their earphones on in the first place? Come on, if you can’t sing, at least dance something decent, but nope, their moves were as horrendous as their voices. Somebody was lagging by a beat throughout the three dances, and I couldn’t figure if was deliberate or they are just plain lousy what. So of course, much mouth-lashings ensued. It was fun. :D

BOOH #2: I have a problem with Ding Dang’s producer. It’s not that she is bad because she CAN sing. But what’s the deal with her miniskirt and beyonce-inspired dance beats man? Her ballads were much, much better. Please, just let her voice be the focus. Forget about the dances. And Ding Dang, time to grow up and leave the protective arms of Mayday.

BOOH #3: The Running Show, or whatever it is called. What the hell is it supposed to be? Going around smashing people’s heads with cardboards and paper is art?! Well then I guess I just can’t appreciate art.

Some parts were so boring that me and Stacey were looking through the photos in our phones HAHA. Yes, I am a fangirl below all the facade. And I am proud of it WOOH! Strange that it is only limited to Japanese and our western buddies.

WOOH #1: Shuhui likes Hebe. And frankly I do find her pretty and rather good as a singer. And why are all the older songs so much better than the newer pieces? When 美麗新世界 was played we all perked up HAHAHA.

WOOH #2: 小鬼 put up a commendable performance. Good one there. Yoga’s rendition of Eason’s song was great.

WOOH #3: The MCees’ performance! :D We have the 食尚玩家 bunch and 瓜哥 X 藍心湄 duo dancing to the music. Their combined Sorry Sorry imitation was LOL!

WOOH #4: Was dozing off throughout the show (I’m still growing I need sleep! XD) but when TEH FIVE appeared (at around 11pm) I instantaneously became wide awake HAHAHA. Helps to have 軋車 as the first song, no? XD We were yelling and jumping/dancing (?!) with the music (sorry auntie and neighbours!) HAHA can you imagine, I did that all by myself for the past few years while trying to keep my excitement down in order not to wake up my sleeping parents?! Yeah it was really anti-climatic. And their performances last year wasn’t exactly fantastic because someone was waaay out of tune HAH. So yesterday was GREAT in my book (of lonely new years). Apparently it was a rehash of the DNA concert, and even the effects are the same. DANG, I swear selling away my DNA ticket was my biggest regret last year. (Okay besides not studying as hard as I should have for my prelims and As.) DANG THE As.

So as I was saying… Monster’s solo was great! Stone’s guitar wasn’t working well because we couldn’t hear his solo melody all the bass beats. Yan Ming’s solo was oh-kay, but I really miss the sight of him the five. BUT there was no Masha solo. Strange neh. I was anticipating it ‘cos I’ve heard much good stuff about it. Naturally, Ms. Teo was pissed. :-O (We are so biased. XD Rather, we discriminate against someone HAH)

And when I heard RSHH goosebumps formed and the world seemed to come to a stand still and it was just the melody, the lyrics and me. (HAHA quit the melodrama, woman!) Have you gotten the feeling before? I think the lyrics really describe my current state of mind. Am I worried about what is going to happen tomorrow? Of course. Do I fear what lies in store for me in the future? Yep. Yes, t’was freedom at last for me when As were over, but then the uncertainties and dread hit me. Where next? What next? I don’t have any answers yet. But for now, at least I know that I decide my mood, nobody can take that privilege away from me. XD

I REALLY HAVE TO GO FOR ONE DNA CONCERT THIS YEAR! RAHH.

SO-SO: The Lee Hom performance after midnight. Admittedly, I don’t dig his looks or go for his ballads. But then again, my tastes have always been questionable (though I beg to differ, really).

SO that’s all for the lengthy rundown of the countdown concert.

After that I was practically sleep walking siah. Read 怪獸家點名 in Stacey’s room while the two watched Family Outing. :D Oh I do love to stare at the guitars! I managed to finish the book (skipping through the last few pages) and joined them watching the show (and falling asleep because I have little patience of watching shows from beginning to the end. Short attention span sorz.) Eventually I dozed off at around 4/5 when we were watching some talk show with the 8 people Japanese boyband.

The next thing I know, I woke up at 9 on 1st Jan, 2010 in Stacey’s room.

Checked out the Kouhaku videos and CDTV Masha cuts. I think his curls are growing on me, finally. Who is exciting about Ryoma! -waves arms- For Kouhaku, Masha was singing in the heavy snow in his hometown, Nagasaki (near Ryoma’s filming location), outside a Ryoma-era pavillion! The overall effect was wow.

Yep that kind of sums up the last few hours of 2009 and the first few hours of 2010. Thank you Stacey and auntie for the house and food and hospitality! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

Fetish

2009-12-30T00:54:00.005+08:00

You know you are turning into a fangirl when…

1. You cancelled all appointments just to finish watching Hitotsu Yane no Shita
(Masaya is so sweet! :D)

2. You were rewatching ALL the episodes of Music Station and Hey Hey Hey! on your hard drive when you were supposed to be looking for jobs. (HAHAHAHA I love the Hey Hey Hey! special! The Music Station Super Live with KOH+ was funny too! 8D)

(Psssssst. If you look carefully, Takuya Kimura is wearing platform boots. But why is he still so much shorter than Masha?!)

3. You hate his curls but still can’t wait for Ryoma Den. (AND you dug up information of the hairstylist who cut his Galileo hairstyle. He has a salon in California btw. XD)

4. You roam around Youtube all day long and subscribe to all the videos of him you could get your hands on.

5. You were watching Beauty or Beast days before Common Test

6. You love to hear others praising him. (Nice one Beyonce! :D)

7. You bought a magazine (that contains a 2000 words interview) even though you could not understand a single Japanese character.

8. You tune in to Suzuki FM and TFM radio programmes every weekend, even though you do not understand anything. (You just laugh when he laughs. -.- The live performances are great though! :D Acoustic Fukuyama! :D)

9. You ask all your friends going Japan to grab his CDs for you, even though you have all the songs already (SORZ illegal).

10. You know he is probably the number 1 pervert in Japan but it doesn’t bother you at all. (His coloured jokes are… legendary. -.-)

11. AND you can’t stop staring at his mole(s). XD

AHH and JOIN THE Mr.BlackSpecs CLUB! XD

It has been a year. (:

Rather, two years since Galileo.

Time to get married, old man! XD

2009 - 2010

2009-12-24T09:38:00.000+08:00

假如你想給我聖誕節禮物/生日禮物但不知道要買什麽，仁慈的我在此給你一些點子！XDDDDDD

-不要臉-

2009 - 2010

新專輯

1. 《太陽》 - Cheer 陳綺貞
2. 《不合時宜 Manic Pixie Dream Girl》 - 1976 (CHECK! :D)
3. 《旺福愛你》 - Wonfu 旺福
4. 《五月天DNA創造演唱會紀錄》 - MD 五月天
5. 《残響 Zankyou》 - Fukuyama Masaharu 福山雅治 (CHECK! :D Thanks Sarah! XD)
6. 《你們都不要變》 EP - Tizzy Bac
7. 《南下列車》 EP - Superband 縱貫線

舊貨

1. 《方向感》 - 1976
2. Another Works - Fukuyama Masaharu 福山雅治 (CHECK! :D Thanks Eelyn! :D)
3. 《東京にもあったんだ》 EP - Fukuyama Masaharu 福山雅治

書

1. 聖女的救濟 - 東野圭吾
2. 伽利略的煩惱 - 東野圭吾

電影

1. Alice In Wonderland
2. The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus
3. Blue Mansion
4. Sherlock Holmes
5. Never Let Me Go

演唱會
1. Superband 縱貫線告別演唱會

就醬而已 :D

黎明之前的黑暗

2009-12-23T10:05:00.003+08:00

在我的世界裏沒有希望只有絕望

你把踐踏別人的自尊心作爲樂趣

把我講得一文不值，心裏暗爽

像颱風襲擊一樣把我的希望一一破滅

在起跑綫上就勸我主動放棄、投降

你口中的我缺點一大籃，優點一個都沒有

以前拉中胡，說我是在濫竽充數

後來踢足球，調侃我說我應該一直蹲冷板凳，上場一分鐘都輪不到我吧

你說我粗心，不靈活，笨

不善于溝通，不能與人相處

還說我做不了那些需要技能或需要跟別人講話的工作

只適合做那些不需要大腦，一個人封閉起來的工作

那你的意思就是我只能儅清潔工，對嗎？我問到

那種工作你也做不了

那我能做什麽？！

…… [沉默]

你的意思就是讓我天天癱在家裏，是嗎？

沒有！我希望你趕快出去賺錢！我看……你去應徵那些工廠操作工的職位

……

你也很喜歡評論別人多麽的差勁

然後附加一句：

可是他應該還是比你厲害吧

或

至少比你好一點

……

[輕聲] 那我還有存在的價值嗎？

編造故事的高手

2009-12-13T20:15:00.006+08:00

沒想到你這麽狠毒

原本只是不想多談那些和我無關緊要、與你不曾相識、毫無瓜葛的某某的私人生活

有必要那麽八卦嗎？一切純屬你的猜測，毫無實際的憑空猜測

單凴道聽途説和級豐富的想象力絞盡腦汁、想方設法編織出的故事

將狗仔隊扭曲事實的伎倆發揮得淋漓盡致

簡直能和水果周刊比美

可是你始終不肯承認自己的高談闊論有多麽的荒謬

一直以來都很討厭你隨波逐流、人云亦云的態度

做人怎能這麽沒主見？

曾以爲你只是很小心眼，

現在竟然連那麽惡劣、可惡的字眼都說得出口

不要每次都把搞砸的事賴在別人身上

爲了擡舉自己不惜踩在別人的頭頂上

很過分耶！

看看鏡子裏的你，好好地反省吧！

還有，不要把近視眼作爲藉口！

-氣-

Edit to add: 最近我好憤清哦，寫了一大堆吐槽文 =。=

You're Beautiful/Handsome

2009-12-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

This may sound incoherent, because I am typing in the same way as I talk.

Okay, I need to defend myself. Just to clarify things a bit before everyone thinks I’m a weirdo. But seriously, it just seems wrong to ogle at a bunch of boys, init? I’m not a pedophile! I guess that’s the main reason why I gave up on Detective Gukuen Q after 1.5 episodes. It felt so wrong to watch a bunch of kids running around pretending to be Sherlock Holmes, and the cast of 15 year olds makes the drama seem… juvenile.

That’s why, I am alright with the A.N.Jells (HAH angels), precisely because they are all older than me, and the charismatic lead is 3 years older. :D Still, it is a tight fit (the female protagonist is merely one year older, dear me), and I am beginning to feel old (?!!), as it dawned on me that the current batch of idols seem to match my age or are even younger than me. -.- SERIOUSLY. While I stay at home, gawping at the screen, wasting my life away as an Otaku (or Hikikomori, whatever that means), people of my age are out there in the real/reel world competing with adults, exposed to stardom, living their dreams. It unsettles me.

N’uff of that. Anyway, the past 3 days were spent on watching You’re Beautiful (as if the whole world doesn’t know already). I’m quite proud of myself this time round, well for one I am watching this without the tingling feeling of guilt at the back of my head (I have this peculiar habit of getting addicted to dramas during exam periods), and more importantly, I actually watched this drama in chronological order, without skipping right to the final episode halfway through to see how the ending plays out (as I ALWAYS do. Yep I love spoilers. :D) Isn’t that an amazing accomplishment! Incidentally, it is also the only show I’ve watched without rooting for one character right from the beginning (think Zhong Zong, Koda, Snape etc). Perhaps this is so because all the characters are likable, be it the demure Shin-Woo, the cute Jeremy or the cool Tae-Kyung. Well if I really HAVE to choose, I would go for Tae-Kyung, Jeremy a close second. Shin-Woo doesn’t appeal to me, as in the case of his parallel, Ji Hoon, from Boys Over Flowers. WELL at least I find Shin-Woo alright, and at times even pity him; hated Ji Hoon in BOF. Oh and Manager Ma’s hilarious antics and wild imaginations never fail to crack me up! :D And President Ahn’s (in)famous lines, ‘Go go go!’, ‘Fantastique!’, ‘JACKPOT!’. Some credits must be given to UNEE, cast as the supposed villain in the show [nicknamed ‘fairy’ by the fans for her ahem beauty and HEH ‘gentle soul’. (Wassup with all the mystic references, anyway? We’ve got 4 angels, and now there is a ‘devil-fairy’. Corny!)], does not piss me off too much, since all her attempts to expose Gu Mi Nam fail in the end, thanks to the protection by the ‘angels’ (or rather, A.N.Jells =.=).

Although the drama is full of clichés and parts borrowed from other shows, it manages to put a twist to all these clichés to make it a refreshing watch. Sometimes, I even get the vibe that the script writers are trying to poke fun of the clichés. The parodies are classic, MadTV style. The show manages to capture the current idol scene in Korea rather accurately, IMHO, like the mass of anti-fans, the need for publicity and exposure, the crazy fans, and most hilariously, the slash fanfics of the trio!!!!!!!! They actually re-enacted the whole scene out of a slashfic of the orginal A.N.Jells hahahahaha! (Not that I like slash fics, but I love reading good Galileo and Snape fics.)

I love the rabbit-pig! It is so adorable. Loved it when Tae-Kyung did the operation on two different soft toys to get the hybrid (a symbol of Gu Mi Nam, since he calls her rabbit-pig, after two animals he hated). His punch kiss was cute, and loved it whenever he smirks/pouts/twitches his mouth. Jeremy is so adorable, and it was heartbreaking to see him cry. Well Shin-Woo… Didn’t feel much about him (reasons stated above), yes he is nice and all, but lacking that bit of charisma. Prefer him strumming the guitar on stage. THAT’S WHY I find YAB much better than BOF. 2 is company, 3 is crowd, and 4 means that the last guy has a non-existant and non-consequential role in the drama, which is so pointless. And the lack of parallel storylines make YAB even more endearing (didn’t like the Kim Bum’s character Yi-jung’s side story with Ga-eul, thought it complicated things way too much). It enables more plot development in other aspects, like the crazy fandom and the hilarious spoofs/crazy imaginations of Manager Ma, Jeremy, Tae-Kyung and Mi Nam! LOVE it when Tae-Kyung smiles or thinks out loud or draws on a piece of blank paper with his pencil. The classic was Gu Mi Nam (Gemma) with fireworks appearing over her head, and the cherubs in place of naked men.

I don’t like idols in general (A.N.Jell is an idol group), nor do I like idol dramas much. BUT I enjoy being an onlooker, standing at the sidelines laughing at the bunch of idols (stars as Gemma calls them – her Thomas, Julian and David XD) and taking a glimpse of their colourful lives (as opposed to my boring one).

Okay I think I will rewatch it some other day, as I do for all the dramas I like (Galileo, Good Luck!!, Beauty and Beast, DCJ, BOF… you name it :D). But I don’t really feel compelled to watch the dramas by the same few actors/actresses. Maybe only the ones with Jung Geun-seok (the male lead)? XD

BTW: read from dramabeans that Jung Geun-Seok and Park Shin-hye (Gu Mi Nyu/Gu Mi Nam) were heavy contenders for the roles of Gu Jun Pyo and Geum Jan-di in BOF! Now I wonder how it would turn out if the pair replaced Lee Min-Ho and Gu Hye-sun… (BTW their recaps are great, spent one whole night reading through all their YAB posts.)

WOW look at the polls! Apparently BOF is not faring well, init? You’re Beautiful is leading in all the polls by a large margin, great job! (:

煩

2009-12-02T22:02:00.002+08:00

奇怪嘞

告訴你多少遍了我不想看

你還硬逼我

給我選擇的機會都沒有

連閉眼躲避的時間都沒有

爲什麽人縂要給自己添加無謂的麻煩？

縂要讓自己這麽悲傷，要把自己弄得這樣狼狽不堪？

莫名其妙

毫無疑義

快樂傷悲是靠自己做主，別人是操縱不了的

所以……

應該是你内心的惡魔在作祟吧

在山崩地裂時候不要逼我面對

虛

2009-11-28T11:24:00.009+08:00

抱著洋娃娃的女孩，遍體鱗傷，拖著疲憊的身軀在黑夜裏狂奔

遊牧民在荒野中徒走，被一道道閃電夾持著

一步一腳印，艱難的向前行

勇猛的武士被蟒蛇擊倒，躺在血泊中奄奄一息

愚昧無知的國王沉浸在宮廷裏的燈紅酒綠之中，如同井底之蛙

庶民活在水深火熱之中，只能聽天由命

在金錢挂帥的社會裏，單純的小孩小心探索著不停摸索著，尋找生存之道，漸漸被腐化

天使爲了拯救自負的人類，折斷翅膀

失敗者，有重生的機會嗎？

還有勇氣在蔚藍的天空中展翅高飛嗎？

我需要的是慰籍

I'm a hermit.

愛的繼承

2009-11-26T23:03:00.005+08:00

生命是華麗錯覺時間是賊偷走一切

剛讀外公中學同學寫給他的信，恢復平靜的心又開始隱隱作痛

念完，已泣不成聲

從未知道，他曾在中學執教

也曾在一所男校就讀

那幫初中結拜的弟兄們常常聯絡感情，這近70年來交往密切

從十四嵗的少年到八十嵗的老翁

感情（七）十年如一

好難得

就如他摯友所言

他品行兼優

熱心公益（會把自己僅有的錢都捐去賑災）

憨厚老實

勤快能幹

憂國憂民

天生的領袖（這一點倒被我媽繼承了，可是輪到我就失傳啦XD）

什麽責任都往自己身上攬

這麽傑出的人

身為子孫的我們無比自豪

對他油然生敬

他賦予我的是愛的繼承，是心的延伸

很慶幸，身上流的是他的血液

心的率動是他給予的脈搏

他是我的榜樣，我是龍的傳人

將悲痛化爲力量，靚麗的度過這一生吧！

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原本想再次用五月天的《如煙》或福山雅治的《道標》來表達我對他的思念，但這些歌都被我濫用了

因此決定借用這首《18~eighteen》，訴説對家鄉的懷念（不知他當年離家背景也有這樣的感觸麽？）

18 〜eighteen〜 (作詞‧作曲福山雅治)

太陽下的校舍與操場屋頂上的銅管樂隊
追逐著夢想的旋律 15歲的夏天
朋友呀你還記得嗎
夢想還記得嗎
妳現在過得幸福嗎

不停來訪的相逢與別離
忽然像迷失了自己可是

MY HOME TOWN
戀愛、受傷及再見
全部都是第一次呢
刻記在我的身軀

MY HOME TOWN
在變幻無常的世界
就算妳和街道都改變了
請成為我心靈可以回歸的地方
永遠的 MY HOME TOWN

外國船氣笛響起
倚靠著燈塔獨自一人
「往遠方去」的思緒 18歲的夏天
「不管走到任何地方都是盡頭嘛」
對這無力感的答案
我抱著吉它仰望著天空

在夢想與現實的交差點
連妳及明天我都無法守護……

MY HOME TOWN
那一天我愛的這個城市
那一天我恨的這個城市
在踏上旅程的車站月台

MY HOME TOWN
我很想帶妳一起去呢
我很想奪走妳的呢
在口袋中緊握著
約定的話隨風逝去

只有一次的機會我只是很想要
現在得到什麼失去什麼我還再追尋著

MY HOME TOWN
戀愛、受傷及再見
全部都是第一次呢
刻記在我的身軀

MY HOME TOWN
在變幻無常的世界
就算妳和街道都改變了
請成為我心靈可以回歸的地方
請在那裡
我心靈可以回歸永遠的 MY HOME TOWN

http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/fukuyama-masaharu/article?mid=6094
English Translation

我想某一天（也許就是明年），儅大家都各奔前程，離開這個地方

會難過，會懷念嗎？

你離去，將一部分的我也帶走了

夕陽無限好，只是近黃昏

延伸

2009-11-26T08:42:00.005+08:00

不經意的一句話竟然被現實印證

是上天早有安排還是她隱隱約約察覺出什麽來

也許，她天生的預言家

我們都是齒輪上的一角

微不足道，但又缺一不可

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在大家呵護中成長

將一切視爲理所當然

每次回去，都沒能陪您多說幾句話

還偶爾對你埋怨不停

對你的“老實”和“逞強”常常嗤之以鼻

而現在……

一切爲時已晚

永遠不能原諒自己的不孝

以冷眼對待曾給我無數美好時光的長輩、親人

我還算是人嗎？

我能正視自己嗎？

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我的外公是個出色的發明家

也是一位讓我引以爲榮的模範軍人

雖為海上人，卻從未踏入戰場

雖沒學過化學，卻無師自通，自學成材

他以軍人的尊嚴度過這一生

年過八旬的老人活躍于基層活動

以十八嵗少年的激情來譜寫人生的另一燦爛篇章

勾畫出多姿多彩、富有生機的風景像

外婆、外公都是我最敬佩的人

是外婆每晚講的故事讓我從小立志儅警察

是她在我啓蒙時期的啓發讓我想和她一樣成爲婦產科醫生

是外公讓我意識到什麽是不求回報的愛

是他讓我明白，什麽是堅強、什麽是鋼鐵般的意志力

該怎麽精彩的度過這一生

他縂不希望會為大家惹麻煩

受了傷害，自己忍著

即使達到了體能的極限，也硬挺著

（身體出現了狀況，也不會告訴我們吧）

我們這些年輕力壯的新生代，還撒什麽嬌？！

他們經歷過動蕩年代，飽受疾風驟雨的磨練

我們都是溫室裏的花朵，經受不了微風細雨

無限的感慨

無盡的感激

2009年是多災多難的一年

希望2010年會更美好

當思念化爲永遠

2009-11-25T21:42:00.005+08:00

一切，發生得太突然

原本只是在半開玩笑

換來的答案竟是……

噩耗，如晴天霹雷那般始料未及

使我一時之間不知如何應對

即使到現在，還是有些精神恍惚

沒有完全的消化眼前的事實

也沒真正領悟這消息意味著什麽

Reality has not set in yet

坦白說，她的答覆僅僅化解了我之前就曾有的疑慮

雖是蒙在鼓裏，但又察覺些什麽

就和外婆一樣，心中已有數

但還是天真的希望謊言才是事實

巨大的謊言的庇護下

我生活在愚昧無知的歡快之中

謊言掩護著我

但也將你我生死分離

藏在内心深處隱隱作痛的是什麽？

是愧疚嗎？

因爲我這個天底下最爛的孫女實在欠你太多了

外公，

你離開得太突然

一句話都沒說

一個招呼也沒打

從沒想到，兩年前的“再見”再也不能兌現

這一告別竟成爲永別

人們都說離別前，曾有過的邂逅、一幕幕記憶中的畫面會在眼前重現

想起小學一年級那年，你天天騎自行車接送我上學

每次嘴饞，你就從校門口買我最愛吃的汶虎醬鴨

看著我一口氣吃第十幾個小籠包，你會開心地哈哈大笑

有時，

你把我帶到工作地方兜風、賞花

夏天的時候坐在一起啃大蒜，吃石榴

在我幼小心目中，你就是我的英雄

無數的勳章與獎狀，是你卓越表現的證明和我内心無比的驕傲

也許時間能安撫一切顫抖的心

也能漸漸淡化悲哀

但時間沖散不了農如血的親情

更不會讓你從我們記憶中消失

外公，

對您一直心存感激

你是那麽的溺愛我、寵壞我

我愛你

永遠，不會忘記你

只是……再也沒機會握你的手了

時光如梭
思念如煙

當冷漠成爲永遠的錯過
當思念化爲永遠

生命

2009-11-25T18:51:00.004+08:00

是上天在作孽？

乾涸的雙眸滴出兩行血

看清塵世

原來，這就是所謂的齒輪

無間輪轉

下一回，會輪到誰？

夏季的狂熱

2009-09-19T17:48:00.007+08:00

這一次，蘇打綠以他們獨特的曲風和有個性的歌詞試圖拉住夏天的尾巴，在清爽的秋季來臨前帶給我們最後一絲光和熱。

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夏·狂熱

作曲：史俊威
填詞：青峰
編曲：蘇打綠．林暐哲
監製：林暐哲

雷響得放肆　死去活來堅持　拋空了理智
瘋狂或正直　來自同個本質　有什麼意思
在這個急於立碑的城市　誰比誰更無恥　干我屁事

任憑時光你是多狠　我要我的選擇　為了快樂抗爭
任憑誰說我有多蠢　不讓你的新聞　毀了我的單純
長大後的我們狡猾地修改過程
童年故事汗濕的髒手心抓著　狂熱

冷血的怪手　種起大廈高樓　森林被扛走
土地的脈搏　戴上手銬大鎖　日開始不落
卻忘了所有新都來自舊　只在乎今天有　多少回扣

我知道自己的模樣　在這個世界上　擁有可貴力量
我保護自己的地方　不讓別人弄髒　才能勇敢瘋狂
小時候我們的天真在心裡長大
成年故事再多挑戰也不害怕

狂熱自己的模樣
狂熱自己的模樣
狂熱自己的模樣
就算偶爾受傷　打直腰桿堅強
狂熱自己的模樣
因為受過了傷　自由才有光芒

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他夏了夏天

詞曲/吳青峰

幾點鐘結束夢他按下鬧鐘
如往常開始了一天生活
忙工作忙收穫早餐吃什麼
他和他維持齒輪的脈搏

汗水在他的身上化成了彩虹
步伐的節奏延續生命的河流
默默在崗位戰鬥的每個小小英雄
富有和貧窮、卑微和偉大相同
他從不害怕自己被人群淹沒
中午吃便當是他最大享受

幾點鐘也許是月出的時候
如往常結束了一天工作
他心中幻想著晚餐吃什麼
家裡的讓他不怕往前衝

疲累在他的身上化成了笑容
步伐的節奏開始不那麼沈重
輕輕旋轉著夏天地面悶熱的晚風
平凡或特別、笨拙或聰明相同
他從不擔心自己被世界折磨
甜蜜的負荷是他最大依託

帶著笑容的睡意化成了彩虹
在他夢中一口氣走上了星空
喧囂地亮起整個夏天渴望的揮霍
清淡與濃烈、好與壞他都嚐過
他從不介意自己被命運作弄
按下了鬧鐘開啟另一個夢

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如果夏季象徵搖滾，那春天就是folk的季節。

再帶來《春·日光》中的一首歌。:D

嬉戲之後

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春、夏結束后，等待秋天的落葉與冬季的皚皚白雪。:D

蘇打綠四季交響曲下篇，值得大家期待。

那，我們拭目以待吧。

Can you put a price on your dreams?

2009-08-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

而我知道我知道這一切我全都知道……

可就是接受不了

I really want to watch The Imaginarium Of Doctor Parnassus, even in the unfortunate event of a clash with Prelims.

Anyway. Was watching the trailer, and a quote struck a cord with me.

Can you put a price on your dreams?

Something worth thinking about, don't you think so?

In the meantime...

Let's try to keep our dreams alive.

幻覺

2009-07-15T19:45:00.005+08:00

曾以爲，看到了希望的曙光。

可是定神一看，才發現出現在我眼前的僅是一堵柏林墻，

將我和夢想隔開

原來，一切只是我的幻覺

是我太傻太天真，還是太輕率了？

光陰不留人

恐怕……一切爲時已晚。

我需要的是鼓勵，我渴望的是認同，哪怕是一些敷衍我的同情話也好。

好羡慕A同學，至少還有一個能傾訴的對象。（這是所謂的宿命嗎？）

不像我這樣，即使心情糟透了，也只能靠聼音樂寫吐槽文來發洩。-苦笑-

單戀

2009-07-06T20:52:00.004+08:00

在一些人忙於爭求功名利祿時，社會上有另一群人在為自己的幸福進行著另一場戰爭。

他們，或許是社會上的邊緣人物吧。

像美真，一直走在赤道上。

我覺得東野圭吾擔子很大，竟然把時下最controversial的課題拿出臺面深入討論。

東野圭吾，不愧是當代本格作家中的佼佼者。

除了《單戀》以外，還借了九把刀的一本書。兩位作家的風格有天壤之別。九把刀的書很輕鬆，很批判，而東野圭吾的書很陰沉，耐人尋味，讓人思考，指出社會的問題但又不曾用批判的眼光來看待他筆下的缺陷人物/邊緣人物 — 對他來說，他只是完整敍述整個事件的前因後果，而決定是與非，那一邊是對的，讀者自定。

因此，我雖沒看完九把刀的書，還是把他還了。

夜裏出現的太陽

2009-07-04T13:18:00.002+08:00

觀看陳綺貞的音樂特輯，發現《太陽》這首歌很符合《白夜行》的故事情節耶！

就像西本雪穂是桐原亮司黑夜裏出現的太陽一般，絢麗耀眼，散發著金色的輝煌。

書中，兩人的關係從來沒有被明確的表態過，兩人也從沒出現在一起，只是在結尾從他人的口供中拼起來一幅支離破碎的風景像，一個淒慘的故事。當然，作者從頭到尾都埋藏了許多的伏筆，佈置了許多的陷阱，但畢竟文字上能表達的，搬上熒幕就不一定能做得到 - 這就是文字微妙之処。

剛從報紙看到消息，韓國也要拍《白夜行》這部東野圭吾小説的電影版。而在《花樣男子 - 流行花園》飾演具俊表的未婚妻的演員也將參與演出。那，我們就拭目以待吧。:D

星期四在KINOKUNIYA看到了東野圭吾的另一部新作 - 《幻影》，故事情節人物色彩都和《白夜行》差不多，但据書評所言，《幻影》的主人翁比桐原亮司還要可憐，因爲他得不到贖罪的機會。桐原亮司通過幫助西本雪穂而得到了釋放，《幻影》的主人翁卻一直被女主角利用，在他的黑夜裏，連虛假太陽都沒有出現，連寥寥無幾的星星都沉默了。一切，即為幻影，虛無縹緲，將他困進宿命的齒輪，頻頻推向罪惡的懸崖，跌進絕望的深谷。齒輪不停的周轉，等同于他不斷的墮落。

東野圭吾，你太絕啦！

推薦：

湖邊兇殺案
宿命
秘密
白夜行
嫌疑犯X的獻身
名偵探的守則 [超好笑的，現在也改編成電視劇啦！]

[超想看《放學后》、《聖女的救濟》和《伽利略的苦惱》XD]

太陽(Immortal)
詞:陳綺貞曲:陳綺貞

我膽小的對自己說，就是這樣嗎?
我是你夜裡的太陽，也是你，影子裡的悲傷。
我問我...這世界是否，一如往常?
讓我照耀你安息的時光。

你是我...小心維護的夢，
我疲倦的享受著，
誰也無法代替你的光芒。

我是我...一碰就碎的太陽，
我熱切的希望，能在消失之前，
得到信仰。

我膽小的對自己說...就是這樣嗎?
我是你眼裡的太陽，也是你鏡子裡的驕傲。
我問我...這世界是否,一如往常?
需要我在擁擠午夜發光。

你是我...小心維護的夢。
我疲倦的享受著，
誰也無法代替的孤傲。

我是我...疲倦流浪的太陽。
我熱切的希望，能在消失之前，
得到信仰。

你是我...小心維護的夢。
我疲倦的享受著，
誰也無法靠近的孤傲。

我是我...疲倦流浪的太陽。
無法為自己，
無法為誰，靜止下來。

我是我...一碰就碎的太陽，
我熱切的希望，能在消失之前，
得到，信仰。

流行很可恥

2009-06-03T09:13:00.006+08:00

YGH

我就是討厭流行歌曲怎麽樣？

我認爲流行歌曲很垃圾怎麽樣？

至少Joanna做出的音樂很棒

所以她有資格這樣說

我想她的意思是那些做流行音樂的人很沒种吧

反正我就是這樣認爲

任由公司包裝，唱那些假惺惺、沒有什麽思想的歌曲

算是人類的進步還是人類的可恥？

YGH

我本來蠻喜歡滾石唱片的（畢竟是李宗盛大哥的唱片公司）

可是就算你是什麽唱片公司的區域老大

你就以爲你能說出那種話？

更何況你是代表公司

現在你只能希望你的公司沒有被你的言談受損

下次再見到你的時候……你可想而知吧

我很不屑流行歌手隨波逐流的態度

這到底是因爲熱愛音樂，想把自己的音樂理想表達出來而作音樂

還是爲了銷售、爲了歌手排行榜、爲了錢這個字

爭得你死我活

把大衆的口味統一了，把大衆的智商給降低了？

當今的樂壇唱片水平音樂素質參差不平

根本不喜歡音樂，做什麽音樂

根本不會唱歌，唱什麽歌

根本沒有理想，寫什麽詞

把這些事情交給真的熱愛音樂，真的欣賞好音樂的人來做好不好！

不要讓大衆的耳朵受罪了

拜托

音樂被生意人干涉就不是純音樂了

要想，有多少音樂夢想被主流文化給埋葬了？

所以我非常非常喜愛《春。日光》 -笑-

哇吐槽以後感覺一身輕哦！XD

穿過殺人之門

2009-06-03T09:11:00.004+08:00

綜觀古今中外，關於校園欺淩的書籍處處可見，屢見不鮮

近幾年美國校園槍擊事件又將校園暴力重新放在社會輿論的顯微鏡底下

校霸欺淩

這是一種敗壞的校園風氣

受害者爲了生存、為尋報復，漸漸成爲施害者

就像故事裏的主人翁一樣

社會造就了他

把他推向殺人之門

放肆地推翻科學理論/不實際的妄想

2009-05-30T09:32:00.007+08:00

《放肆》 - 五月天
詞曲：陳信宏 (五月天的主唱阿信）

想太多又想太重的夢想還不如乾脆不多想
每一個險惡的浪都會有浪花綻放我決定邊衝邊欣賞

牛頓要我們都活在地上偏偏我就想要飛翔
要掙脫命運綑綁要推翻柏林圍牆要站上巨人的肩膀

夢想永遠是逆向一路都有人阻擋
人們說的荒唐卻是我的心中的天堂！

就放肆愛放肆追放肆去闖放肆的大鬧一場
不能原諒如果很多年後我還是這樣

就放肆愛放肆追放肆去闖放肆是我的信仰
再不去闖夢想永遠只會是一個夢想

哥倫布只要有一顆星光就膽敢橫越大西洋
我還有一把吉他我還有一群死黨為什麼還不大聲唱

達爾文假設生命是戰場就讓我基因不投降
把傷痕裝滿手掌把鼓聲裝滿心臟把歌聲裝滿肺活量

夢想永遠是逆光只有剪影的模樣
會有什麼細節什麼體驗？不要只猜想！

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量子隧穿效应(quantum tunneling)是我的信仰

它給我啓示

天皇不負有心人

有堅韌不拔的意志力和滴水穿石的精神

縂有一天能衝破重重阻攔，穿越能量的圍牆，擺脫大自然的束縛

推翻一切傳統科學理論、公式和概念

實現人類邏輯上的不可能

[就像當年愛因斯坦提出了轟動全球的“量子假説”一樣（即光不僅極有波動性，同時也具有粒子性）]

來到夢想的國境

雖然幾率非常渺小 (What are the chances of me 'tunneling' through a wall? 囧)

但至少有那一絲微薄的希望

讓我持續下去

讓我有勇氣為夢想、為理想衝刺

我相信會有奇跡發生

我是個愛做夢的傻瓜

(:

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壘球能將直升機擊/轟下

兩個人明明認識對方卻不理不睬貌似陌生人

這樣的夢境到底是在隱喻/暗示著什麽？

不解

這就是我的另類妄想世界

愛做夢的傻瓜

2009-05-20T22:33:00.006+08:00

其實……

對我來說輸贏並不重要

因爲這個世界本來就很不公平

要怪也只能怪命運太喜歡捉弄人

That's just life

所以大家（包括我自己）

要坦然面對現實

要振作起來

因爲前頭的路很長 (:

至少

我們曾經做過一個共同的夢

向同一個目標前進

至少

我們努力過

我們是夢想的小孩

我是個愛做夢的傻瓜

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As a child, I couldn't accept that all good (and bad) things must come to an end.

Just like the expiry date on a carton of my favourite brand of chocolate milk.

Like the moment when I finished reading the last Harry Potter book on the day of its release.

Like when the credits start rolling at the end of a movie. (Think Return of the King - watching the last part of most trilogies would make me terribly sad.)

Like after every single concert I've been to.

When the curtains fall.

Like the day when we graduate.

Like the Matrix Revolutions tagline: Everything that has a beginning has an end.

I am still learning to accept it.

Our season has barely ended a few hours ago, and I am already starting to feel the withdrawal symptoms - the emptiness and a sense of loss.

I know I'll miss soccer.

And I'll miss the people.

The fun.

The laughter.

I <3 RJsoccer. :D

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《曲終人散》 - 張宇

作詞：十一郎
作曲：張宇

妳讓他用戒指把妳套上的時候
我察覺到妳臉上複雜的笑容
那原本該是我　付予妳的承諾
現在我只能隱身熱鬧中

我跟著所有人向妳祝賀的時候
只有妳知道我多喝了幾杯酒
我不能再看妳　多一眼都是痛
即使知道暗地裡妳又回頭

我終於知道曲終人散的寂寞
只有傷心人才有
你最後一身紅　殘留在我眼中
我沒有再依戀的藉口

原來這就是曲終人散的寂寞
我還想等妳什麼
妳緊緊拉住我衣袖　又放開讓我走
這一次跟我徹底分手

散場
別以為揮手能終結所有的心事
其實這只不過又是一場心力交瘁的開始

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One day, we will graduate from RJ.

And finally, we will be forced to step out of our comfort zones, away from our sheltered lives in RG and RJ, into the real world.

Hello, world.

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胃痛。頭痛。喉嚨痛。

有一種預感我快生病了。=/

[I had a really queer dream on Monday night.]

I want to hide in a corner and cry till all my tears dry up.

Finally a post in English

2009-05-15T20:07:00.009+08:00

Are we able to put all our failures behind us and move on?

7 more days to our next match. Heads up RJsoccer!

WHOOOSH.

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Someone asked me if it bothers me if I don't get to play.

I gave it some thought.

Actually it doesn't matter to me if I play or not, it's about how we do as a team.

But even then, ultimately, what matters more to me is not the scoreline, but going through the ups and downs with the team.

It's not really all about the achievements, it is about the satisfaction and enjoyment we derived from the process. :D

I think being in this team is the best thing that has happened to me in RJ.

What we may lose to other teams, we make up with our team spirit, our friendships, the fun we've had.

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Today's H3 was hell lot of fun. :D

And yep, it was really enlightening. XD

To quote from Claire (who quoted from someone), the most important thing in life is to stay happy.

I truly believe in that. :D

So what if I'm mediocre? At least I am happy! (:

在黑暗中行走，在夜晚中出現的太陽 - 《白夜行》

2009-05-12T18:20:00.004+08:00

這些天感到有點鬱悶

也許有某种程度是應為看了《白夜行》（日文：びゃくやこう）這本東野圭吾寫的小説。（我看的是臺灣出版社翻譯成繁體中文的版本，分上、下兩冊。）其實會撿起這本書，主要是因爲非常看好東野圭吾的作品，算是在追捧他寫的書啦。:D 從《嫌疑犯X的獻身》到《湖畔殺人事件》，從《偵探伽利略》到《宿命》，從《預知夢》到《名偵探的守則》，本本引人入勝，讓我愛不釋手。其中東野圭吾細膩的人物刻畫和心理描寫更是難得一見的出色，在當代推理作家當中應該可以説是佼佼者。

所以，我是抱著萬分期待的心情翻開這本書。然後，徹底的被吸了進去，甚至廢寢忘食。

故事的情節是悲慘的

人物的心靈是陰暗的

兩個主人翁爲了隱瞞童年時代發生的謀殺案的真相，不惜抹煞更多人的生命，毫無愧疚的奪取旁人的靈魂，越陷越深，在黑暗中找不到出路。

其實作者的出發點並不是一味的譴責那兩個無惡不作的主人翁，而讀者也或許會同情他們的遭遇。

因爲他們之所以會變成這樣，跟家庭、社會都脫離不了關係。

我想，自從桐原亮司的母親出軌那一刻，命運的齒輪就開始運轉。

桐原亮司的父親漸漸患上戀童癖

西本雪穂因家境貧困而被迫賣身

成長后

心靈畸形的他們奪走更多人的靈魂來檷補靈魂的空缺

可悲嗎

十八嵗的生日感言（巧克力蛋糕好誘人）

2009-04-29T21:30:00.001+08:00

一晃眼，

十八年就這樣過去了。

一生有幾個十八嵗？差不多四到五個左右吧。

要珍惜剩下來的光陰哦。

(:

朋友們，感謝你們這麽多年來的陪伴與包容

在你們這些巨人面前我感覺很渺小很渺小

[在我發牢騷時有你們聆聽就夠了，柯柯 XD]

「當我決定擁抱自己，世界就開始擁抱我」 - 陳綺貞

妒嫉是一種致命毒劑

2009-04-28T20:49:00.003+08:00

夢想終究鬥不過現實的衝擊

明知這個道理，卻又不甘願就這樣放棄

所以我

秉持著“憨人”的精神向前衝

就算以卵擊石、打得慘敗又怎麽樣？

至少我努力過 :D

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我很渴望這樣的關懷，這種無私的大愛

我也希望你能為我操心、為我開心

因爲從來沒有體驗過被人寵愛的滋味

這，就是所謂的嫉妒麽？

-鬱悶-

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用鏡子照了一下心靈，發現越來越討厭現在的自己哦

手心手背都是肉！

2009-04-21T21:47:00.002+08:00

怎麽辦！如果五月天蘇打綠Tizzy Bac都角逐今年金曲獎最佳樂團獎的話，我會拿不定主意支持誰才好耶。因爲比銷售量當然是五月天第一毋庸置疑，但論音樂質量的話三張專輯都很棒很優秀，所以我才那麽爲難……=.= 畢竟手心手背都是肉嘛。

(我會不會想到太遠啊囧）

崩塌了！(我的世界...)

2009-04-09T22:03:00.004+08:00

大勢已去，現在再説什麽都沒有用了。

只是……

很想證明給自己，我並非無能。

至少要對得起自己吧！

不能繼續沉浸在愧疚與失望之中。

但說起來挺容易做起來卻很難哦。

欠你的，縂有一天會還給你的

Edit to add:

送給自己的幾句成語 —

破釜沉舟背水一戰東山再起 :D

因爲我很不甘心耶。

請給我一些掌聲好嗎？

2009-04-07T21:59:00.003+08:00

我需要的是安慰，我渴望的是鼓勵，哪怕只是一兩句同情的話也好。

可是，我從你那裏得到的是什麽？

好不容易說服自己，事情並沒有想象中的那麽糟，

但你脫口而出的經是一些讓人灰心冷意、錘頭喪氣的話，

句句在我心坎上留下不可磨滅的疤痕！

將我再一次的推向自責的懸崖，任憑我沉淪，然後隨我墮落到無盡的黑暗深淵裏！

我是不是真得很沒用？

我是不是真毫無價值？

我會不會很失敗？

知道嗎？

你真的刺傷了我，

現在的我心情低落谷底耶。

都托你的福啦。

「當我決定擁抱自己，世界就開始擁抱我」 - 陳綺貞

不想做個逃兵

2009-04-01T16:09:00.006+08:00

在夢想的邊境，你是奮力拼搏的勇士，還是畏葸不前的逃兵？

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我明白，

要成功非一日之寒，

必須持有一种百折不撓、永不言棄的武士精神，才能沖出重圍，闖出一片藍天。

我們身經百戰，

早已習慣懞著雙眼與敵人較量，然後拖著傷痕累累的身軀，盲目的奔向下一個戰場又開始新一輪的廝殺。

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獻給我親愛的同學 (You KNOW I'm talking about you!) :D

朋友別哭（凡人二重唱&張宇）
詞：陳樂融曲：莫凡

有沒有一扇窗能讓你不絕望
看一看花花世界原來像夢一場
有人哭有人笑有人輸有人老
到結局還不是一樣

有沒有一種愛能讓你不受傷
這些年堆積多少對你的知心話
什麼酒醒不了什麼痛忘不掉
向前走就不可能回頭望

朋友別哭我依然是你心靈的歸宿
朋友別哭要相信自己的路
紅塵中有太多茫然痴心的追逐
你的苦我也有感觸

朋友別哭我一直在你心靈最深處
朋友別哭我陪你就不孤獨
人海中難得有幾個真正的朋友
這份情請你不要不在乎

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多聽勵志歌曲能讓人頓時心情愉快哦！-笑-

（推薦：永遠不回頭、我相信、相信—蘇打綠、出頭天、花、憨人、海闊天空、笑忘歌 etc）

朋友，別哭

要振作起來哦！:D

一起加油，好嗎？(:

也許只有像我這種得過且過，天真愚昧的人才會一身輕鬆吧！-笑-

賊

2009-03-28T21:22:00.006+08:00

你是個心狠手辣的小偷。

一個蠻橫無理的強盜。

雖然歲月和距離使我們漸漸疏遠，

可是我一直都相信你是個好人，這點我從來沒有懷疑過。

11年前是這樣，如今也如此。

因此儅別人說你的不是，我總是有所保留，將信將疑，有時還會為你挺身説話，

無論如何，你曾是我的恩人，我唯一的朋友。

也許你不知道，你曾是我的一切，是個我既尊敬又仰慕的對象。

可是現在，你揮霍了我對你的信任。

很失望。真的。

我已經做出了我的抉擇，我決定站在她的那邊。我想我應該能分明是非吧，還沒至於渾目到那種地步。

我以爲，人生這條路怎麽走是不能讓一些某某某掌控的。畢竟，最寬敞平坦的道路不是每個人都適合的，更不是所有人的那杯奶茶。我堅信，條條大陸通羅馬，行行出狀元。你要做什麽，全由你。

但是，這不意味著你能用一些不正當的手段做一些偷雞摸狗的事，來滿足你龐大的消費和揮霍的本性。

對與錯，一綫之隔。不管有意還是無知，你已越過了這條綫。

I'm sorry.

我不能接受這個事實。

心，被你的冷漠灼傷。

淚，為流逝的歲月哭泣。

懷念單純的過去

厭倦殘酷的現實

讓人迷茫的未來

（從什麽時候開始連吃飯睡覺都變成一種煎熬？）

時間是賊，它偷走了我們所有美好的一切

留下我獨自一人在悲痛的深淵裏掙扎，然後葬身苦海。

劇終人散

空無一人的大廳，

剩下只有我和寂寞做朋友。

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陳綺貞 - 手的預言

風箏飛，葉落下，
拳頭的世界如此大。

線纏繞，樹長大，
手掌留住了風，
握不住一粒沙。

我的左手是貓，右手是撫慰的力量。
你讓我輕輕的合掌，喚來舊時光。
閉上眼，就地捲起海浪，奔向紙月亮，
追逐一頭大雨中的狼。

蝴蝶飛，浪退潮。
手打開，
不害怕，匱乏。

瘋子的狂言

2009-03-07T20:09:00.003+08:00

I hate to be myself.
天生愛墮落
又愛作一些做不到的夢

我真的很討人厭哦

我沒辦法泰然面對他人的指指點點

雖然說不要在乎別人的眼光，我還是做不到。

對未來常常迷茫無助

真的不是很快樂。

就這麽的自卑

這麽的可憎、可惡。

我能包容別人、冰釋前嫌，

但我永遠不能原諒自己的閃失。

每隔一段日子，就會因爲某件小事開始懷疑自己存在的價值。

很消極吧，好脆弱啊。

我不喜歡自己的現狀，可是又不知道能改變什麽。

也許這就是所謂的“社會壓力”吧。

-鬱悶-

在茫茫人海中，我是誰。

在這個星球上，我是什麽。

那只是一場遊戲一場夢

虛無縹緲

帶不走的丟不掉的讓大雨侵蝕吧

2009-02-14T12:28:00.001+08:00

陳綺貞 (Cheer Chen) - 《魚》
（收錄在《太陽》專輯）
詞曲：陳綺貞

我坐在椅子上看日出復活
我坐在夕陽里看城市的衰弱
我摘下一片葉子讓它代替我
觀察離開后的變化

曾經狂奔舞蹈貪婪的說話
隨著冷的濕的心腐化
帶不走的丟不掉的讓大雨侵蝕吧
讓他推向我在邊界奮不顧身掙扎
如果有一個懷抱勇敢不計代價
別讓我飛將我溫柔豢養

我坐在椅子上看日出復活
我坐在夕陽里看城市的衰弱
我摘下一片葉子讓它代替我
觀察離開后的變化

曾經狂奔舞蹈貪婪的說話
隨著冷淡試戴浮華
帶不走的留不下的我全都交付他
讓他捧著我在手掌自由自在揮灑
如果有一個世界渾濁的不像話
原諒我飛曾經眷戀太陽

帶不走的丟不掉的讓大雨侵蝕吧
讓它推向我在邊界奮不顧身掙扎
如果有一個世界渾濁的不像話
我會瘋狂的愛上

帶不走的留不下的我全都交付他
讓他捧著我在手掌自由自在揮灑
如果有一個懷抱勇敢不計代價
別讓我飛將我環繞
原諒我飛曾經眷戀太陽
原諒我飛曾經眷戀太陽

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悅耳的歌聲，讓我眷戀的曲調，令人浮想聯翩的歌詞。

這就是陳老師。

這次的新專輯很讚。

陳老師，可以算是一種質量的保證吧。

一絲憂傷夾雜在音符與音符交錯之間，抨擊出來的是希望的火花。

那種感覺，已超越字面上的意思，到達了另一個意境。

魚，在這首歌裏是抽象的。

魚，究竟代表著什麽？

只能讓你用聽覺來品嘗，用心來體會。

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今天情人節。(: 極力推薦《路標》和《最愛》！不然聼《愛情的模樣》也可以！“永垂不朽“的經典喔。:D 對不起啦我今年走悲情係…… =。=

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生活在巨大謊言。

清醒了。明白了。釋懷了。

帶不走的丟不掉的讓大雨侵蝕吧

路標

2009-02-11T17:26:00.001+08:00

她獨自一人在醫院裏度過了漫長的除夕夜。

這樣一個畫面時不時浮現在我腦海中，掀起陣陣漣漪，喚起無數回憶。

其實起初知道這件事時，心，被熊熊的怒火吞噬著。

即使到現在，還是無法平息。

假如是我，我會爲了自己的休息而捨棄她嗎？

不會吧。（我能為她做的，只有那麽一點。）

但身在千里之外的我，又凴什麽理直氣壯地說他們的不是？我有資格嗎？

因爲說到底，我也沒有好到哪裏。

畢竟我只有袖手旁觀的份。畢竟這只是一場空談。

就這麽矛盾。

最後能獻給你的，還是無限的懷念，無盡的後悔。

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福山雅治 - 路標 (Fukuyama Masaharu - Michishirube)
詞曲：福山雅治

Original Lyrics:

わたしは　その手が好きです
ただ　毎日をまっすぐ生きて
わたしたちを育て旅立たせてくれた
あなたのその手が好きです
雨に打たれても土に触って
ひとつひとつ種を蒔く背中は
諦めた夢もきっとあるでしょう
だけどわたしには笑顔で…

愛に出逢い　愛を信じ　愛に破れて
愛を憎み　愛で赦し　また愛を知る
風に吹かれ　迷いゆれて　生きるこの道
あなたの笑顔　それは道標

わたしはこの海が好きです
この弓形に続く線路の
あなたが生まれ育った海に来ると
後悔が軽くなる気がして
傷もためらわず　痛みもかまわず
「勝つこと」ただそれだけが正義と
壊れてもまだ走り続けるわたしにも
あなたはやさしく…

人に出逢い　人を信じ　人に破れて
人を憎み　人を赦し　また人を知る
風に吹かれ　泣いて笑い　生きるこの道
あなたの笑顔　それは道標

風に吹かれて　走っています
あなたがくれた　この命の道を

わたしは　この手が好きです
ほら　あなたによく似ている
わたしたちを育て旅立っていった
あなたの　その手が好きです

Translated lyrics:

我喜歡那手
每天這樣單純的生活
扶養我們長大成人让我们出去闯荡

我喜歡妳的手
被雨水打濕仍觸摸著土地
將種子一個一個撒播的妳
一定也放棄過夢想吧
但是妳總是以笑臉面對著我

與愛相逢相信愛被愛傷害
憎恨愛以愛寬恕然後懂得愛
被風吹拂迷茫動搖生存的這條路
妳的笑容是路標

我喜歡這海
這長長的弓形路線
當來到妳出生、成長的海邊
我發覺後悔減輕了

受了傷不會躊躇疼痛也不在乎
妳說｢勝利｣就是正義
對失敗仍繼續走下去的我
妳那溫柔……

與他人相逢相信他人被他人傷害
憎恨他人寬恕他人然後了解他人
被風吹拂眼淚歡笑生存的這條路
妳的笑容是路標

被風吹拂仍然奔走著
妳賜給我這條生命的道路

我喜歡這手
妳看和妳的手很像
我喜歡妳那
扶養我們長大成人的手

[這首歌是福山雅治寫給他的祖母的。他十八嵗離開家鄉來到東京闖蕩，最懷念的是在故鄉的祖母。我沒有福山雅治那麽有才，不會寫歌，所以想借這首歌向她表達我的感激之心。獻給她，我生命中的路標。]

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最愛 - 福山雅治冬の大感謝祭其の九版 [電影容疑者xの献身(Suspect X)主題曲]
詞曲：福山雅治

KOH+ - 最愛

作曲:福山雅治
作詞:柴崎幸

夢のような人だから
夢のように消えるのです
その定めを知りながら
捲られてきた季節のページ
落ちては溶ける粉雪みたい
止まらない想い
愛さなくていいから
遠くで見守ってて
強がってるんだよ
でも繋がってたいんだよ
あなたがまだ好きだから
もっと泣けばよかった
もっと笑えばよかった
バカだなって言ってよ
気にするなって言ってよ
あなたに　ただ逢いたくて
初めてでした　これまでの日
間違ってないと思えたこと
陽だまりみたいな　その笑顔
生きる道を照らしてくれました
心の雨に傘をくれたのは
あなたひとりだった…
愛せなくていいから
ここから見守ってる
強がってるんだよ
でも繋がってたいんだよ
あなたが　まだ好きだから
おなじ月の下で
おなじ涙流した
ダメなんだよって
離れたくないって
ただひとこと　ただ言えなくて
いつか生命の旅
終わるその時も
祈るでしょう
あなたが憧れた
「あなた」であることを
その笑顔を　幸せを
愛さなくていいから
遠くで見守ってて
強がってるんだよ
でも繋がってたいんだよ
あなたがまだ好きだから
もっと泣けばよかった
もっと笑えばよかったのかな
バカだなって言ってよ
気にするなって言ってよ
あなたに　ただ逢いたくて

Translation:

正因為是如夢一般的人
才會如夢一般地消失

知道著這樣的命運
季節又翻過了一頁

如同才剛落下便融化的雪一般
無法阻止的思念

不被愛也沒關係
只要從遠處守護著你
很逞強吧
但還是想和你有所連繫
因為我還喜歡著你

若能再多哭一點就好了
若能再多笑一些就好了
對我說「你真傻啊」
對我說「別介意」啊
只是好想　見你一面

這是第一次覺得　自己的人生
至今沒有走錯

你那如同　陽光一般的笑容
照亮了我的生存之道

為我心中的雨撐起傘的
只有你一個人…

不能愛也沒關係
我在這裡守護著你
很逞強吧
但還是想和你有所連繫
因為我　還喜歡著你

在同樣的月光下
流著同樣的眼淚
「這樣不行哪」
「不想和你分開」
僅僅一句話　卻只是說不口

當生命的旅程
走到盡頭時
我還是會為你祈禱吧

憧憬著你
「你」的存在本身
願那笑容　能夠幸福

不被愛也沒關係
只要從遠處守護著你
很逞強吧
但還是想和你有所連繫
因為我還喜歡著你

若能再多哭一點就好了
若能再多笑一些就好了嗎
對我說「你真傻」啊
對我說「別介意」啊
只是好想　見你一面
只是好想　見你一面

外婆

2009-02-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

外婆，你還好嗎？

距離上次見到你的時候，已經有一年多了吧。那時的我剛初中畢業，躊躇滿志，對人生抱有許多的期盼和憧憬。

但終究人會成長，會老去。年復一年，日復一日。那個想象力超于平凡的女孩開始對生活感到厭倦，漸漸對單調枯燥的生活產生許多消極的想法。有一種感覺，遲早會被社會的死板模式統一化，變成周圍人的複製品，生活淪落為生存。在競爭激烈的社會大環境裏，我們必定爭個你死我活 - 贏是春光滿面、渾身得意；輸則頭破血流、狼狽而逃。這，豈不是最野性的生存方式麽？

Jaded.

高中，讓我意識到自己的渺小和庸俗，也殘酷地暴露了我的無能與無知。就像在茫茫人海中僅僅是一滴無色無味的水珠，我感覺不到自己存在的價值。

夠悲慘的吧。

又扯遠了。

2009年1月11日。電話鈴聲響起。

我有一種不祥的預感，因爲說實話，我等這通電話已經等了好幾年了。

這樣聼起來讓人很不舒服對嗎。

我想大多數的人一生會有至少一次這樣的經歷吧。雖然對此感到恐懼，雖然堅決不想承認，但心中某個角落還是會有這樣的想法，還是遲遲不敢接那通將自己從睡夢中驚醒的電話，還是會無助的守候在電話機前胡思亂想。

所以那一霎那，我全身冰冷，側耳靜聽。

(...)

還好，事情沒有意料中那麽的糟。（是不是把大家下了一大跳？）

[所以繼續等待那通希望永遠不會來的電話]

隨後的幾周我想了許多事，也從中領悟了不少的道理。

然後聼了幾首歌，看了一部MV。

淚，永無止境的流。

心，隱隱的作痛。

愛，就是你對我不求回報的付出。

腦海裏不斷浮現出你一個人度過春節的淒涼畫面。我覺得我很不孝，明明是你最疼愛的孫女，我卻從來沒有為你做些什麽。我很任性，我很自私，我很後悔。可是你偏偏又這麽的惦記著我，而這時的我，卻不在你的身旁。

外婆，我還想聼你說的故事！

時間如梭。

思念如煙。

氣

2009-01-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry, but I don't see why anyone should make a distinction between 'old' and 'new' fans (or pre-hiatus/post-hiatus fans). I mean, so what if you are an old fan? Does that make you 'special/different' in any way? And so what if you are a 'new' fan? Does that mean you are less of a fan than the supposed 'older' fans? In the first place, what makes a fan 'old' or 'new'? Is it the time length of fandom or the maturity level or the types of songs one likes or even, age? I know I sound like a bitch, but I think there's some kind of stereotype? segregation? in the Singapore MD community these days (or perhaps I was living in bliss all along) and I don't like it one bit.

Even a decade later, I doubt I would call myself an 'old' fan, it's not something I would wear on my body like some bloody cool rank.

懷舊金曲之夜

2008-10-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

和一幫志同道合的(豬)朋(狗)友混在一起大聲K歌，感覺真的很棒！

用力的呐喊

用力的斯吼

用力揮霍青春！！！

至少，記憶中的那天的KBOX是屬於我們的。XD

HAHAHAHAHAHA 李宗盛鄧麗君庾澄庆周華健小虎隊王傑張雨生等等等等！

（懷舊WORH）

你們沒有因時光的流逝而被大家遺忘！XD

還有還有！張震岳五月天 + 其他許多歌手名字太多我都記不起來了！

超爽！:D

-跳著小護士舞，唱著軋車-

鬼迷心竅 - 李宗盛

怪人狂言……隨性亂點

2008-10-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

（一）

真的不了解大人們的心思。

“人之出，性本善”

我總覺得人在成長過程中，最原始的“人性”漸漸隨著歲月消失。

兒時的那種純真、善良不知都跑到哪裏去了？

（二）

有許多大人們認爲“追星”百害無義，更有些人斷定“追星族”是膚淺的。

但以一個過來人而言，我想這只是“人類學”的一部分。

爲什麽是“人類學”呢？

因爲儅一個人無理智的迷上一個陌生人，更容易不小心展露自己醜陋的一面。

真的，不到兩年就已經目睹了人生百態，心情大起大落幅度大得連自己都被嚇到，還經理不少波折奇遇。

反正遲早都會上這堂課的，只是我們可能比別人早一些。看透凡世的分分離離、喜怒哀樂，認清人性的醜惡，領悟了，先是無奈，然後慢慢釋懷。

（三）

好啦，言歸正傳。

恕我直言，我真的覺得她們太自私了，太無情了。也許是沒有安全感吧。或者是年齡上的差異形成的“代溝”。她們的冷漠讓我心寒刺骨，她們的態度讓我抓狂。又不是她的錯，爲什麽要讓她承擔所有的罪？明明知道她很渴望受到大家的歡迎，但又拒她門外。小小的圈子貌似容納不了多一個人，緊閉的心房不允許任何人的介入。懷疑、猜測、排斥。對她們來講一切都這麽自然，對當事者來説卻是精神上的折磨與心理上的累贅耶！

不知何時，我們已被歸類為”外人”，社群的邊緣人物。

明擺的嘛，大家都想太多了。她沒搶沒刀身無寸鐵，根本都沒有任何惡意。你們恐怕太疑神疑鬼，太多心了吧！=。=

（四）

其實我在po上一篇吐槽文之前，猶豫了許久。真得不相讓故事中的主人翁牽扯進來。可是最終想要抒發自己憋在心裏的不爽的欲望勝過了理智。本來就身臨出境，事情的起因也是因爲她無辜的被牽扯進來的嘛！別人本來是好心好意想伸出援手，卻不小心犯了戒忌，這算是她的錯嗎？她是受害者耶！並不是什麽殺人放火的囚犯！莫名其妙。複雜的人物關係表，我們這些菜鳥怎麽搞得懂！還是在你們内心深處都暗暗自喜，好不容易把我們這些“小兔崽子”甩掉，或許你們把我們當作“競爭對手”吧！當然，一切只是我的猜測遐想，但至少你們給與我足夠的遐想餘地/空間！

還有那位某雙J小姐……拜托，不要把我們視爲被病毒感染的病人一樣好不好！把我們隔離起來、封閉起來、拒之門外。也許在你們的眼中那個人是病態，但和“病人”接觸過的人都是罪人麽？和“病人”坐在一起就一定被“傳染”？爲什麽要懲罰無辜的被害者？什麽邏輯嘛，無知的大人。大人的世界好陰暗。

（五）

第一階段：不解。由始至終不知道發生了什麽事。是不小心冒犯了某high profile高層“權威”？還是不懂規矩？

第二階段：憤怒。反省了一陣子過後，愈來愈搞不懂到底是怎麽一回事。根本都不是我的錯嘛！不要莫名其妙好不好！

第三階段：老套話一句：人心難捉摸。

沒辦法，人就是這樣，互相矛盾，unpredictable.

越是努力揣摩
越是搞不懂
直到慢慢承認
這故事叫做錯

繼續活在自己的井中吧，在你極度豐富的幻想世界裏儅國王吧！

I'm sorry，我真得很不爽。

永無止境的等待

（終結話）

我從不認爲自己的觀點是萬分正確的（我沒有那麽自以爲了不起吧？），我也不能否認，我的脾氣不是很好，我的想法有時會很偏激，但至少我是有原則的人。（……）

如果成長會讓我失去所有的美好的一切，那我寧願永遠是個小孩。

大人的世界，我不懂。我也不想懂。

愛的代價 - 李宗盛

愛的代價 - 李宗盛

EH?

2008-09-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

Who are we to judge people we've never met before?

I don't know what to believe anymore.

我是一隻小小鳥

2008-08-19T22:33:00.001+08:00

我是一隻小小鳥
作詞：李宗盛　作曲：李宗盛　演唱：李宗盛/周華建/儸大佑

有時後我覺得自己像一隻小小鳥
想要飛卻怎麼樣也飛不高
也許有一天我棲上枝頭卻成為獵人的目標
我飛上了青天才發現自己從此無依無靠

每次到了夜深人靜的時後我總是睡不著
我懷疑是不是只有我的明天沒有變得更好
未來會怎樣究竟有誰會知道
幸福是否只是一種傳說我永遠都找不到

我是一隻小小小鳥想要飛呀飛卻飛也飛不高
（想要飛呀飛卻怎麼樣也飛不高）
我尋尋覓覓尋尋覓覓一個溫暖的懷抱
這樣的要求算不算太高

所有知道我的名字的人啊你們好不好
世界是如此的小我們註定無處可逃
當我嚐盡人情冷暖當你決定為你了的理想燃燒
生活的壓力與生命的尊嚴哪一個重要

我認爲這屆金曲獎最大的亮點就是這三位音樂大師的演唱。掌聲鼓勵鼓勵！！！

竊竊私語

2008-08-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

EH包子！

因爲想說的話太多了，前天po的那篇心得文可能過於激動寫得有些容易讓人誤解……

想澄清一下：

不是你說的那個意思啦！！！=.=

我只是想說喜歡音樂這件事，不可強求。不要因爲它是獨立音樂就硬是喜歡，或者逼著自己遠離主流。本來音樂這東西就是很主觀的嘛，喜歡音樂是因爲1.好聽2.欣賞音樂人做音樂的態度。

假如以以上兩點來評估音樂的價值，的確，很多市場上的主流音樂都是垃圾。獨立音樂也有“好”有“坏”，只是聼得順耳的歌曲比主流音樂來的多。

所以沒有說陳琦貞蘇打綠TizzyBac這位太太自然卷董事長樂團張懸熊寶貝……的不好啊！他們還是很棒，能接觸他們的音樂是件很高興很幸運的事。

可是關於FIR，某种程度上我是很掙扎的。

他們的一些創作，說真的，我是蠻欣賞的。

但是……有時候被他們零零種種和音樂無關緊要的事模糊了視線。

所以我不是曾你說過嘛，他們的一些舉止我是看得很不舒服。

曾經我也對他們過於商業化的形象猶豫了許久……

可是080808那天，我終于明白了。

管他商業不商業。

管他主流還是獨立。

（假如僅僅聼獨立音樂的話有些太勉強……不再是單純的愛音樂，而是自己逼自己，然後自以爲很清高的批評友人的音樂品味。）

只要聼在耳裏讓我動情就是好音樂！

什麽緋聞八卦，都不管不看不聞不問，因爲這些只能把焦點模糊，影響我的判斷力。

就是這樣。

自以爲很了不起的“真知灼見”

不要生氣哦！XD 下一次有什麽歌手樂團來到新加坡還是要告訴我一聲哦！

金曲獎 - 真金假銀？

2008-07-06T15:14:00.000+08:00

金曲獎讓我很矛盾。

表演，很精彩。周華健、李宗盛、羅大佑展示音樂大師風範，一首首琅琅上口的老歌讓我聼得如痴如醉。陳志遠得傑出貢獻獎，真是實至名歸。[我怎麽聼起來老了幾十嵗啊……=。=]

畢竟是一年一度的音樂盛事，畢竟今年入圍的歌手/樂團/專輯/單曲不乏難得一見，耳目一新的非主流元素。只是可惜，自我矛盾、沒有方向感的所謂“音樂界專業人士”又讓這次金曲獎和其他一些網路投選比賽沒什麽兩樣。反正，什麽都是靠人氣嘛，實力再強沒得到大衆的認可還是一樣收不到評審的青睞。

金曲獎獲獎名單一面倒的情形讓我有些哭笑不得，寧願相信主辦單位是爲了刻意要討好牛仔周，而不是評審團吃錯了葯。

牛仔周真的有這麽好嗎？的確，他的歌曲流傳都很高，個人風格也很強，但有些東西聼了一次覺得新鮮，多聼幾次反而會覺得噁心。凴良心，牛仔周近年來的創作雖然有些新的嘗試，但是品質有每況愈下的趨勢。而特務菜的專輯恐怕只有迷妹迷弟會一口氣聼完吧？！最後還是讓他拿了兩個獎項 - 可笑，真的。

再説吧，評審團是不是有自我矛盾的嫌疑？這麽看好主流，那就把獎全頒給主流啊，幹嗎忽主流忽非主流？！爲了求平衡？還是根本就沒有衡量的標準？

說真的，很想從此再也不看金曲獎了，反正我對該獎的含金量有很大的質疑，對評審團的專業程度很不痟。有實力的音樂人始終受不到肯定，華文音樂界夠可悲的。

也許，我被indie文化洗腦了吧。也許，我被shuhui、蘇打綠、還有其他衆多優秀的獨立創作人給矇騙了吧。但是我堅信：主流的東西不一定是好東西，有樣學樣盲目的跟風只能完完全全暴露出人類的愚蠢與無知，造成社會漸漸回歸原古石器時代。

最後，借用松董再上個禮拜superband說的一句話（後面部分是我瞎掰的）

人氣不代表實力，主流不代表好聽

原句：人氣不代表實力，努力不代表繼續

Personality Test

2008-06-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|	10%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Humanitarian	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Family drive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Honor	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Thriftiness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%

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Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.

trait snapshot:
messy, tough, disorganized, fearless, not rule conscious, likes the unknown, rarely worries, rash, attracted to the counter culture, rarely irritated, positive, resilient, abstract, not a perfectionist, risk taker, strange, weird, self reliant, leisurely, dangerous, anti-authority, trusting, optimistic, positive, thrill seeker, likes bizarre things, sarcastic

Wow this is rather accurate!

有什麽好多說的？！

2008-06-18T12:05:00.000+08:00

你凴什麽把自己的想法強加在別人身上？你的觀點我從來不敢苟同，又何況是從某某道聽途説的，還信以爲真，自以爲是地誇自己消息靈通，朋友遍天下。

真是太扯了，太擡舉自己了。

我講的話你不感興趣，每當我張口，你都試圖把話題轉移到你自己身上。你說的話我不削，但卻指望我洗耳恭聽，貌似能從那些誇張的、不求實際的高談闊論中聼出個什麽道理。告訴你，你的哲學又不是我的哲理，你的喜愛又不是我的喜歡，你的想法又不是我的觀點，你又不是我，我又不是你，你說的話我又何必多聼？？！！

不可思議。

無語。

算了，宰相肚裏能撐船，大人有大量嘛。

你愛攀比，隨你便。你愛虧損我，我也無可奈何。裝聾作啞，將自己的智商降低 - 就讓你滿足你那愛慕虛榮、虛僞、空虛、膚淺的靈魂吧！

人生短暫，何必為生活中瑣碎的小事多長幾根白髮？

人生短暫，何必被生活中瑣碎的煩惱與不悅絆倒？

[豈不是自掘墳墓，自作自受？哈。]

人生短暫，何必這麽在乎別人的想法和肯定？

人生短暫，因此我們更該順著自己的意願走，為自己而活！

管他呢，讓我繼續活在自己的世界裏吧！

在外太空流亡 10個月 - 終于要回家了！XD

2008-05-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

在外太空漫無目的的流亡了10個月，終于在26號回到地球表面了！XD

一大清早5點就起床。觀看了一場驚心動魄的足球比賽過後（那可惡的裁判真的讓人很不爽，當時有一種衝動想上場和他嗆聲），在Burger King閒聊了幾個小時，到家已累得不成人形。閉目養神，卻睡過頭，趕到室内體育場都快5點鐘了[考試萬歲的汗衫也賣完了……囧]。

買了搖滾機器人、天空海盜，從gimme5領取毒氣罩后，其餘的時間我們就坐在一棵大樹下説話、和來往人群中的熟悉面孔打招呼。真得很無聊，我又有些昏昏慾睡，感覺和去年真的截然不同。最後還是坐不住了，就繞著體育場走了一圈。因爲時間還早嘛，從外面可以聼得到他們彩排的聲音，所以那時候就知道石頭會獨唱‘咿呀呀’。XD 我們還看到那五只在2000年為室内體育館簽的名哦！:D [很遙遠吧？千禧年……那時我才9嵗，那時的五月天沒有現在這樣大紫大紅。]

Stacey的一個朋友隨後也到達了。她超好笑的！除了那重重的印度口音外，表情也特別的誇張。XD 話説，她當天心血來潮想要看五月天演唱會，拜托Stacey在現場的Sistic買票。And guess what! 她竟然賣到PA第四排靠走道的座位耶！！=。= 早知道，就不預購了啦。=/

再來。厰外的攤子怎麽賣的是黃色的熒光棒？！可能他們沒有義務賣藍色的熒光棒吧。可是！賣黃色的就算了，還矇騙那些掏錢購買的人，説是藍色的？！豈不是昧著自己的良心做虧心生意？

7點半進場，才發現座位原來這麽擠，而四周環繞舞臺的左右兩邊跑道，比想象中的狹窄，縂有點“雷聲大，雨點小”的感覺。也許期待太高，失望也就更大。而且演唱會前的氣氛也營造得沒去年好。去年在快要進場時，屏幕上播放的是為愛而生的演唱會DVD；進場后，大屏幕上播放的是《搖滾本事》（有某些催淚的《你要去哪裏》片斷XD）！今年哦，不知道爲什麽一直重復播出品冠、叮噹的MV，還有唯美但抽象到我有些看不懂的小太陽。一而再三的重復，煩不煩啊？

7.20，燈終于暗了下來，大家的情緒也開始沸騰起來。先是贊助商的名字出現在熒幕上，然後臺上的巨幕拉下來，演唱會也正式開始。上次《離開地球表面》在開場時播放了一段小小影片，這次他們也呈現了一個類似的片斷。其實與其說類似，不如說真的：幾乎大同小異，導致我開始時以爲他們弄錯了。但對我這個不是很挑剔的歌迷來說，再看一次也不要緊啦！XD 但和上次不同的是，與去年臺北小巨蛋演唱會一樣，有從空兒降的突擊隊員喔！那些手持機動槍的“黑衣人” 讓現場氣氛變得更加緊張，有襯托影片的效果哦！

開頭影片以抓狂前奏 – To Find My Paradise – 結束，緊接著五人（和樂器）從舞臺中央上方‘冒’出來（除了彥明和陳信宏之外啦！），在眾歌迷的歡呼尖叫聲中，開始表演第一首歌曲：《抓狂》。

《抓狂》這首歌在五月天新作品當中，是我最中意的一首。只要不爽，唱一下這首歌曲必定讓心中的不滿指數上升到爆點！XD

很不爽我很不爽不要讓我更不爽
快抓狂我快抓狂不要搞不清狀況

其次 –《香水》！傾重于鼓的節奏感，唱這首歌真的High爆了！

就算你沒有答應　就算你給我拒絕　
就算我從不打算全身而逃全身而退
就讓我活到脫軌　就讓我愛到脫線　
就讓我為愛而生一千世紀無間輪迴

《叫我第一名》也是！！！讓人興奮到喘不過氣來的閩南歌！

吃飽睏睏飽吃你麥想這多
說到七桃我就走
有什麼代誌一定要計較輸贏
啦.......愛玩才會贏啦......誰人倘甲我拚
啦.......你問我叫什麼名啦.......叫我第一名

《為愛而生》應該是大衆耳熟能詳的歌啦，而一《千個世紀》（即《晚安地球人》后，石頭另一大氣、大愛的創作）的滑音很棒！[只知道二胡有滑音……不知道吉他也叫這‘滑音’嗎？-.-]

隨後的兩首歌《雌雄同體》和《愛情萬歲》，講的都是比較敏感的東西，哈哈！

我要你看到我
你不該猜測應該享受
我要你愛上我
你不該猜測應該愛我
我可以是男是女　
可以飄移不定　
可以調整百分比
只要你愛我一切都沒問題　

發現自己原來的雌雄同體

愛情萬歲
作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

我需要你的體溫　
雖然我此刻一點也不覺得寒冷
我感到巨大的飢渴　
雖然無聊滿滿撐漲我的靈魂
相戀不能再傾國傾城
傾倒你心裡也就
越來越冷越堅固的靈魂
此刻你也就別再問　
不能再等　不能再等　
讓熱情變冷

就讓我吻你吻你吻你　
直到天明
就讓我穿過你的外衣
然後你的內衣
就讓我吻你吻你吻你　
直到天明
就讓我刺探你最深深深
處你的密祕
別再等待不曾降臨的真理　
黎明之前只要和你盡情嬉戲

我不在乎你的姓名　
你的明天你的過去你是男是女
我是如此的清醒　不打算離去　
也不打算真的愛你

《離開地球表面》！真正讓全場High翻天全都跳起來的歌曲！特別喜歡到後面的’JUMP! JUMP! JUMP!’部分。以往不同的編曲，很有趣！

ANYWAY! 必須要表揚一下：黃士傑and彭克! 雖然唱和音的往往都是小小不起眼躲在後頭，但士傑哦！扭動身軀比陳某某還厲害一百倍，自創的手勢和“舞步”千變萬化，把我的眼珠子都吸引到他的身上去了。XD 都搞不清楚誰才是真正的主唱，誰是名副其實的“偶像派偕星”！搶鏡頭指數：100%！掌聲鼓勵鼓勵！

說完那段之前就想好的“感性”話，陳信宏在鋼琴伴奏中唱起《生命有一種絕對》。有大合唱哦！

想要征服的世界　
始終都沒有改變
那地上無聲蒸發我的淚
黑暗中期待光線　
生命有一種絕對
等待我　請等待我　
靠近我　再擁抱我
不要走　請不要走　
直到約定融化成笑顏
直到我看見生命的絕對

之後，阿信下臺去換裝，其他4個終于有機會大顯身手了！石頭、怪獸（gasp!)、瑪莎、彥明每人唱《孫悟空》的一小段。怪獸竟然也唱了一大段耶！XD

如果要讓我活請給我快樂苦痛
我從不怕愛錯就怕沒愛過

如果能有一天再一次重返光榮
記得找我我的好朋友

過後，太陽系四部曲（不管不管我就認爲是四部曲嘛！！）的第二部出場了！[《小太陽》，新歌，在933龍虎榜有傑出的表現，從15跳到第5再登上冠軍寶座，前前後後只花了3周。但我對這一類投票的比賽興趣都不大，聼聼罷了，名次啊這些得不需要太在意。（就想吧，連飛輪海、S.H.E.的都能拿到好成績。+。+）] 重點是！-怎麽説話越來越像范瑋琪- 包子的瑪莎竟然穿裙子！！！連他自己都說，穿長裙跑起來很困難。XD 哇噻瑪莎，不會是想走中性性感路綫啊！

小太陽
詞曲：陳信宏同學

多麼難忘是你純真的模樣突然的吻瀰漫著茶香
多麼嚮往夢想總是在他方你說等我不管多漫長

你就是太陽蒸發了徬徨
所以挖開土壤
種下希望
離開了故鄉

看著你的眼眶忍著淚閃著光
我會很快回來繼續我們
未完的天堂

看著你的臉龐微笑著要我去闖
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太陽

念念不忘此刻應該是農忙如畫風光有妳在歌唱

你就是太陽照亮了方向
你讓地球旋轉
月亮發光
讓我有翅膀

好像印象中阿信在這個時候第一次和我們講話。假如沒記錯的話，他有講到：走遍了十幾個城市，終于回到地球表面了，終于回到大家的懷抱了。從今以後，要腳踏實地的作音樂。SOMETHING LIKE THAT. 具體的句子，記不起來了。XD

緊接著就是《九號球》！很開心他們會選唱這一首歌……很立志，卻夾有一絲憂傷。《憨人》、《倔強》、《人生海海》、《一顆蘋果》、《九號球》……這些歌曲都帶給我希望，給我活下去的動力。而叮噹的歌《離家出走》，本人是蠻喜歡的。XD

九號球
作詞：阿信　作曲：怪獸　編曲：五月天

逃走翻過圍牆
我只能逃走從教室裡頭
奔向自由熟悉角落
有人在等我有挑釁的笑容

今天誰先開球
讓誰嘗點苦頭
綠色地平線上
我撞著彩色墮落

也許我這一桿
又沒辦法進球
就像我的生活
一直在出差錯

也許我這一生
始終在追逐那顆九號球
卻忘了是誰在愛我
卻忘了是誰在罩著我

從前書包很滿
裝不下的夢就丟了一些
未來我們要怎麼活
凝視著白球暫時我不去想

天空漸漸變紅影子爬滿球桌
輸贏沒有結果像人生難以捉摸

第十三首歌：《闖》

爲什麽他們唱的是《闖》而不是《永遠的永遠》！！！《永遠的永遠》是我唯一一首能唱得比較完整的閩南語歌曲OKAY! 另一首是在本次演唱會沒有出現的I Love You無望。《闖》沒有《永遠的永遠》那樣震撼人心！ 話説回來，這次他們僅僅唱了3首閩南歌，心中有小小的遺憾。=/

接下來是生活哦！讓包子激動了半天……XD 但的確啦，是讓人蠻驚喜的，是在歌單中比較少出現的亮麗新景象。

記憶中好像五人跑到我們身後的升降臺，開始唱朋友版的垃圾車[當時唯一的反應是：從Final Home蹦出來的一幕啊？]，可是還沒唱幾句，就突然轉爲為瑪莎唱生日快樂歌。這可能是演唱會中我笑得最燦爛的時刻吧！五人先大叫“豬”X1234遍，可能是因爲“豬” 是“祝”的諧音……不知道啦，有時陳信宏的話冷到沒有人能聼得懂。可是後面發生的事情是瑪莎自找的，誰叫他開黃腔……或者用陳信宏的話：瑪莎是個“黃”帝！XDD 瑪莎：沒有蛋糕，叫冠佑躺在地上把蠟燭插起來就大功告成啦！=。= 陳信宏和怪獸帶頭衆人大喊“鞭刑、鞭刑”（X2345遍）后，瑪莎面帶無辜的說：不是都說新加坡是個很清純的社會嗎？這樣也聼得懂……其實大家都誤解了，我的意思是讓冠佑躺下來，然後叫工作人員將蠟燭插在他身上……XD 瑪莎真不愧是瑪莎。

然後繼續唱垃圾車，然後陳信宏很明顯的唱錯詞。你自己寫的詞都能忘記、唱錯，真服了你了！

《愛情的模樣》！！！他們真的唱了真的唱了！自從我看完《第168場演唱會》VCD，就一直期待他們會在演唱會上唱這首曾讓我噴淚的歌！陳信宏唱完第一句，我就已經激動得不成人形了……

愛情的模樣
作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

＊你是巨大的海洋
　我是雨下在你身上
　我失去了自己的形狀
　我看到遠方　愛情的模樣

曾經孤單的徬徨　
曾經相信曾經失望
你穿過了重重的迷惘　
那愛的慌張　終於要解放

＃你是誰　叫我狂戀
　教我勇敢的挑戰全世界
　在一樣的身體裡面
　一樣有愛與被愛的感覺
　我愛誰　已無所謂
　沒有誰能將愛情劃界限
　在一樣的身體裡面
　謎樣的魔力卻是更強烈

星星在夜空中閃亮　
星空下我不停流浪
此生我無知的奔忙　
因為你眼光　都化成了光亮

這世界全部的漂亮　
不過你的可愛模樣
你讓我舉雙手投降　
跨出了城牆　長出了翅膀

石頭也帶來了他專門為小石頭寫的《咿呀呀》！很溫馨，很感人，很好聽。聼得出來，石垻真的很愛兒子！:D

趁石頭與其他三人下臺換裝，陳信宏一個人跑出來自彈自唱《最重要的小事》，還不忘加上一句：終于等到其他團員下臺換裝了。終于能一個人站在舞臺上了。這時刻，我等了很久了！-好賊……陳信宏你很想出名是不是？！-

既然是抒情版[只有他的吉他伴奏]，當然又是大合唱嘍！不出所料，唱一半五人還是在臺上團聚。陳信宏又說：最後大家還是在一起了。=。=

我　就算壯烈前世　
征服滾滾亂世　
萬人為我寫詩

而　幸福卻是此時　
靜靜幫你提著　
哈囉凱蒂袋子

之後的三首演唱會必唱High歌《我又初戀了》、《戀愛ING》、《終結孤單》，說真的，有點老掉牙的感覺。《我又初戀了》還OK，但《戀愛ING》上演與去年雷同的戲碼[臺上的衆人嫌我們叫得太小聲，開始閙罷工，怪獸和石頭打架，石頭倒地，然後一個一個離開。]第一次去五月天演唱會的人可能會感到很新奇，但看久了就會膩耶！而且這又特別拖時間，讓本來就不算很長的演唱會感覺更短了。《終結孤單》因爲士傑和屏幕上會舞動的大香蕉而有趣（跟我“嘿” ，跟我“嘿”，跟我“嘿”完一起跳！）。大香蕉的動作和士傑的很相似嘞……=。=

陳信宏唱《洋蔥》由他自己的味道，《軋車》永遠是那樣的High，團圓的Solo部分我們跟著陳信宏隨著節奏拍手（每個人的Solo都很不同！石頭喜歡“滑音”；
怪獸喜歡刷刷刷；瑪莎手指動得飛快，頭髮把臉都遮住了；冠佑打鼓節奏變化讓我心跳加速！

這時陣上好作陣來去軋車

《溫柔 (還你自由版)》、抒情版《倔強》還有《人生海海》都是五月天演唱會必唱的歌曲，作爲五迷得我們當然跟著音樂一起大K歌啦！万人唱同一首歌，感覺很棒，很爽！

溫柔
作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

不知道　不明瞭　
不想要　為什麼　我的心
明明是想靠近　
卻孤單到黎明
不知道　不明瞭　
不想要　為什麼　我的心
那愛情的綺麗　
總是在孤單裡
再把我的最好的愛給你

倔強
作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

當我和世界不一樣
那就讓我不一樣
堅持對我來說
就是以剛克剛
我如果對自己妥協
如果對自己說謊
即使別人原諒
我也不能原諒

最美的願望一定最瘋狂
我就是我自己的神
在我活的地方

我和我最後的倔強
握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂
就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強
我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂
就這一次我和我的倔強

對愛我的人別緊張
我的固執很善良
我的手越骯髒
眼神越是發光
你不在乎我的過往
看到了我的翅膀
你說被火燒過
才能出現鳳凰

逆風的方向更適合飛翔
我不怕千萬人阻擋
只怕自己投降

人生海海
作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

有一天我在想
我到底　算是個什麼東西
還是我　會不會　
根本就不算東西
天天都漫無目的　
偏偏又想要證明
真理　別人從屁股放屁　
我卻每天每天的說要革命

就算是這個世界　把我拋棄
而至少快樂傷心我自己決定
所以我說　就讓它去
我知道潮落之後一定有潮起　
有什麼了不起

常常我　豁出去
拼了命　走過卻沒留痕跡
可是我　從不怕　
挖出我火熱的心　
手上有一個硬幣　
反面就決定放棄
嗝屁　但是啊在我心底
卻完完全全不想放棄

常常我閉上眼睛　
聽到了海的呼吸　
是你　溫柔的藍色潮汐　
告訴我沒有關係　

無論是　我的明天　要去哪裡　
而至少快樂傷心我自己決定　
所以我說　就讓他去　
我知道潮落之後一定有潮起　
有什麼了不起

插曲：念贊助商名字的時候，不懂英文的陳信宏只能請教瑪莎，瑪莎又叫他去找石頭。來到石頭身旁，石頭大喊了一個我們都聼不懂的詞，最後連阿信（受不了，“陳信宏”打起來太長了，最後還是半途而廢…）都發現石頭是在用喊的方式混過去。囧

ENCORE部分，5人從升降大橋底下藏有玄機的地板的某角落冒出來，但是！我並沒有如願以償的聽到《憨人》和《志明與春嬌》，飃進耳中的卻是較新的作品《天使》和《知足》。這是算是個新的嘗試，可恰恰我又對《天使》這首歌沒有感覺。

知足
词曲：阿信

怎麼去擁有一道彩虹
怎麼去擁抱一夏天的風
天上的星星笑地上的人
總是不能懂不能知道足夠

如果我愛上你的笑容
要怎麼收藏要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂不是為我
會不會放手其實才是擁有

當一陣風吹來風箏飛上天空
為了你而祈禱而祝福而感動
終於你身影消失在人海盡頭
才發現笑著哭最痛

那天你和我那個山丘
那樣的唱著那一年的歌
那樣的回憶那麼足夠
足夠我天天都品嚐著寂寞

(知足的快樂叫我忍受心痛)

《知足》的最後一個音符奏完，小小影片的結局也揭曉了。他們6個人不是都上了天堂就是都奇跡般的活了下來。對不起哦，當時好像因爲沒聽到之前提到過的兩首歌，所以分了神，沒看懂。=/

5人與技師團的成員隨著《離開地球表面-電音版》的節奏在臺上揮著毛巾手舞足蹈（阿信又跳他標誌性的“圈圈舞”），為演唱會劃下完美的句點。

雖然說之前我只去過三場演唱會(而且都是去年和包子一起去的！），可是已經發現五月天的演唱會和陳綺貞、蘇打綠的完全不同。和後者純樸、發自内心的音樂相比，五月天凸現的是他們的搖滾精神，他們的友誼。

沒有志明與春嬌，沒有憨人！！！=。=
雙頭龍只是虛頭？！曾經答應要唱滿4個小時，那，也是虛頭?
陳信宏，你夠偏心的。用三個字就想把我們打發掉啊？嫌我們人少勢弱啊？爲什麽對内地的粉絲有不同的待遇？
那去年來新為《為愛而生》作宣傳時遲到，然後説好要多唱40分鐘的承諾呢？？？不可能，五個人都得了綜合失意症吧。
算了，不想和你斤斤計較。

黑框眼鏡！

2008-04-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

貌似……我對戴黑框框眼睛的人特別情有獨鈡耶。=.=

信不信？

第一位出場的是Johnny Depp. 劇裏劇外，他都很喜歡戴園園大大像是哈利波特的黑框眼鏡！

然後就是五月天……5個成員的其中3位都有戴過黑邊眼鏡哦！

冠佑，不用説啦，他幾乎是黑框眼鏡的形象代言人。

阿信也很喜歡戴……

瑪莎先生偶爾也會戴戴玩玩……[但一時找不到圖片那=.=]

接下來是F.I.R.飛兒樂團的吉他手阿沁。

再來是包家的雙樹！

比弟弟早3分鐘出生的小松老師

……還有晚三分鐘的小柏老師

最後！就是“青蛙先生”嘍！

很多吧？

把自己都嚇了一跳。

毫無疑義

2008-03-19T19:43:00.000+08:00

毫無疑義

這幾天打開電視機總會看到臺灣各黨派在總統大選前夕做的一連串政治宣言，和一些所謂的政治觀察家、專家在訪談節目中做出的一些分析與預測。

之所以用‘看’這詞，是因爲觀察政治人物的舉止與表情往往比‘聼’他們演講更富娛樂性。

但抛開一切花邊和文字遊戲，那些選民得到的是什麽？一位更出色、更廉明、更富有領導人物所必備的遠見？也許是因爲我不身在臺灣，或者可能因爲我太無知了，我並不認爲那些我們接觸到的政治訊息能證明候選人的能力。可能這賜予臺灣獨特的政治風氣，但我想許多國家的政治體制也如此吧。以下只是小女的淺見，可能有些激動了一點，若冒犯、惹毛了任何人，請多多包容。

無聊的政治

我承認，已開始我就是對政治有些偏見。政治很無聊，政治所引發的叫駡戰、口水戰、輿論、爭論……這麽粗劣低級的作風，理應都和政治扯不上關係，但事實並非如此。

政治就像是個把戲，看得讓人眼花繚亂、目不轉睛，但理論其實很簡單。每當你被一位政客的發言震撼，要知道，那可能只是他耍的‘遮掩朮’罷了，用華麗的語言來擬補和加以掩飾空洞的内容和不足的能力。很多時候我們都可能被他們的精湛的演技給迷惑了。不然，你想爲什麽這麽多國家領導在喝彩中被選民捧上臺后，會在數年后被同一幫人拉下臺？

我很想知道……

到底是在拼實力還是拼損人能力？

到底是在貶低他人，擡高自己，還是腳踏實地，提出解決方案，獨特的見解？

少數就一定要服從多數嗎？

地球是爲了你而運轉的嗎？

一味的批評一味的唾駡沒有任何的意義，除非你能提出什麽有建設性的意見。

在批評其他人的儅兒，照照鏡子看清楚自己身上的缺點。

雞蛋裏挑骨頭
駡得狗血噴頭

理直氣壯
振振有詞

政治有如一場鬧劇。

konichiwa
問你好嗎？
----不爽
趕快殺價
[軋車]

怪談：我瘋了

2008-03-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

Here's the conversation between me and Stacey earlier this evening. I wonder where my brain is going, seriously.

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ONEheart Music and Lyrics by... 47days says:
let me take you away!

=| s t a c e y |= take me away says:
superb~~~~

=| s t a c e y |= take me away says:
to where?

ONEheart Music and Lyrics by... 47days says:
to...
1) Japan! 'cos 'escape to japan [浪漫逃往]' mah
2) to the space! 'cos '離開地球表面' mah
3) back to the earth! 'cos '回到地球表面' mah
4) home! 'cos takeaways = 打包 = go home eat
5) take away normally comes in the form of 'take my breath away', so you are breath and now you are going to be exhaled/expelled from my body!

XD LOL i'm being crappy so sorry
-------------------------------

Oopsay. XD

情不自禁亂寫一通

2008-02-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

好奇怪哦

有些時候我把世界看得太坏

又有些時候我把事情想得太簡單

明明自己是那種得過且過、苟且偷安的懶人

卻會執著的堅守某個奇怪的理念，發揮出難得一見的拼搏精神

有時

表面上裝冷靜，實際上比誰都興奮

也許

笑容滿面，只是一種掩飾

掩飾空虛的心靈，掩飾你離開后的落寞

直到看不清自己是誰

看不到層層虛僞表面下的真實自己

忘記了是為什麽而活

爲什麽

嘴上說著不以爲是

臉上寫著輕蔑與不削

心裏卻輕輕埋怨

說出的話和意願相反

口是心非！

披著羊皮的狼！

好可怕的僞君子！

還好，這種對不起自己的事情不經常發生

自我安慰一下 XD

敷衍的舉止寧可不要

多於的話有什麽好説

其實真的想做個好人

做個敢做敢當爲民除害的大俠

做個懂得釋懷、包容的仙人

做個值得信任、值得依賴的朋友

在黑暗中摸索怎麽走這條路

但希望有一天能夠摸到終點

可能一路上會遇見不同的人為我點亮一盞明燈、給我引路

儘管在這些人伸出援手的同時

也可能會有人故意或無意地伸出一條腿把我絆倒

或者爬到我頭上讓我背他走

我不怕

我不氣惱

我不放棄

我不自甘墮落

爲了不要辜負那些點亮我生命的親友

我會努力的

我會好好活的

所以真的搞不清楚，爲什麽某某到現在都不能忘記，不能釋懷，任由那些破碎的回憶毀了他的一生

很愚蠢，不是嗎?

再次特別感謝身邊的朋友

感謝你們的無私

感謝你們的包容

我不想給自己找藉口

我知道有些時候我很無理取鬧

我知道有時我太誇張，把芝麻綠豆般的小事講得好像快要世界末日

在我發牢騷時有你們聆聽

在你們這些巨人身旁我感到好渺小好渺小

很多地方我不如你們

你們願意為我放慢腳步我感激不已

爲了我付出這麽多，讓我不知怎麽回報你們，柯柯

謝謝

對現在的生活我很滿足

沒有給自己太多的壓力

活的很簡單，很悠悠自在

最重要的，很開心

腦海裏浮現出太多太多的想法

心上泛起漣漪

就是這樣的我

赤裸裸的呈現在大家面前

你不要覺得訝異哦

很不想做你人生中的過路人

I smile for you. :D

2008-01-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

難道笑，也是一種罪過？

還想讓我哭不成？

I am perfectly fine, if some of you are wondering. (: I got my minute of fame, and it was a pretty hilarious experience. XD I was and still am smiling, okay! :D I was smiling when he singled us out from the lecture group, smiling as I walked down, smiling when he talked to us, smiling through today.

[I'm sorry to say it, Sir, but I was trying hard to control myself from laughing out loud, especially when we were called up the stage. =/ It's not supposed to be funny, I know, but I found some screwed humor in it, somehow. Oops, I guess you've got to find another way to control freaks like me! -smiles sweetly- (:]

Oh well I guess we've got to blame my facial muscles for this. Sorry, peeps. If I can stretch my lips (smile, I mean) to myself on a train when I'm alone, I don't see why redox ain't funny. And I'm sure many people agree that I love to smile and show off gleaming white (not so white now, 'cos of the medicine yucks) teeth to other human beings and eh non-existent beings alike (when I'm smiling to myself). See? I didn't know smiling is a crime. Thanks for reminding me that in this world, nothing comes for free. Perhaps I should charge people next time for a smile by me, since I risk committing a crime by showing off my teeth. =/ (That leads me to think, is there some country/tribe in this world that prohibits the showing of the teeth? Very conservative, totally.)

Not that I enjoyed the attention, but I got quite self-conscious after the ordeal. Haha I was telling Jas that I should catwalk through the centre aisle in the canteen just to see how many people recognizes me. (Wait don't get me wrong. I wasn't serious. Seriously.)

Okay I shall be serious now and stop grinning away like an idiot in front of the comp.

Next time, I should try crying. Then when I grow old, I won't get wrinkles near my mouth. [I can't believe it, parts of my neck are aching BECAUSE of the weird (or ugly, whatever you call it) facial expressions I was doing yesterday! I'm sure of it since the muscles only ache when I attempt to make those faces again, zzz.]

I don't know why, but I realize that I get happy despite myself when others are sad. It's not 'cos I 幸災樂禍 okay! It's more like trying to lighten up the atmosphere, cheer them up, in the process acting as though I care about nothing in the world. And when others are happy and all smiling, I tend to blend into the background and vanish. =/

Tonight
作詞：梁心頤(Lara)　作曲：楊瑞代(蓋瑞)　
編曲：楊瑞代(蓋瑞)

(Lara) 走了又是幾條路　我們讀了又是幾本書
它們沒任何幫助tonight

(彈頭) 雨天找到一杯茶　我的笑聲找到了笑話
你的眼睛特別大tonight

(張傑) 看著鏡子裡的我　心裡的話不敢說出來　
會不會解脫tonight

(合唱) Ye~ I wanna cry, I wanna cry
直到你明白我的全世界停在tonight
I wanna try, I wanna try 有沒有未來
不准誰遺忘變壞tonight

(Reggae)牽我的手 La la la la

(張傑) 看著鏡子裡的我　心裡的話不敢說出來
會不會解脫tonight

(合唱) Ye~ I wanna cry, I wanna cry
直到你明白我的全世界停在tonight
I wanna try, I wanna try 有沒有未來
不准誰遺忘變壞tonight

(合唱) 眨眼　明天　會不會改變　而我們　
只存在 tonight

(合唱) Ye~ I wanna cry, I wanna cry
直到你明白我的全世界停在tonight
I wanna try, I wanna try 有沒有未來
不准誰遺忘變壞tonight

(Raggae) 牽我的手 La la la la

(合唱) Ye~ I wanna cry, I wanna cry
直到你明白我的全世界停在tonight
I wanna try, I wanna try 有沒有未來
不准誰遺忘變壞tonight

純真
作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

長長的路上我想我們是朋友
如果有期待我想最好是不說
你總是微笑的你總是不開口
世界被你掌握
月亮繞地球地球繞著太陽走
我以為世界是座寧靜的宇宙
今晚的天空有一顆流星劃過
在預言著什麼

在無聲之中你拉起了我的手
我怎麼感覺整個黑夜在震動
耳朵裡我聽到了心跳的節奏
星星在閃爍　你(會)怎麼說

你心中一定有座濃霧的湖泊
任憑月光再皎潔照也照不透
你眼中閃爍湖面無邊的溫柔
那波光在　誘惑

你已經有他就不應該再有我
世界的純真此刻為你有迷惑
我想我應該輕輕放開你的手
我卻沒有力氣這麼做

某憨人的功力……-搖頭-

Be Contended

2008-01-24T18:30:00.000+08:00

Today is the release of O level results. We had 406 class lunch at Lido, and reached RG one hour early to find our dear teachers. Didn't see Ms LimSH or Ganesh though. Finally in the hall right before the release of the results, Ms Lim made her entrance! I think many people from my class screamed and we cheered. XD Two years! Two years of her as our form teacher. :D I'll really miss her, hmm.

Anyway, I am so glad Mel's staying in RJ! Is she super brainy or something?! :D WHEE I am so relieved. I hope my OG stays intact!

知足 - 為愛而生演唱會搖滾版

知足
詞：阿信曲：阿信

怎麼去擁有一道彩虹
怎麼去擁抱一夏天的風
天上的星星笑地上的人
總是不能懂不能覺得足夠

如果我愛上你的笑容
要怎麼收藏要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂不是為我
會不會放手其實才是擁有

當一陣風吹來風箏飛上天空
為了你而祈禱而祝福而感動
終於你身影消失在人海盡頭
才發現笑著哭最痛

那天你和我那個山丘
那樣的唱著那一年的歌
那樣的回憶那麼足夠
足夠我天天都品嚐著寂寞

當一陣風吹來風箏飛上天空
為了你而祈禱而祝福而感動
終於你身影消失在人海盡頭
才發現笑著哭最痛

如果我愛上你的笑容
要怎麼收藏要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂再不是為我
會不會放手其實才是擁有

知足的快樂叫我忍受心痛
知足的快樂叫我忍受心痛

謝謝你，五月天。

因爲你們，我開始接觸華語音樂。

才會漸漸改變我對華文保持的態度，讓我開始熱愛這個語言。

所以，儅我拿到成績的時候，我差點哭了。

沒有你們，我永遠不可能成爲現在的我。

一個容易滿足，天天好心情的我。[可是現在好像心情不是很好耶~]

不管未來的路有多麽崎嶇險峻，只要有你和五月天的陪伴，我就心滿意足了。XD

白日出沒的月球不需要你敷衍的安慰

2008-01-12T12:30:00.000+08:00

Go to hell with you and your screwed logic. Somehow, I doubt any of your theories may actually work.
I just puked again this morning, so that's two Saturdays in a row. This is bad. The daily stomach cramping is taking a toll on me, I have the impulse to flush the 100+ capsules of antibiotics down the toilet bowl and not touch them again. Who cares about the bacteria living on my fugly face? I don't want to repeat last week's incident of rushing down from the 855 bus just in time to discharge a large amount of gastric juices, it's terrible.
Maybe this just confirmed what you have suspected all along, that I am just a rude, self-deluding freak. But you know what? I do not intend to let my life be wrecked by you. I am a being, a human, so start treating me like one and give me the respect I think I deserve.
I guess the transition between RG and RJ has affected me in many ways, more than I could have ever imagined. I need to get back to my old self, but the problem is, I don't know how. =/
I am sick, sick of being scorned at, being lashed at, being condemned and constantly belittled by you. So what if I am dumb, ugly and fat? As long as I’m happy with my life, I don’t care about such superficial name-calling. And you, being yourself, have to seize the only thing I’m left with and smash it into pieces.

白日出沒的月球 - 蘇打綠 [無與倫比的美麗]

作詞：吳青峰　作曲：吳青峰

我要的只是自在的露水　在夜想走的時候不要扯他後腿
我要的只是適度的嗎啡　在病人該醒時候不要繼續麻醉
我要的只是脆弱的蝴蝶　在山崩地裂時候不要逼我面對
我要的只是堅固的堡壘　在我該躲的時候不要繼續侵略

肉眼看不見的宇宙　白夜黑晝一樣走
夜晚抬頭發現月球　比找到星星的多
而太陽當道時候　光芒徹底遮過月球
月球儘管做得再多　一樣是沒什麼用

我要的只是時機的正確　你的自大自以為只是我的輕蔑
我要的只是累贅的瓦解　你所有真知灼見只是我的可悲
我要的不是爭個錯與對　在我崩潰的時候麻煩請你閉嘴
我要的不是討個是與非　在我無言的時候拜託離開我的視線

肉眼看到的宇宙　迷惑於發光的星球
觀賞的人沒有錯　不能察覺的太薄弱
你照你的方向走　只是不能讓我感受
你認知的理所當然　不適合套用在我

我要的不是敷衍的安慰　用錯的對待反而讓我心情脫軌
我要的不是膚淺的讚美　看不見你心裡是否真的這張嘴臉

沒錯　你說的全都沒錯　別顧　哪個誰怎麼說
你就　活在自己的井中　別看　哪個風怎快活

誰怎麼說　誰怎麼說

沒錯　你說的全都沒錯　別顧　哪個誰怎麼說
你就　照自己愚蠢過活　這樣　走下去絕對不會錯

我想要看見你說的草原　而不是一片遍布荊棘的荒野
我想要看見你種的薔薇　而不是一束枯萎殆盡的花蕊
我想要看見你說的藍天　而不是一道沒有雨水的閃電
我想要看見你落的白雪　而不是一滴融化成血的眼淚

不要拿你的宇宙　一味套在我的地球
我的地球怎麼運走　不見得跟著宇宙
總躲在太陽背後　怎能看見你的臉孔
總是選在白日出沒　誰曉得注意月球
I was extremely gratified when he stood up for me against your excessive verbal abuse, but you had to blame it all on me. What the hell. I hate being your scapegoat, as if merely breathing the air around me deserves to a be a crime.
I love the lyrics of this song. 很有性格，很青峰。:D

I've been blog surfing these days, and I think this song says it all. I know you feel the same, since you are his facsimile.
If, and I think I'm being overly optimistic, if, you begin to see the truth in my words, perhaps it's time for you to attend anger management classes. I am sure they have seen more hopeless cases than yours.

悲傷絕望城市

2008-01-10T15:32:00.000+08:00

城市 - 蘇打綠 [無與倫比的美麗]

作詞：吳青峰　作曲：吳青峰

這座城市一般　讓你在夢中不停地衰老
人像落葉一般　冬天的空中冰冷的容貌

城市面目猙獰　駕著光速奔跑
我們是沉默機器　對照著時間表

我們就像溫室的花朵
麻木的心　刷白的瞳孔
彩色的臉　混亂的慾望顫抖
現在是謠言侵略事實的時代
必須偷看哪個誰是不是在偷看
(現在是現在侵略過去的時代
必須悲哀快樂所帶來的更悲哀)

這座城市一般　享受著奢侈卻莫名失落
人像稀釋一般　在鬧區列車上逐漸沉默(沒)

我們囚禁在格林威治的規則裡
在數位的銀色浪花中喘不過氣

這座城市裡面　試著讓自己沒有那麼糟
人像落葉迎面　在一座一座孤獨島中間　我微笑

And you are his facsimile.

Going Down the Memory Lane

2007-08-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

Bored with life, I took a stroll down the memory lane again.

This time round, I went through a file I haven't touched for more than a year. This file.. contains snippets of my childhood. You'll be amazed how many newspaper clippings and pages from magazines this 40-folder ugly, green thing can hold.

First page: A Matrix Reloaded poster-page from 8days. The date: 17 May 2003. Uhhuh. The date of The Matrix Reloaded release. That's like.. 4 years ago.

Second page till tenth page: More Matrix related articles. In fact, I musta've be crazy about Keanu Reeves. The first ten pages were all dedicated to Matrix Reloaded and Matrix Revolutions. All I lacked was the original Matrix's articles, that's all. I have movie reviews in there, Matrix game ads [oh wow] and one advertisement selling the collectors' edition of The Matrix trilogy, with 10dvds [gasp!], undoubtedly filled to the brim with extras and behind-the-scenes, selling at a freaking 100bucks. I still remember, it was my dream then to own the whole set. (!!) I am so glad that now I've directed my impulsive buying behaviour towards something more worthwhile. [yeah right]

11th page: One folder packed full with Pirates of the Caribbean clippings, Dead Man's Chest postcards, stickers etc. But those goodies weren't there before July last year, which was the last time I touched this file. Digging through the pages, found out that it originally held one single page of movie reviews, of films like X-Men II and Legally Blonde II, but was then covered by a page advertising Maple Story [Another gasp!] Ludibrium, and then it was again buried by layers of Pirates of the Caribbean stuffs.

12th page: Erm this is the original page I was talking about. Oh now I know why I kept this. There's a teeny weeny bit of the Matrix Reloaded review there.

13th page: Contents page of Lime's May 2003 issue. Apparently, there's a small picture of the cover of the mag. It's Neo's face, man. And there's supposed 'Trix of Trade article in page 44, it says. Oh, and I see a picture of 5566 too. [Rolls eyes]

14-15th page: Hah! Two pages on Keanu Reeves! They talked about his older movies as well. Like.. Speed! Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure! [Woots I loved Speed. Oh wait. I still do, right?] Hmm the Seoul Garden ad says that a Kid's buffet meal cost $8.88. Do you see loads of 'fa's? My eyes are going 8.8 Must be because it was Chinese New Year.

16th page: Eh a Matrix dvd advertisement? I see loads of Agent Smiths! [My dear Hugo Weavings the Elrond. XD]

17th page: X-Men related things. Mostly X-Men II. [Aww Wolverine!] Didn't know I used to like them. Or did I?

18th page: An article on sequels from Zaobao. I think there were many sequels that year, just like there were many remakes last year. This year is another sequel-year. It's just a recurring thing. Like leap years. That year, XXX, X-Men, Terminator III, LOTRs, Matrix, Dumb and Dumber, Fast and Furious, Harry Potter sequels were made, plus some more. Oh and they said I Not Stupid II wouldn't be possible. I'm sure.

19-20th, 22-29th page(s): All about Lord of the Rings! Premieres, reviews, articles, that sort of things. Oh the critics loved it. They raved about it. They went head over tail with it. I guess they deserve the 9 Oscars. [Is it? My memory is failing me. Must be getting old.]

21th: Once again, The Matrix pops up when you least expect it.

30-31th: Can you believe it? Linkin Park and Jay-Z. H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A! Collision Course, man. Get ready for some nerve-numbing encore! [Shit you won't hear it from me again, but I used to be able to recite the whole rap. 0.0 Like how I memorized the Black Eyed Peas raps. 0.0X2]

32-37th: Random clippings of Matrix, Lord of the Rings, Bad boys, Mr and Mrs Smith. Oh, and Jude Law. Cold Mountain, anyone? [Finally watched it last year. It is.. not really THAT good.]

38-39th: MTV Asia Awards Attendees. Featuring Linkin Park, Blue, Missy Elliot.. You know that sort. And a small clipping of the book Underworld. Yep you heard it correct. The book, not the movie. Oh I loved the book. I loved the prequel book too! It's called Blood Brothers. Tells us why the Lupins hated the Vampires. The start of all the feud. Because of a.. Vamp princess and a Lupe servant. Sounds dumb but the book is great. The movie was.. sucky. [And rated.] Such a disappointment.

Last page: My Sec1 orientation booklet! I haven't thrown it away. 0.0 I think I'm in love with the school, after all. Heh.

All the loose pages that are NOT filed but conveniently slotted at the back: CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS. My whole life is there. I have five 18sky and Running Havens stickers, courtesy of Alice who bought them from China. A CSI Miami Season 4 advert, a full page Liverpool F.C. article, many pages of American Idol [and Simon Cowell], some Harry Potter articles, Maroon 5 articles, eh a Westlife's Bryan going solo article, Sum 41, Green Day, Princess Diaries, Cinderella Story, Black Eyed Peas, Blue, Simple Plan, Ryan Seacrest, Final Destination, Closer, Mr and Mrs Smith, Howl's Moving Castle, Z-pop.. Like basically everything I loved, liked, okayed, hated. No X-Files though. [Since Mr Spooky is even more ancient than The Matrix. Boy, I do miss those days watching clips of X-files fanvids. Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely vid kinda made me like Backstreet Boys.] No MayDay or Sodagreen too. I have another folder for such stuffs now. Maybe a few years down the road, I'll look through THOSE.

[Can't wait for Sweeney Todd! It's a clash of Captain Jack Sparrow and Severus Snape, and how interesting that is! Go JDepp, go Alan Rickman!]

今年夏天特別綠 XD

2007-08-14T18:43:00.000+08:00

看到青峰在 ptt po 的文章后，我的心也碎了。

突然我發現自己和青峰有一個共同點。[只有一個共同點哦！] 我們都是愛這個世界的人。世界的醜陋與可愛，都讓我們看在眼裏。對世界，有許多的無奈。可能這就叫做愛吧，就因爲愛這個世界，才會這麽的在乎，有這麽多的想法。也許因爲這樣，媽縂說我奮青。好多事令人看不順眼，有時還有那種力不從心的感覺。一個年輕人無視站在身傍的老婆婆，繼續聼她的 mp3，絲毫沒有禮讓精神，就上我氣到要命，半個小時的車程都死死的瞪招她。心裏想：這是我們所謂的好公民課的成品麽？但是，我有我的錯，因爲始終我穀不起勇氣對她說出我心裏的話。很多時候，人們將心中的不滿窩藏起來，裝得好像無所謂。這，是寬宏大量、懂得容忍，還是自欺欺人、膽小怕事？也許，到頭來我從蘇打綠那裏得到的最珍貴的東西不是音樂，而是勇氣。青峰能有話直説，真令我佩服。

演唱會之前，和包子談了一些東西。感覺到，包子變了。變了，不等于不好啊！[瞪招那些一直說陳某某變了的人] 只是，她已經不是以前那個迷妹了。可以這樣說，她的改變是應為五月天。或者更確切的，是應為一些‘老五迷’。[都不知道那個王小姐知道不知道她的影響力又多大] 現在的包子，喜歡的是獨立歌手、地下團體，而不是像5566那樣的數字團體。現在的她，得失心沒有以前那麽重。[是她說的哦！但我是很認同的啦！]那我呢？沒辦法，我永遠做不到。我永遠是那個沒有理智的迷妹，我永遠會為小小的事難過半天。我永遠成熟不了。我永遠就是這樣，不管我是11嵗還是16嵗。沒辦法，只能請求大家多多包容。我是那種很容易自High的人，不管是國慶節還是運動會，都不由自主地想大聲尖叫。沒辦法，我生出來就是這樣。除非我後半生受到什麽打擊，不然我穩重不了。是真的，幹嗎要騙你？

好了，都說到哪裏去了嘛！扯得太遠了… 本來這篇文章是想把看完蘇打綠演唱會的感想統統寫出來的，但是上了ptt看了青峰po的文章后，百感交集。

首先想對蘇打綠說一句 [雖然他們永遠不會來到這裡]：辛苦你們了！世界上，可惡的人就是有這麽多。他的某些舉止讓我看得很不爽，也讓我心疼你們 [簡直不就是虐待？太扯了！簡直是荒唐！光天化日之下搶劫？]，真希望這個害群之馬沒有破壞你們對新加坡的印象。我們這些新加坡蘇打粉都是很愛你們的！青峰告訴我們，說自己愛新加坡有點虛假，但又真心地對我們說：“我愛新加坡今晚的你們”。當時的我，只以爲你很不做作，卻沒聽到你說這句話的玄外之音。那個和臺灣朋友之間的小秘密，我想我也差不多搞明白了。雖然我知道不是我的錯，但心裏還是很愧疚。畢竟，是在新加坡發生的事嘛… -我哭-

不開心的事情不要多談了，還是觀後感比較重要！撇開這些不愉快的事…

越多的感動，越多的在乎。

蘇打綠：

我想現在你們也該回到臺灣了吧！也不知道你們是什麽時候走的，但今天上課時我什麽都沒聼進，只是不停在做白日夢，同學們還問我爲什麽一直在傻笑。不只我哦！聽説另一個也去了星期六演唱會的校友跟我的狀況沒什麽兩樣！

認識蘇打綠，也不是很久以前的事，好像也只是五月多的時候開始喜歡的，上次來新的簽唱會我有去哦！雖然買了CD,但沒去索取簽名，因爲我們只想聼你們的音樂，多看你們幾眼[不要想歪哦！]，而且那晚正好是五月天的演唱會，身上穿的是演唱會服，縂覺得怪怪的，不知道你們有沒有發現！回想起來真的很對不起耶。希望那時你們沒有感到什麽的。XD

其實，上個禮拜六去看演唱會純粹只是帶招去聼好音樂的心態。我們是窮書生嘛，所以只買了樓上的票子，但是很HIGH就對了！這場演唱會，讓我真的好滿足！第一首小宇宙，以讓我陷入瘋狂狀態！本來是想站招，但是又怕擋住了後面的朋友，所以不要說我們冷漠哦！坐在座位上我們照樣揮招綠色熒光棒、大聲尖叫。今天我的喉嚨還是隱隱作痛耶！過後的ENCORE部分，我們還是站起來狂跳啦！[對不起，聼起來有些迷妹，但我捫心自問，真的是衝著你們的音樂來的啊！]

你們的音樂，讓我深深地感動，有些時候我都差點哭了出來。太有震撼力了啦！第一次的ENCORE可能是意料之中的吧，但第二次的ENCORE真得讓我發現，你們對我們太好了，甚至有點寵壞了我們的感覺。雖然你們一直感謝我們，但我想我們更應該感謝你們呀，因為有了你們，我才認識了其他一些獨立樂團/歌手，因爲有你們，我才知道什麽是好音樂，什麽是誠懇，什麽是一種說不出口的感動。你們的每一句話[雖然有時冷場啦，但還是很可愛的！逗得我們捧腹大笑，到現在還念念不忘…有些真的很經典！]、每一個音符都讓我深深感受到你們對音樂的執著和對我們的真誠！謝謝你們陪伴我們度過一個難忘的夜晚！今年的夏天[雖然新加坡四季都是夏天XD]真的很綠耶！這是我最開心的一次演唱會啦！[兩個小時的演唱會最後拖到3個半鐘頭…超厲害！超慡！超讚！你們不要把身體累跨了！-心疼-]

這樣可以了吧？在我私密日記裏有將演唱會所有發生的事記錄下來！但我懶得打出來。對不起嘍！下次等我爽的話再説！

五月天 - 抓狂

我不爽我很不爽不要讓我更不爽！

蘇打綠 - 是我的海 [超感人的一首歌！]

Nostalgia..

2007-07-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

I used to tell myself, they are something from the past. No use going all sentimental over them. Yet, the past always comes back to haunt me.

I thought, Backstreet Boys are people of the past. I still remember those days when I sat on the sofa watching their MVs and concert videos.. And now, while sorting through the songs in my itunes, suddenly had this urge to listen to their Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely.. Incidently, my favourite song back then, due to a really memorable Scully Mulder fanvid. [I used to be big on X-files] And I loved Coldplay's Swallowed in the Sea, because of a cool Jack/Liz fanvid. Okay, I am so influenced by youtube videos. So I went to watch a clip of a recent performance by the fivesome.. And wow, really brings back memories! Incomplete.. Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely.. The One.. :D Nostalgia! -Tearing-

I thought, after the long hiatus Jo took after Order of the Phoenix, that I stopped liking Harry Potter. True, from that book onwards, I started hating the main protagonist, and instead, was intrigued by Snape. So began my change of heart, though it was till Half-Blood Prince that I really became a Snape fan, Snape believer and a Snape/Lily shipper. [And I can say, I'm proud of our dear Sev in DH. Make all of our Snapers' dreams come true. :D] -Cue Lily's Eyes- [Gah I've grown so fond of this song!]

I've modified the song to suite the Sev/Lily-ness.

He has her eyes.
The boy has my Lily's emerald eyes.
Those eyes that loved my enemy-never me.
Those eyes that never saw me,
Never knew I longed
To hold her close,
To live at last in Lily's Eyes!

Okay the whole song speaks Sev/Lily. Too bad the fanvid is removed, it's a good idea [but terrible singing].

I SHALL STOP SNAPE-ING AND START STUDYING NOW!

Our dear potion master is irresistible. XD

谁能告诉我谁能理解我
只能怪自己习惯不说爱慕
暗恋的情书你不懂阅读
我却让时间像烟花一样溜走

没人帮助我没人理解我
只能让自己对爱放下自我
暗恋的情书爱在心深处
为你我尝尽青春的酸楚

Sigh Snape's unrequited love is heart-wrenching.

-Happy Birthday GuanYou!-

A Prince's Tale

2007-07-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

... And yes, I've finished reading the book. So if you don't want spoilers, don't read this post.

Dreamt about Harry Potter book 7 ending last night [Guess I was too excited, heh?], and it's really lame!! Apparently in my dream, in the last chapter J.K. Rowling had this author's note, where she stated, in Chinese! all the evidence proving that Snape is bad [which made me moan and cry], and then in the last line, she wrote，‘可是他其實是一個大好人’。Like dots!

Maybe because of the dream, coupled with mounting excitement, I woke up at around 8.30 to go online. And blimey, it was a BADDDD idea! Since Britain released the book earlier than we did, I chanced upon many spoilers. And after that, I couldn't resist the temptation to read more! I even looked at some photos of pages of the book [taken by some bored people I believe], that were circulating the web. By 9.30, I knew exactly who would die and in which chapter; in fact the whole plot [a rather lengthy one, I say] was up on wikipedia, so can you imagine! Me, tearing and screaming [silently] to my computer screen, extremely stricken by Snape's death, even though I had long resigned to the fact that he WOULD die. When I finally got my hands on the books from Toh Payoh Popular and sat down in Burger King to read the book with Yihui, the spoilers were proven true. Oh wells. At least I was right about many things. [I must be a seer! XD]

Like Snape's Dumbledore's man. Snape loved Lily. Snape was the guy Petunia overheard telling Lily about Azkaban and Dementors. Dumbledore wanted Snape to kill him. Dumbledore trusted Snape and Snape switched sides because Snape felt remorseful about Lily's death. That's the reason why Snape never ever spoke to Harry about his mum. Snape's worst memory involved Snape calling Lily she a mudblood [and never again did he call anyone a mudblood, even forbidding Phineas to say the word], which explains why the memory was his worst. Snape protected Harry out of love for Lily. Snape saw Lily in Harry's eyes. Snape's last words were, 'Look at me..' or something to that effect. Then after that J.K. Rowling wrote something along the lines of 'the green eyes met the black eyes', before poor Snape finally died.

But Snape died for nothing, seriously. I'm astonished to learn that Snape became a headmaster of the school. Snape loved Lily since they were kids? That's earlier than I thought. [I was suspecting the infatuation started from Potions classes.. Or Slughorn's Club (Fanfics hooray!).. Oh nevermind.] And wait! Snape patronus ain't what some people had guess, it's actually a doe -> Lily! After all those years.. (!!) Even Dumbledore was touched by Snape's everlasting love for Lily. Gawdd. I cried when I heard the spoilers. And nothing could prevent me from crying again after reading and rereading The Prince's Tale. Snape's end is tragic. Pleasantly surprised though I was, to find out that Harry named one of their kids [the only one with green eyes!] Albus Severus, and told the boy Snape was the bravest man he had ever known. The irony is not lost on me.. In Half-Blood Prince, didn't Harry call him a coward?

Annoying bits: It is boring in the middle. Seriously. And I HATE how Percy came crawling back, and how there are deaths every few pages or so. Really, some people don't deserve to die. Like Snape. Like Dobby. Like Wormtail. Well at least Dobby died saving Harry, Wormtail's hestitation cost his life but saved others, however I can never understand why Snape has to die like that. He died with the belief, and possibly in regret, that for all his trouble, he was still sending Potter to his grave. His last words.. The letter.. Okay I should stop before I start bawling my eyes out over him again.

Even though I really want to say, 'So I was right all along! Knew it!' in triumph, my anguish over Snape, Lupin and Tonk's death is too much to bear. [I have this love-hate thing with unrequited love. It's tragic, but I still like it.]

I trust Severus Snape. I love Severus Snape. I am a Snape/Lily shipper. I'm a Snape's man through and through. Now, I am certain that I have not trusted/loved/shipped the wrong man. (:

It's that familiar path again. Only this time, Snape's walking the path to the Land of the Dead. Doubt he'll return, I'm sure he gets more comfort there, with Lily and all, than in the real world, where life was cruel for him, more than anyone else. Like Harry and Tom Riddle, he called Hogwarts home. I can imagine how memories of Lily haunted him, and Harry being a living reminder of what could have been - if only he didn't mix around with the wrong crowd, and if he didn't say the word to her. Unrequited love. I am touched by the young Sev, how he slept outside the Gryffindor dormitory just to plead for her forgiveness. Snape is a good man. A tortured man.

Rest In Peace

Severus Tobias Snape
[January 9, 1960 - July 21, 1997]
Potions Master [1982-1995]
Defense Against the Dark Arts Teacher [1996
Headmaster [1997]
Head of Slytherin House [1982-1997]
In Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
Died as a good man, with courage and dignity

Look what Wikipedia says about Snape!

"This history of divided allegiance to both the Death Eaters and the Order of the Phoenix, and his actions in apparent support of both sides, make him one of the most ambiguous and morally complex characters in the series, and, arguably, its only anti-hero, assuming that he is a double agent for the Order."

More spoilers, go here and here. (:

I am waiting to see more Snape/Lily fanfics! In fact, there are quite a number that rather accurately predicted the events in Deathly Hallows. For example, Snape being the 'nasty boy' Petunia mentioned in the Order of the Phoenix, the friendship ending after Snape called Lily 'mudblood' in Snape's Worst Memory, and Snape joining Dumbledore's side after knowing that the Potters were targeted by Voldemort [prophecy!]. That's why, I love Potter forums. It's always nice to go in there, when you have nothing better to do. But as the series draw to a close, maybe I should move on.

寫給包子的話

2007-07-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hello Shuhui!

包子你好！

寫這篇文章的時候，心裏充滿的是感激，不是厭恨；是感動，不是懊惱。剛剛看完幾個五月天JUMP離開地球表面演唱會廈門站的短片，雖然視覺和音響效果不是怎麽的好，但是單單看到那五只賣力的演出，用音樂打動現場的每一個人，足以讓我感到莫名的自豪。

是啊，說起來也真的難以置信，第一次接觸到五月天的音樂，也只不過是十個月前。再想一想，其實認識你，也就是四個月前的事耶！還記得那一天嗎？那是我們兩個第一次見面，也是第一次親眼看見五月天現場表演。說實話，那天我並不想去，因爲沒有什麽朋友能陪我，想到自己要孤零零的跑老遠，就盟起退縮的念頭。但慶幸的是，我還是硬著頭皮去了，而且至今我還堅信當天的那個決定是正確的。也不知是哪裏冒出的一股勇氣，帶我來到了IMM，第一次等候五月天的到來[咳，一群不守時的傢伙… 讓我們白等了一個小時]，第一次被五月天感動，第一次…遇見了你。

聼起來也蠻荒謬的，我們的結識竟要感謝五個我們不怎麽了解的人，爲了他們的音樂，我們才會發現彼此的存在，哈哈。可能是我們的處境差不多吧，年齡又相仿，所以能談得起來。我們都是新一代的五迷，有感受到那種好像生的不是時候的矛盾心情，都曾瘋狂過、懷疑過、無奈過。那些自稱是‘老五迷’的人整天嚷嚷五月天變了，跟以前不一樣了，被商業化了，他們[也不知爲什麽莫名其妙的]憎恨我們，不想和我們搭界，也懶得睬我們。而我們這些從來都沒有和五月天共同經歷苦難的‘新五迷’，每天過的日子並不比那些與五月天經歷過風風雨雨的‘老五迷’來的好受！沒錯，‘十萬’的時候我們不在。‘你要去哪裏’、‘天空之城’也是如此。我兩連兩年前的 Final Home 都沒有去。

懊惱嗎？當然，怎麽可能不會呢？後悔麽？我不後悔，我想你也是吧！至少，我懂得欣賞五月天的音樂。至少，我傷心的時候會因爲一首五月天的歌而頓時心情好了許多。至少，我認識了你這個包子！可能我們起步比較晚，但又怎麽了？流失的七年，能用一千個世紀來補回；他們的青春，是我們記憶中的永恒。

很高興能認識 Bernice, Stella 等等的同齡五迷。更高興能認識你。因爲你，我懂得欣賞好音樂；真的很開心能和你一起哭、笑、瘋狂、[裝]理智[因爲我好像沒有理智過哦]。還記得三月那時我們許下的約定？那個五年后才能生效的約定？那個三十年后才會過期的約定？嗯。我是永遠不會忘記的。

勾勾手，蓋手印
這一刻的約定

因爲五月天，我開始相信。沒辦法，這個世界是很現實的，當然娛樂圈也更是如此。最後再正的物品都會變質，更何況一個樂隊呢？但是，可能自己太天真了吧… 哦不，是太固執了吧，所以從不想放棄，也不想懷疑。誰叫他們一直以來都是這樣教我們，誰叫他們天天歌唱著自己的信念、執著，一遍又一遍地告訴我們不要放棄？

包子，謝謝你。包子，我欠你的實在太多了。幹嗎對我怎麽好呢？[我淚呀！] 就趁你十六嵗生日的遷一禮拜，由衷的祝福你：生日快樂！天天開心！‘O’ 水準要到了，所以要加油哦！

搖滾萬歲！搖滾無罪！

讓我們肩並肩，勇敢地面對未來的種種挑戰吧！

<3 泡芙 [Yi Xin]，19/07/07

P.S. 希望你喜歡那張五只的擁抱和打綠的遲到千年啦！答應你的一張卡片… 嗯可不可以免了？XD

Snape's Army

2007-07-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

Ah as we draw closer to 21/07/07, I'll probably live in Potterland for the next 9-10 days. XD

101 Most(?) Important Questions Survey: Results!

One curious thing to take note: A surprising number of people actually think positively of a possible Snape/Lily revelation in the last book!

22. Snape's main motivation is:

a. 74.3 (50.2%) Lily.
b. 11.3 (7.7%) revenge against his childhood enemies.
c. 19.3 (13.1%) revenge against Voldemort for someone other than Lily.
d. 7.0 (4.7%) hatred of his muggle father.
e. 11.7 (7.9%) a life debt to James Potter.
f. 4.0 (2.7%) to supplant Voldemort as Dark Lord.
g. 24.3 (16.4%) being a grade A git.
h. 9.0 (6.1%) other.

23. Snape's other memory(ies) that he was putting into the Pensieve (OotP) was (were):

a. 65.3 (43.8%) things about Lily.
b. 20.3 (13.6%) the truth about James rescuing him from Lupin.
c. 21.2 (14.2%) more scenes of humiliation from his childhood.
d. 45.7 (30.6%) incriminating evidence about his true loyalty to Dumbldore
e. 14.3 (9.6%) incriminating evidence about his true loyalty to Voldemort
f. 29.5 (19.8%) something else.
g. 32.2 (21.6%) something about which we will never read.
h. 1.0 (0.7%) other.

24. Snape's Worst Memory:

a. 60.5 (40.6%) was because ofLily, not James.
b. 12.0 (8.1%) will be confirmed as his worst memory because of what happened with James.
c. 33.0 (22.1%) both b&c are equally bad to Snape.
d. 3.0 (2.0%) actually is set up to be a product placement ad.
e. 38.5 (25.8%) will not come up again.
f. 2.0 (1.3%) other.

25. "DON'T TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!" (PoA Chap. 19); what was not understood was:

a. 38.0 (25.7%) all the stuff about Black's prank on Snape.
b. 24.5 (16.6%) Snape's Worst Memory.
c. 59.0 (39.9%) how much Snape actually cared for at least one of Harry's parents.
d. 3.5 (2.4%) the amount of effort that Snape had put into framing Black himself, and how it might go to waste.
e. 24.5 (16.6%) something that will not receive further clarification.
f. 3.5 (2.4%) other.

See that! It's really quite shocking, heh. Didn't know our Snape's Army has such a strong membership. (: This is quite encouraging. [They should add more scenes in Harry Potter movies! I pay 8 bucks every year or so to see Snape, not Potter!]

On the way home today, I was telling Eelyn about the Snape/Lily ship and how Snape will turn out to be a good guy, and somehow along the way I said something like, 'Many people say Snape is bad purely based on him killing Dumbledore..' Shocked, she asked me, 'Dumbledore DIED?!' GOSH! For two whole years, she didn't manage to read finish Half-Blood Prince, and yet she was never spoilt about the ending! So for the past two years, she was kept in the dark! Only a week before the 7th book's release, she was spoilt by me heh heh. Okay I find it highly amusing.

070707

2007-07-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

近幾天發現，自己真得很厭恨主流。對於那些所謂的“偶像團體/歌手/劇”，都產生莫名的反感。沒辦法，喜歡上 band sound 就不再可能會頭喜歡這些靠一張美臉吃飯的藝人。

也很討厭八卦，到底有多少個人想知道誰又和誰在一起了，誰因爲沒有去誰的演唱會，所以兩人分手了。拜托！這很無聊好不好？世界這麽大，需要我們貫注、我們擔心的事情太多了，誰還有空看你們這些沒事找事、無聊透頂的人一番造謠？

我媽說我很怪。她問我，主流有什麽不好？不是越主流越好嗎？幹嗎什麽都要與衆不同？不會讓人感到你的思想很怪異嗎?

沒錯，我就是不喜歡和別人一樣，雖然我知道這樣做只能得到他人異樣的眼光。我就是要走不同的路，儘管道路崎嶇，隨時都可能摔個粉身碎骨。我就是喜歡非主流，就是喜歡不討好的人物，就是喜歡別人憎恨的角色，口味就是與衆不同。我不認爲世上有所謂的“完美”、“童話”、“英雄”，只有人性的“反英雄” [anti-heroes]。

(Flawed characters? Think Snape. Or Captain Jack Sparrow. A surprising number of my favourite characters made it to the list of anti-heroes.)

我想，最環保的樂隊，非五月天莫屬！原因：他們叫我們丟掉電視、丟掉電腦啊！ [離開地球表面的歌詞 (x]

終于看了幾個小時的 Live Earth 氣候轉變世界演唱會。說實話，五月天的演唱會比這個披着慈善、拯救地球外衣的“大型嘉年華演唱會”強一百遍！哈哈，也許我有些偏心啦。

五月天！萬歲！

Incoherent Thoughts

2007-06-30T18:58:00.000+08:00

Okay after sleeping for eleven and a half hours last night, and another 4 hours in the afternoon, I'm finally back to my old self again. [I hope] If I said some incoherent rubbish to you yesterday, or did some dumb things, I'm so sorry. Blame it on the lack of sleep.

So as a result, I couldn't understand 1% of what I said yesterday, and I did talk a lot, sadly. Most of the stuff once out of my mouth didn't make much sense, and for the first time this year [if my memory hasn't failed me], I actually slept in class. [And it has to be physics, wow. I'm gonna fail my SPA.]

Then something hilarious happened. Linlin was hungry, so she managed to get a biscuit from Shuyu. Being nice, she offered to share half with me. And guess what! Without even thinking, I just stuffed the whole biscuit into my mouth! And it's only when she exclaimed something like, 'Wah! That's so mean YiXin!' that I finally realized what I was doing. 0.0 What's so humiliating is that I think that's not the only stupid thing I had done that day. And I've done dumber stuffs over the years. Greeaaat.

Oh yeah. Apparently I heard from Yihui a few days back, when I was telling her about sodagreen, that Sijia talked about 'a new cool band' in class, so on Tuesday, when I saw her, I asked her about it. The conversation went like this:

Me: Hey Sijia! Heard you like a 'new, cool band'.
Sijia: Yeah!
Me: -Nods- Mmm! Yes! [Didn't know what else to say]
Sijia: [Looks incredulously at me] You like them too?!!
Me: Yeah! [Suddenly realized that I haven't asked her who they are] Who are they? Am I thinking what you are thinking?
Sijia: Oh yes! 苏打绿 right?
Me: YES!!!!!! YES I LIKE THEM TOO!!!
Sijia: REALLY?! OMG you like them too?
Me: OF COURSE! THEY ROCK!
[...]
Me: Oh yeah! I thought I saw Huihui at their autograph session!
Sijia: Huihui? Oh you mean the prefect Huihui?! I know her! Really?! She likes sodagreen! I didn't know!

Okay. It's pretty dots on my part, heh! But on Thursday Sijia told me that she talked to Huihui and she was surprised to know that Sijia likes sodagreen haha! And apparently Sijia told Huihui about me and the latter told the former that she heard about me, and I can talk to her about them anytime. Okay. I am flattered! XD BUT YAY! The RG sodagreen supporters just increased strength to 3 people. XD

Then yesterday! When I was moving around the school in my half-conscious state, Jing Ying [I think that's her name!] called out to me and asked me if I went for the MayDay JUMP concert. Then she told me she saw me there! WOAH! This is cool. And she wasn't sure if it was me back then, since I wasn't carrying my usual bag. [But since she's in my MSN list, so perhaps she saw my nick (:] So her parting words were 'The concert rocked!' so I replied 'Yeah! IT ROCKED!' This is really, really cool. So now I know of 3 people from our school [including the alumni] who went for the concert. Huiling, Marilyn [Gosh I hope I got her name right] and Jing Ying! Woots. Plus May who likes MayDay quite a lot, Esther who kinda likes them, someone in my MSN who had 'MAYDAY! JUMP!' as her nick, Jessie who likes them. Alright. Quite a bunch.

Random: The history notes are hilarious! I *think* Mr Ganesh typed the last one, because of all the sarcastic comments in brackets after every sentence or so.

Back from buying some takeaways from the hawker centre opposite my house. Something must have happened, since there were around 5-6 policemen crowding around a store. [COOL! I love their guns. 0.0] At first I thought they were ordering food. 0.0 But whatever it is, it can't be a huge case right? Probably, there was a break-in, or someone stole their money. In fact, the owner of the store was smiling. You won't think something major happened, right? So, why were there so many policemen? Perhaps, Singapore is too safe a place, so all those guys in blue jump at the chance of cracking a case, no matter how small in scale it is. I mean, really. Compare it with LA or eh Liverpool. [Maybe I read too many thrillers and/or watch too much CSI. 0.o] It's a boring life for the blues here, I'm sure. So now, my mum's trying to use that strand of argument to convince me not to join SPF when I graduate. She has to work harder, I guess.

Gah I'm addicted to shows. To be more specific, 吴秀波's shows. I'm watching them non-stop! After watching 立案侦查, 军人机密, 道可道 , 非常道, 29天半, 冰器 and 追查到底 in the past 3 days, I think I still like him in 立案侦查 the most. I guess that's because it's one show with him not dying at the end! 道可道 is nice I think, so is 非常道 and 29天半, but sometimes I just want to tell the scriptwriters, make up your mind whether to kill the bad or the good! You don't kill 吴秀波 all the time, no matter how bad or how good he is! It's.. it's unfair! -cries- I like 冰器 too, but why the hair. It's like.. Johnny Depp in Sleepy Hollows. Gross.

Talking about Johnny Depp, saw a thread comparing him and 吴秀波 in baidu. The thread starter asked us if we think he looks like WXB, which is of course NO! But they are actually really similar in many other ways, I reckon. It's the eyes.. The demeanor.. The somewhat subtle acting.. Heh. And yeah I was talking about another thread comparing Zhong Zong [中宗] from Da Chang Jin [大长今] and WXB right. Hah. It's like chancing upon a thread on Counter-Strike in a MayDay forum [which happened before], or a thread on MayDay in a 梁朝伟 forum [which I don't go, so I won't know.]. Totally random! But quite exciting, no doubt. XD

Oh still on JDepp, my class feels that I'm going to be the mostly likely person to kill Mrs Johnny Depp. 0.0 LIKE NO!!! I'll never do things as crazy as that. I'll never do things that'll hurt JDepp's feelings. [Gosh I can't believe I'm talking like this. I must be insane.] A better title for me, perhaps, is The Most Likely Person to Kill MayDay. [Reason: Because they have a book called 追杀五月天 (Kill MayDay). Haha!]

How incoherent I am. =/

這個世界的不了解

2007-06-23T19:19:00.000+08:00

最近發生了很多事，讓我重新看待這個世界。

前幾天，怪獸在ptt上留言，但是後來卻以‘寫得不好’為理由叫人幫他把文章刪除掉。本來只是趁端午節向大家問好的，但是可能因爲内容比較暗吧，也有談到金曲獎，所以..

其實我也不知道爲什麽他會把這篇文章拿下來.. 反正我有一種不祥的預感.. 可能我想得太多了啦，所以一直在想，真的是他很情願的將這文章拿下來的嗎？還是別人‘勸’他.. 當然，我是永遠不會知道真正的答案，但是心裏的疑惑真的太多了。

突然發現，人世間我不了解的事太多了。這個世界好複雜哦，很敬佩那些在自己的領域裏滾爬多年但還是存活下來的長輩們…

還有五月天…真是辛苦你們了！-深深一個鞠躬-

還有一天就要開學了！-怕- 我的功課…-無語-

蘇打帮! XD

爱音乐 . 狂恋摇滚 !

2007-06-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

最讨厌罗嗦的人。根本就还年轻嘛，还要个老女人一样道个不停。碎碎碎念，都不知道在念些什么。[怎么让我想起轧车？哈哈看来五月天的歌曲已经渗透了我生活的每一个部分啦！- 笑 -]

叫我胖，我理解。叫我懒，我可以忍受。但是天天如此，是不是有点太过分啦？我的脾气坏，不是偶然的.. - 苦笑 -

誰說呻吟是一種罪過?!!

再回到音乐吧！本人总觉得，喜欢上摇滚，就不太可能再回头爱上什么歌唱组合 [如字母团体之类的]。主要是因为摇滚像是个巨大的吸铁石，有它独特的魅力。XD

就如阿信曰：「一日吉他手，終身搖滾客」。

看来我是写不了议论文的人。考试时想不到什么老子/孔子的名言，乱填个阿信讲的话就.. 糟了。

爱音乐。相信音乐。Believe in Music. [->这是苏打绿的一首歌喔！开始相信音乐吧！感受只有音乐才能带来的感动。]

现在很怕告诉别人我是个“五迷”。更政治性正确的叫法应该是“乐迷”吧！其实，歌迷和乐迷又有什么差别呢？字面上来看，都是热爱音乐的人嘛。但是.. 可能对大多数人来说，两者或许截然不同。通常在报纸上看到的标题都是“疯狂歌迷企图自杀”，或是类似的极端个案，但从没看过“一乐迷闹事”的标题吧。我不懂，为什么顶着“五迷”的封号是这么的难，这么的辛苦。可能，假装自己只是个“乐迷”，活的更自在些。是不是很牵强啊。

音乐本来就不分国界嘛。但是，原本单纯的歌词，却一次又一次的被政治化、商业化，再加上外界的一番猜疑，一瞬间变得异常复杂，让人觉得每一句的歌词都有什么玄外之音、暗藏着什么玄机似的。作词，是为了让别人听到自己的声音。就这样被他人误解，心里的压力、无辜可想而知。很多杰出的音乐创作家可能因此而却步，但还是会有一部份的创作人不顾外界的异样眼光，凭自己的实力闯出一番天地。我想你知道我在说谁吧。

[哇其实我也很罗嗦耶。不要丢鸡蛋喔！我会很伤心的！- 泪 -]

That's all. (深深一鞠躬)

.. 传说中的蘇打帮.. (x

梦想与现实

2007-06-12T19:18:00.000+08:00

我只是爱做梦

I have lots of dreams. That include both the Martin Luther King Jr kind of dream and dreams, you know, when you get at night while sleeping.

Three nights ago, I had this really queer dream. I was standing near the edge of a cliff in a secluded mountainous area, and the sun was setting. Looking out, I could see reddish clouds moving around, ever changing. Then, as I watched with fascination [Shows how bored I must be in my dream to be observing clouds. 0.0], the clouds formed the shape of a doorway. A portal. So the first thing that came to my mind was '我看到了「圣堂之门」！阿沁的那首歌！' Oh mans. I saw a doorway that leads to, I suppose, heaven? What is that suppose to mean. I need a dream doc!

That's not the first time that I've dreamt about weird things that have NO link to my life. I mean, I'm okay with dreaming of MayDay autograph session four consecutive nights before the actual day, dreaming of sending them off, dreaming of the concert, dreaming of Mr and Mrs Smith inviting me to their house [Ah that's another weird one], dreaming of Frog visiting my house [ah this is one embarrassing dream]. But why did I dream of some Star Wars kind of universe? And me being a boy living in a hut near an airbase in that universe? And that the pilots of the fighter planes were the protectors of the universe? And that they were my heroes? But they were prosecuted by the High Court of that universe for killing an innocent civilian? And the day before their execution, they flew on the skies one last time, which made me cry like mad? Hello, I don't even watch Star Wars. I watched one episode after that dream. 0.o Then there's another weird one. I dreamt of Backstreet Boys! That's not all! I'm one of the 'Boys'! Woohoo! And I was pissed off with my bandmates! So I wanted to quit!

Sometimes, I think the person I understand the least is myself.

Then I'm going back to MayDay. [Of course, wocha expect?] The five of them dream loads too. I guess that's why I'm here. That's why they are where they are now. Just read an article in i weekly on the concert, and dang, it's touching. It's written in a way only a fan will, or at least one who understands MayDay's music. Not like any other concert report, this one talks more about their 音乐理念 [music beliefs?!] and why, after so many years, they continue to draw crowds.

“听得到”五月天的人，基本上还相信、还天真。所以，能和唱的人一起疯，一起笨，一起舞，一起动情…… －i weekly

How well written. 不想放弃，因为还有属于自己的倔强，还天真的相信。可能永远只能做一个憨人吧，一条翻不了身的咸鱼，但是活得开心就好啊。

I'm changing my blogskin. To my old one. Is it because I'm losing faith? Truth is, my ship is sinking. My Sparrabeth ship. I'm.. sticking with the ship as it gets swallowed by the Kraken. Faith, ain't it a strange thing? The minute you start to believe, you won't stop believing in it till the very last second of your life. Even if you think you have lost faith, there's still a small spark of hope in the deepest corner of your heart. But if you choose not to believe, then you'll never believe. [What am I talking about? I'm not making any sense here.] To have faith and to lose faith, both are equally difficult choices I guess. 要拿得起，放得下，其实很难。[Oh, I'm not talking specifically about religion here haha.]

五月天。有了你们，我才重新找回了最真实的自己。

what is wrong

2007-06-04T19:02:00.000+08:00

You know, I am pissed. Really really pissed. Okay, it's fine if you don't like MayDay anymore. I don't care how you feel, it's your loss. I don't care if you think MayDay has changed, because hell, I won't know, if not because of the concert videos. Okay, so you love the old fans. Go on, continue to love them. Continue to live in your memory. But what is pissing off is, why do you have to look down on others. Why don't you want to give us a chance. Okay, so in your opinion we can never be as great as how you were before. We are lesser of a fan than you guys are. We may as well don't exist, since you hate us. You sterotype us. You think we're all those kind of Fahrenheit/5566 fangirls. If you think so, then you are so wrong. Of course, we weren't there when MayDay was first formed. We were not there at TKZC concert. Hell, I wasn't even at Final Home. Okay, so now you have categorized me as a 'xin wu mi'. But have you ever considered, why I wasn't there? Why we were not there? Do you seriously think we like MayDay because of their looks? If that's the case, we will not be here in the first place. If that's what you think, then you are being ignorant. You are trying to hate a huge population of MayDay fans who simply love them for who they are, for their music, your their passion, but were too young/too dumb to like them when they first formed the band. Discrimination.

Y'all know, I've always respected those who were with them since the beginning. Those who continue to support them after so many years, and even though people are bound to change, they still have faith. But you don't like us. You don't want to be associated with us. Fine. But do you seriously think we are any different than what you used to be? Do you actually believe that we only love their more popular/commercialized songs? Like you, we love the first three albums, especially the taiyu songs. Like you, we cry while watching Ni Yao Qu Na Li. We watch 168 too, and Shi Wan Nian Qing Zhan Qi Lai, trying to imagine how it's like if we were to be born a few years earlier. That's how we live through each day, filled with regrets. Many of the things you have experienced, we would die to go through. Just that we never had the chance. Not trying to sound to bitter, but really, we feel terrible. I feel really bad, because I know we've missed a lot.

If you don't understand what I mean, how we feel now is like unwanted younger siblings trying to trying to be accepted by the elder brothers/sisters. I don't expect any one to embrace us with open arms - no matter what, we're still learning, we're still going through the phases that you have gone through and left behind, but why, before we even utter our very first word, you condemn us? You decide to hate us? What have we done wrong?

Continue to cling on to your memories, if that's what you want. Nobody is stopping you.

If you are determined to hate us, then.. I don't know.

On this day, 4June2007, two days after JUMP S'pore, I promise that twenty years down the road, I'll still love MayDay, and I'll embrace a new generation of MD fans with open arms.

Love, sometimes, is all you need.

JUMP like you have never jumped before

2007-06-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

Back from MayDay JUMP concert.

Shuhui, Bernice and I went for the Sodagreen autograph session before the MayDay concert, since I couldn't jolly well sit still at home! And Sodagreen is an up and coming band. Fresh, yet capable of doing something great. In order not to have any regrets years down the road [like how we feel about MayDay], we went to Chinatown Point. In our JUMP tee! Haha. Shuhui was wearing the red 打泡熊熊 tee, while me and Bernice wore the black 摇滚铁人 tee, which represents 梦想&勇气. (: The autograph session went really smoothly, and while waiting songs like 小情歌、符号、我的未来不是梦 were played repeatedly. Bought two of the four singles, plus the 小宇宙 album! My forty bucks. 0.0 They were selling Sodagreen's August concert tickets too! Hmm. 青峰's voice is really good! He was down with flu, and yet he could hit the high notes without much effort. But while singing 小情歌，he did paused to cough once, and the crowd of us just filled in for him! (: Such a unique voice he has! (: They were really friendly too! Later at the autograph session, they talked to fans as they signed the albums and concert tickets, and didn't really mind taking photos with them. So I wondered, was MayDay like that when they first 出道？Sigh. So many regrets. So let's appreciate Sodagreen before they become commercialized. Like.. MayDay. ):

We did not get our albums autographed, since we were there just to listen to their music anyway. But I did see Huihui from our level. Or so I thought. In fact, the person from UFM1003 actually interviewed her and she DID say her name was Huihui. Hmm. She appeared in a few pictures I took of 青峰 at the a/s. Haha.

After that, we set off towards expo. When we reached expo, it was 4.30! So freaking early. zzz. I wanted to get the Stay Real tee, so I thought it'll be better to be early since Stay Real tees are limited. It turned out, we were REALLY VERY early. There was freaking nobody outside Max Pavilion? Saw Stacey the tall girl. So the four of us stood outside the max pavilion feeling like idiots. [Okay that's how I felt.] So I went up to a group of people at the side of the pavilion to ask where they sell the merchandise [I was so HIGH that I could do anything, really.], and it turned out they were from Taiwan. 'Cos I spoke to them in English at first and they were like 'huh?' So I switched to Chinese and finally we could understand each other. Apparently they were here just for the concert! Woah! That's cool man. That means they follow MayDay around the world! Coolness. Then they asked me, '你是不是当地的人？' So I was like '是啊！' Woah they were shocked. One of them said '不像啊！听起来想台湾人。' Hmm. Has my accent changed throughout the years? Hmm? Maybe because I watch too many MayDay videos? Weird. Just then, music started to play from inside the pavilion! 香水！最重要的小事！I went insane. Crazy. Whatever. They were rehearsing. Finally! So those Taiwan people said '本来是想听他们彩排的，可是到现在才开始。' But I was just so HIGH! Sang along with the music. AHHH!

对你深深崇拜深深迷恋深深的沈醉
深深爱上一种香香的狂颠
对你深深崇拜深深迷恋深深的沈醉
深深爱上一种奉献的哲学
献上快乐献上伤悲献上自我献上世界

RAP:

马蹄踏平了国界
野心磨破了披肩
动员了麻瓜魔戒寻找拼凑你的香味
樱桃和樱花缠绵
茉莉和没药拼贴
香颂和香榭调配也许再加一点眼泪
就算你没有答应
就算你也不拒绝
就算我从不打算全身而逃全身而退
就让我活到脱轨
就让我爱到脱线
就让我为爱而生一千世纪无间轮回

So we went to have dinner first. I ate three eggs. GOSHness. Shocking. Then Stacey and I went back to the pavilion, and we could hear Ashin singing I Love You 无望！When the music stopped, we got our things and the four of us waited outside the door. Finally, the 工作人员 came out with the merchandise! Me and Stacey chionged up to be the first in the queue haha. It was quite embarrassing but whatever! Even the women knew we were the first in the queue. Stay Real tee!!! So pretty! So shiny! Me Stacey and Shuhui all got Ls. STAYREAL!!! Designed by Ashin and No2Good! Coolness. I was so delighted when I got my hands on the pretty bag that contained the pretty shirt. Ahhs! Then we got MayDay JUMP batt operated lightsticks and I got the stickers plus the Final Home army tag as well. They were selling the OTHER kind of lightstick too, but gah, I'll never get THAT. Also selling was the WAES 2nd Gaiban DVD. It's tempting, yes, but I'm not getting THAT too. I'm not going to have 3 cds that are almost the same, besides the Taiwan WAES concert dvd. Until I'm rich enough. Or someone tells me that the only way to get MayDay back in Singapore is by buying the cd. Not all MayDay fans are rich or working. zzz. Then we finally got inside Max Pavilion. WAES concert video was playing while we queued up. And when we got seated, 摇滚本事 was playing on the screen. 你要去哪里！-Cries-

When everyone was seated, the lights dimmed and we started yelling with the other fans! So the huge budget video came on. Apparently, there was this huge epidemic, called 黑眼病 or something. It was deadly and people with the disease could turn into ashes [That's what I interpret from the clip]. First we saw Monster appearing in the video, then Masa, GuanYou, Stone, Ashin. Masa was really funny! (: 公主！Monster and Stone were so man. Ashin was talking to a girl and giving her this metal dolphin like thing [didn't manage to see it properly]. Then men in black protective wear came down from helicopters, and there was much explosion. Somehow, the girl died in the process even though Ashin was tying hard to save her, and the dolphin thing was stepped on by one of those men in black. [A crushed dream? Hmm.] Then we could see the men in black surrounding Ashin, whose head was bowed. The camera zoomed in on Ashin. He raised his head. Ah, his eyes were turning black! So somehow he contracted the disease from the girl, unknowingly! HMM. I was pretty shocked. Then a child/a few kids started singing 倔强 (抒情) .

我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

I guess it was supposed to be moving? Yeah, my heart quivered. 很感人耶。But I heard screaming, and true enough, Stone appeared at my side of the stage while Monster appeared in a similar fashion at the other side. -Screams!- 武装 music came up, followed by pulling off of the huge cloth covering the centre stage, revealing Masa! Ashin! Guan You! -More screams!-, so everyone [well almost everyone except some people sitting in the first two rows] stood up and started waving their lightsticks and singing to the music! There was a lot of explosion eh. Like a Rain concert? Haha. 武装 really reminds me of 天空之城！Ah! 伤感。I love the song mans.

我忘了珍惜忘了回忆摔坏心爱的玩具
我选择远离选择放弃选择再没有回忆
天空的城在解体爱过所以特别的伤心

我忘了珍惜忘了回忆摔坏心爱的玩具
我选择远离选择放弃选择再没有回忆
天空的城在解体爱过所以特别的伤心

最后我开始武装自己用眼泪洗过自己
最后我开始武装自己要强化软弱的心
最后我开始武装自己有名字没有个性
最后我开始武装自己我活着给我的勇气啊啊~

我收藏恐惧爱上恐惧那就再没有恐惧
谁要我忍受给我生命是谁给了我血液
流出身体的声音还你我不稀罕的东西

最后我开始武装自己用眼泪洗过自己
最后我开始武装自己要强化软弱的心
最后我开始武装自己有名字没有个性
最后我开始武装自己我活着杀出我命运

After 武装，Ashin sang 香水！Then 风若吹！轧车！为爱而生！雌雄通体！疯狂世界！晚安，地球人 (爱死这首歌了)！透露 (超HIGH!)！JUMP歌 (反正是新歌就对啦)！天使！摩托车日记！孙悟空！阿姆斯壮！约翰蓝依 (开心ING! 太喜欢了!)！阿信和屏幕上的十岁的他对话，然后唱'我'！

JUMP歌!

丢电脑丢外套丢掉背包在丢唠叨
丢掉电视丢电脑丢掉大脑再丢烦恼
冲啥大冲啥小冲啥都让人常烦恼
恨得多爱的少
只想越跳越疯越跳越高把地球甩掉
一颗心扑通扑通地狂跳一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要再也不要委屈自己一秒
一颗心扑通扑通地狂跳一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球地球甩掉只要越跳越高

丢电脑丢外套丢掉背包在丢唠叨
丢掉电视丢电脑丢掉大脑再丢烦恼
野心大胆子小跳舞还要别人教
恨得多爱的少
只想越跳越疯越跳越高把地球甩掉
一颗心扑通扑通地狂跳一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要再也不要委屈自己一秒
一颗心扑通扑通地狂跳一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球地球甩掉只要越跳越高

JUMP！

Yeah, so from 摩托车日记 onwards it's mostly about different characters. Eh. Then they'll feature the char's face on the screen, together with a quotation. But for 我 I think, if my memory isn't failing me, the quote was from MayDay.

“离开地球越来越远，离自己越来越近” - 五月天

Then there was introduction of the members. (: GuanYou was so funny! So was erm 士杰！Masa tried to 入乡随俗，and talked to us in Singlish! We laughed like crazy! Monster wanted us to 踏破地板，leaving the ceiling in tact, to prepare for next year's concert. [I hope it'll be held in indoor stadium or something! Bigger crowds!] Can't remember! And they asked us to JUMP! woots! So Ashin started singing 垃圾车 (朋友版), followed by the ultra cute 宠上天！Haha the 技师团 was hilarious ah! The drums! The hand waving action! The video at the background! Really, really cute. 士杰 fell while trying to high five someone. So drama! Ashin was staring at him in disbelief. Haha. 士杰很可爱！

你爱看鬼片又怕看鬼片又要我陪
坐在你身边很想告诉你我比你还怕鬼
我无时无刻都无怨无悔
让你无忧又无虑每一天

你一个口令我一个动作绝不拖延
你一个皱眉我三条黑线整个高度警戒
我无时无刻都无怨无悔
让你无法又无天的撒野

是我的朋友就是我的baby
就算你打我踢我也都ok
就是要宠你宠你宠上了天
天堂整个搬到你身边

是一座堡垒是一种哲学我们之间
是一股热血是一句乾杯也是一种永远
我无时无刻都无怨无悔
让爱无穷又无尽万万岁

是我的朋友就是我的baby
就算你打我踢我也都ok
就是要宠你宠你宠上了天
天堂整个搬到你身边

是我的朋友就是我的baby
你想要打我虐待也都随便
就是要宠你宠你宠上了天
让谁都羡慕都赞美
让都傻眼
lalalala.....

Then Ashin told us, '我很怕鬼。每次来新加坡，就会听说前两排的人都是僵尸。但是今天我发现，新加坡没有鬼！' [We screamed] Oh yeah have I mentioned, Monster's tattoo was cool? It read '新加坡' and had a merlion like thing on it. Of course it's fake, but it sure looked nice.

知足！一千个世纪！I LOVE YOU 无望!(Massive K-歌 session. I love this song. The same song we heard them rehearsing before the concert!)

是你的形影叫我逐天作眠梦
梦中可爱的人伊不是别人
我的每一天一分钟也不当轻松
你是我爱的人将我来戏弄
九月的风在吹哪会寒到心肝底
希望变无望决定我的一世人

I LOVE YOU 无望你甘是这款人
没法度来作阵也没法度将我放
I LOVE YOU 无望我就是这款人
我身边没半项只有对你的思念陪伴我的每一天

是你的形影叫我逐天作眠梦
梦中可爱的人伊不是别人
我的每一天一分钟也不当轻松
你是我爱的人将我来戏弄
九月的风在吹哪会寒到心肝底
希望变无望决定我的一世人

I LOVE YOU 无望你甘是这款人
没法度来作阵也没法度将我放
I LOVE YOU 无望我就是这款人
我身边没半项只有对你的思念陪伴我的每一天

擁抱! Ashin, Monster and Stone were at the left stage, giving the backstage helpers a chance to set up the keyboard for Masa's solo.

脱下长日的假面奔向梦幻的疆界
南瓜马车的午夜换上童话的玻璃鞋
让我享受这感觉我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味纷乱世界的不了解

昨天太近明天太远默默聆听那黑夜
晚风吻尽荷花叶任我醉倒在池边
等你清楚看见我的美月光晒干眼泪
那一个人爱我
将我的手紧握
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~别走*

隐藏自己的疲倦表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言就算是你的谎言
我需要爱的慰借就算那爱已如潮水

repeat*

那一个人爱我
将我的手紧握
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~别走

抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~别走
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~

Masa appeared on the stage right infront of us! Solo-ed Coldplay's Yellow, 最重要的小事, before joining his bandmates in the rock version of the song, and asking us to 一起踏地! It's pretty hard to make any sound stamping on the stone floor, but for those sitting at the platform, it was quite easy. [Masa was grinning while soloing, and after the performance he bowed to us! I yelled Masa's name a few times. He's really cute I think. (:]

我走过动荡日子追过梦的放肆穿过多少生死
却假装若无其事穿过半个城市只想看你样子
这一刻最重要的事是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日全心守护你最小的事

我就算壮烈前世征服滚滚乱世万人为我写诗
而幸福却是此时静静帮你提著哈罗凯蒂袋子 (Hello Kitty Bag?! Haha)
这一刻最重要的事是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日全心守护你最小的事
(最重要的事)

你笑得像个孩子每个平凡小事变成永恒故事

I went insane singing 我又初戀了. For 戀愛ｉｎｇ, I think maybe we were not loud enough, the five of them plus the 技师团 shook their heads and left the stage! So we had to shout L-O-V-E really loud [I think that's how I lost my voice] for a loooong period of time before they came back up! Stone led us in the L-O-V-E hand sign, and Monster led those at the left, while Masa led those at the back. Then everyone sang together. (: HIGH 爆了! 終結孤單! Ashin taught everyone a set of new actions: 左手hey，右手hey，雙手hey，再jump! Haha. FUN!

志明與春嬌! One of the must-sing MayDay concert songs! Ashin came down the stage to walk in front of us. Many people went forward or stood on their seats. 溫柔! I felt a tingling sensation while listening to this song. Man, it brought tears to my eyes. It was like a sing along session, everyone was singing to the song. What Ashin said was really.. touching. Not sure if I was thinking too much, but I thought it applied very well to those people who used to like MayDay but have left us. Such a beautiful song. Too bad Fahrenheit spoilt it. Go MayDay.

走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔
天的温柔地的温柔像你抱著我
然后发现你的改变孤单的今后
如果冷该怎么渡过

天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏著什么我从来都不懂
没有关系你的世界就让你拥有
不打扰是我的温柔

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过
如果有就让你自由
music
自由这是我的温柔

Then Ashin went on to say all the sponsors' names, but apparently he couldn't remember after two or three names, so he took out a slip of paper from his pocket! Haha 小抄! We laughed at him! I think he realized since he was smiling too. Then for one of the names he was stumbling, so somebody [either Masa or Monster] went up to him. It was quite funny actually! Because after he announced each sponsor, we cheered. Or booed. I don't know! I think should be cheering right? Since we are such nice people. (x

After that, he went like 'Now it's time for us to sing the last song, to go back to the Earth. Who has the most beautiful voice on Earth?', and started singing 憨人! Woah that's another of those must sing songs. When the song ended, he told us we had the most beautiful voice on Earth!

阿信： '世界上最美的歌声是属于谁的？' －唱憨人－'世界上最美的歌声是属于你们的！！！'

我的心内感觉 wa e xin nai gan ga
人生的沉重 lin xing e din dang
不敢来振动 mu ga lai ding dang
我不是好子 wa mu xi hou gia
嘛不是歹人 ma mu xi pai lang
我只是爱眠梦 wa ji xi ai min mang

我不愿随浪随风 wa mou wuan sui ying sui hong
飘浪西东 piao long sei dang
亲像船无港 qin qiun zun mou gang
我不愿做人 wa mu wuan zuei lang
奸巧钻缝 gan kiao lang pang
甘愿来作憨人 gang wuan lai zuei gong lang

我不是头脑空空 wa mu xi tao nao kang kang
我不是一只米虫 wa mu xi ji jia mi tang
人啊人一世人 lang a lang ji xi lang
要安怎欢喜 me an zua hua hi
过春夏秋冬 guei cun ha ciu dang

我有我的路 wa wu wa e lo
有我的梦 wu wa e mang
梦中的那个世界 mang diong e hi lei sei gai
甘讲伊是一场空 gang gong yi xi ji diun kang

我走过的路 wa gia guei e lo
只有希望 ji wu hi mang
希望你我讲过的话 hi mang ni wa gong guei e wei
放在心肝内 bang zai xin gua nai
总有一天 zong wu ji gang

看到满天全金条 kua diou mua ti zuan gin diao
要煞无半项 me sa mou bua hang
环境来戏弄 huan ging lai hi nang
背景无够强 bue ging mou gao giong
天才无够弄 tien cai mou gao lang
我逐项是拢输人 wa da hang xi long su lang

只好看破这虚华 ji hou kua pua zei hi hua
不怕路歹行 mu gia lo pai gia
不怕大雨淋 mu gia dua ho lang
心上一字敢 xin xioung ji di ga
面对我的梦 min dui wa e mang
甘愿来作憨人 gang wuan lai zuei gong lang

人生海海!

有一天我在想我到底算是个什么东西
还是我会不会根本就不算东西
天天都漫无目的偏偏又想要证明真理
别人从屁股放屁我却每天每天都说要革命

就算是整个世界把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
所以我说就让他去我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什么了不起

常常我豁出去拚了命走过却没有痕迹
可是我从不怕挖出我火热的心
手上有一个硬币反面就决定放弃嗝屁
但是啊在我心底却完完全全不想放弃

常常我闭上眼睛听到了海的呼吸是你
温柔的蓝色潮汐告诉我没有关系
就算真的整个世界把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
所以我说就让他去我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
我不能忘记无论是我的明天要去哪里
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起有什么了不起
啦啦啦啦啦啦
明天我在哪里～～～

We yelled and screamed 'Encore' and '五月天' for such a long time till they finally appeared on the stage in JUMP Tees, with Beyond's Paradise!

Encore!

遙遠的Ｐａｒａｄｉｓｅ by Beyond!

远方有一个地方
那里种有我们的梦想
某天也许会相遇
相遇在这个好地方
不要太担心只因为我相信
终会走过这条遥远的道路
oh para paradise
是否那么重要
你是否那么地遥远
oh para paradise
是否那么重要
你是否那么地遥远
可惜我们的故乡
放不下我们的理想
好吗想问你一下
告诉我外面的世界

倔強

当我和世界不一样那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说就是以刚克刚
我如果对自己妥协如果对自己说谎
即使别人不原谅我也不能原谅
最美的愿望一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神在我活的地方
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

对爱我的人别紧张我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏眼神越是发光
你不在乎我的过往看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过才能出现凤凰
逆风的方向更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡只怕自己投降
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强
就这一次让我大声唱
lalalala...
就算失望不能绝望...
lalalalala...
就这一次我和我的倔强

After the concert, we were still reluctant to go. When they finally bowed to us, all I could do was to yell and scream in order to drown my sorrow. That's it? The end of the concert I've been waiting for for so long? When can we see them again? :( But the concert was rocking, I loved it. SUPER HIGH! I jumped for all the HIGH songs! (x Heard that Gary Cao Ge and Sodagreen went for the concert too. Hmm! Interesting.

We missed the last train. The taxis were hard to come by. When me and Shuhui finally got on one, heard 咸鱼 over the radio! Woah coincidence huh. By the time I reached home, I was jaded. Next day, went to the airport. And then, they left. Just like that, they're gone from our lives once more. Gah. I am tired, I am sore all over, my arms are aching, my legs are aching, my voice is almost gone.. And worst of all, I'm suffering from MayDay-withdrawal syndrome. Save me! Help.

For those people who want to listen to the original 温柔 by MayDay, here's the live videos from Sat. And Ashin's voice sounded really good in this one. Massive K-歌 session! (: I'm glad I'm part of it!

Another one. I think this is clearer.

Introductions! Masa is really, really hilarious. [Good night everybodiii! I'm so happii huh. Tonight is veri specion! LOL!] GuanYou.. well he's being himself. (: ShiJie was so extra ah! XD

The Jump! song. But it's not taken from last Sat. Most probably from the stop at Xiamen or HK.

Another one.

Nice song yeah? HIGHness! XD

淚如潮水

2007-05-22T19:22:00.000+08:00

谁能告诉我谁能理解我

最后还是投降了。

没人帮助我没人理解我

Just read Pirates of the Caribbean spoilers. Gosh. I think I'll cry at the end. [Where's my ship? It has just sunk.] But as usual, our Captain Jack is bloody wicked. Johnny Depp! (:

你们根本不了解我，所以不要再费功夫了。

脱下长日的假面奔向梦幻的疆界
南瓜马车的午夜换上童话的玻璃鞋
让我享受这感觉我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味纷乱世界的不了解

MayDay songs have a healing effect on me. No idea why.

你知道我现在的感受么？在我的寂寞星球上，只有说不出口的苦闷。

强忍心中的悲痛，在雨中默默流泪。

看透了这个尘世。原来，人心难捉摸，人性就如此。所有的一切在一秒中化为乌有。
又要想以前那样吗？又要缩回我的壳么？

Am I too bitter? Too resentful?

隐藏自己的疲倦表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言就算是你的谎言
我需要爱的慰借就算那爱已如潮水

让我一个人走完这条路吧。

寂寞星球

2007-05-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

真的很孤单。
在你们的博客上，我的名字消失了；在你们的生活中，我离开了。
This marks the final separation between me and them. 再多的奢望，也无济于事。也许，我们本来就不是同样的人，从开始就几个性格完全不一样的人被迫在一起，做一样的事。只是不知道，假如你将你的朋友以重要性为准则排列，我究竟排第几？50？100? 200? 也许一年后，你就记不起我了，你就发现不了我的存在了，你就再也不晓得我是谁了。在你将我的名字从脑海里删除之前，我会自动离开。只是最终发现，自己还是慢了一步。

真的很无奈。

I've always treated all of you as friends. 一次又一次的背叛，一次又一次的从悲伤与痛苦的渊源中爬出来，一次又一次的添着伤口，狼狈的逃离这里，一次又一次的举着白旗，无奈的投降。

说实话，我累了。我已厌倦这种游戏了。我不想再折腾自己，给自己太多过高的期望了。多一个打击，我就对这世界不抱有任何希望了。我就不再相信了。

真的很彷徨。

精神上的最后一层防线，快要倒塌。到时，有谁能来救我？有谁能陪我养伤？肯定的是，不会是你们。因为，你们没有了解过我，更没有尝试了解我。我的存在或消失，对你们来说没什么差别。我不在，地球继续转，世界可能更加美好，没什么大不了的。可能，在你的世界里，我只是个外星人吧。

真的很窒息。

曾大言不惭的说过，自己不需要朋友。那时候的我，孤伶伶的，但是还有面对生活的勇气。现在，我能像以前那样，勉强挤出一丝微笑，口中说着无所谓么？将自己层层包裹着的马甲，好不容易卸了下来，怎么好像又悄悄的穿了上去？

真的想逃避。

不知道应该不应该恨你们。不管怎么样，我们还是一起度过了一些美好的时光，一起努力过，一起哭过，一起笑过。即使忘了我，你们还是会出现在我的梦里。也许更确切的是，恨一个人，值得么？更何况一群人啊。

好孤单，好落寞啊。但是想到还有自己，就快乐许多。为自己而活吧！这，难道是我唯一的慰藉么？

不需要你的拥抱。不需要你的温柔。不希望你们听到我的哭泣。不指望你们叫我回来。我会啃着一颗苹果，在这人生海海里，为生命的一切美好事物感到知足。这就是我和我的倔强。不需要你担心我，反正你们也是不会的。在我的寂寞星球，还是会一个人艰难的走下去的。让回忆陪伴着我吧，成为我唯一的朋友。

老了、累了、倦了、变了

有一天，你会将我忘却。所以，在你还模模糊糊地想的起有我这样一个人存在的时候，想说一句话：晚安，地球人。下一个世纪见。

我只是没发现故事已结局
华乐－就这样，永别了。

比五月天还红

2007-05-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

昨天签售的时候，有个五迷让阿信在专辑上写：“学习加油”但是由于时间紧迫，被阻止了，当那个五迷遗憾的走开时，阿信却叫住了她说：“加油！” -五月天百度吧

再简单不过的一个举动，在我们眼中却是很大的感动。

我是个多愁善感的人。看不出来吧！有时，只能假装坚强，掩饰自己内心的脆弱。

但是在别人面前，开心就好啦！（怎么让我联想起终结孤单？〕

今天班上，边跳边大声唱着终结孤单，恋爱ING和疯狂世界。超会自High啊！－接一下冷汗－我大展歌喉，反映不错叻！现在班上大多数的人都好像要刻意回避我哩！哈哈。哎呀，都怪我逢人就露几手嘛！所谓真人不露相嘛，我的嗓音，是否一鸣惊人啊？

言归正传。舒羽，合唱团团长，看到我这个模样，不禁说了一句让我颇为得意的话：当伊昕的偶像真幸福！有这么她这么一个疯狂的支持者（这句话我不敢苟同，因为我这样不就是和刘德华的那个超级粉丝相提并论了啊？好损人喔！〕。我好想成为她的偶像！你们不这么认为嘛？伊昕真的是世界上最称职的粉丝啦！（翻译成华文，怎么这么别扭？〕

那个我们班进校园Superstar的JJ，就说：当我的粉丝好啦！赶快加入我的俱乐部！

哈哈。蛮flattering的。看来，我的歌喉终于被重视了！好开心喔。下次，找我组Band，到台湾娱乐圈发展。谁知道呢，我可能会比五月天还红！

哈哈以上纯属自娱，不要太在意喔！

五月天：不要担心，我是不会超越你们的啦！

五月的一天

2007-05-02T19:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder why I care.

Why do I care so much about how other people view MayDay?

Shuhui showed me some blog posts by MayDay fans from S'pore over MSN, and emotions just exploded within me. (Apparent lack of a better word -.-)

老五迷。新五迷。

为什么？我曾以为音乐是无边界的，是跨越年龄、国籍的。

那为什么，我感到这么孤单？难道喜欢上一群人，是那么的辛苦吗？作为一个“新”五迷，我错了吗？

又为什么，他们一个个的离开？以后的我，也会如此吗？

什么叫做“他们变了”？

我怎么什么都看不懂？是不是我太无知了？是不是因为我是一个..“新五迷”？

太多的遗憾了。这段期间，好像成长了很多。五月，不再是那么的完美。五月，参杂着笑与泪，期待与离别。(本来想用“背叛”这两个字，但是好像太“强”了一点吧！)

从来不知道，爱与恨乃一线之差。那些五迷..咳。也不知道，怎样的五月天才能满足所有的五迷？当然，那时不可能存在的。

那就让我挥着泪离开这悲伤的地球表面吧。

Quoting from Florence,

還記得﹐2001年<你要去哪裡>演唱會上﹐阿信這麼說過。
當五月天離開去當兵時﹐就是輪到我們去追求自己的夢想的時候。

我沒忘掉這句話。

好感人啊。那就是五月天。五月里最美好的一天。

听听彩虹，你就能知道我在说些什么。（：

生日感言

2007-04-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

十六岁了。

本来想加“终于”这两字，但又发现不是很妥当。其实，有多少人渴望自己能快点成长？又有多少人真的很在乎自己的生日？

我知道，我不是其中一个。讨厌过生日，是因内心对时光流逝的恐慌。好像还没做些什么，就过了一年、长了一岁。不禁感叹：无情的时光不留人啊！

讨厌过生日，是因为不知多少年前，就开始不在乎过生日了。最可笑的是，去年直到生日当天，才突然想起是自己的生日。我总觉得，人一生其实只应过一次生日，即出生那一天。原因，不是摆在眼前吗。

反正，又来到了每一年的这一天。今年，我没有把它放在心里，家人也是如此。没有什么令人垂涎三尺的佳肴，没有让人眼花缭乱的丰厚大礼，也没有什么祝福。吃蛋糕，没点蜡烛、没有许愿。

晚上，看了Dance Floor，为了目睹我那舞蹈老师的风采。看她台上神采飞扬的样子，和整天摆一张臭脸的印象中的她，对比鲜明。今日的风光，难道明日依旧？让我拭目以待吧。

超爱我家窗外的夕阳景色。深橙与蓝的巧妙配搭，带给大家少一份快乐，多一份忧愁，少一份嚣张，多一份感触。

生日，终究也只是如此。

生日快乐，阿昕。都十六岁了，应该为未来做些打算了吧。

生日快乐，你这个标准五迷。十年以后，能保证你还这么爱他们吗？

Happy Birth.Day

五月天使为爱而生永远的永远相信彩虹一颗苹果

跑步

2007-04-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

刚刚跑步回家。

非常享受独自跑步的感觉。没有外界的压力，节奏完全自己控制。挑战的，不是他人，而是自己。独自跑步，能给我空间思考。平时没有机会，就只利用这短暂的几十分钟。

顺风跑，必然是一种爽快。但，我对逆着风的跑步情有独钟。朝着夕阳的余光迈进，像是想要捕捉最后的一丝希望，却发现，自己离幸福有多远。因此，我朝反方向前进。可能是没有勇气吧。

下一次，邀请你与我一起跑步，感受独有夕阳才能带给我的一份感动。

宿命

2007-04-28T19:39:00.000+08:00

命運。 kohtalo. Saatus. Noodlot. Sors. Destino. Destin. Destiny.

"I think maybe I only know one thing in this world. One thing for sure. And that is that the truth does not set you free." - Harry Bosch, The Narrows

And reading on,

"The truth does not salvage you or make you whole again. It does not allow you to rise above the burden of lies and secrets and wounds to the heart. The truths I have learned hold me down like chains in a dark room, an underworld of ghosts and victims that slither around me like snakes. It is a place where the truth is not something to look at or behold. It is the place where evil waits. Where it blows its breath, every breath, into your mouth and nose until you cannot escape from it. This is what I know. The only thing. (...) I knew that my life's mission would always take me to the places where evil waits, to the places where the truth that I might find would be an ugly and horrible thing. And still I went without pause. And still I went not being ready for the moment when evil would come from its waiting place. When it would grab at me like an animal and take me down into the black water." - Harry Bosch, The Narrows

Michael Connelly has always been my favourite author. Now you know why.

哎，什么是五月之雪？

阿信冷笑話集

2007-04-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

1、“我有个网友

他说有一位五迷问阿信说
可不可以抱
阿信就回答好呀
然后我那位网友五迷不知不觉的说出
好好唷~
阿信就问他
那你要抱吗?
我那位网友没说话
阿信就说
不说就默认喽
然后就抱下去
后来我那位网友就跟阿信说谢谢
阿信就很得意的说
怎样很有安全感吧
在旁的怪兽就说
自以为........“

2、相对论

信桑∶不要拿相对论考爱因斯坦
就像不要拿木炭烤肉

3、

信:第一点呢就是五月天缺一不可
第二点就是饭前一定要洗手饭后一定要漱口
如果你是饭前漱口饭后洗手的话呢
就没有什么太大的用处了对不对啊各位
还有呢就是喝车不开酒开酒不喝车
(空白五秒)
兽&莎&石:对对对........▔▽▔‖

4、唱旧歌

串场讲话时(那时候好像电视有播live所以广告时就讲话 @@)
阿信:大家夏天都会干麻呀...

台下:@$#^@*!( (讲很多听不清楚)

阿信扳起手指头数:可以去海边玩呀.吃冰呀还有什么...？还有五月天的新专辑呀!!

那时候气氛吵很热很热哦...然后他又说了一句

阿信:但是今天只唱旧歌 XDD (瞬间冷掉,然后就唱温柔)

5、自己会听

信:如果在收音机旁边的各位男性朋友喔
如果你有被你的姊姊强迫要听(五月天)的话
你你就跟她手插腰说
你你不用强迫我...我自己会听

6、阿信你很无聊哎

石头: 这里应该有我同学的学生他在补习班教书
所以我要来找一下同学
XXX 你在哪里!
(莫名奇妙一堆人举手)
石头: 怎么多出十几个 (笑)
阿信: 无性生殖

7、醒睡之间

阿信:谢谢你们让我在有怪兽的地方睡著在有食物的地方醒来...

8、厌食症

莎∶阿信有厌食症
他看到食物就说∶我讨厌你!!"然后就把食物吃了

9、运动
五个男人在一起会做什么运动啊?
阿信:平常我们就是有一个特别的就是没有运动
我可以给他零分吗...

10、脱衣服

--淡水--
阿信∶大家会不会热?
大家∶会~~~
阿信∶会就脱衣服啊!
大家好像不知道该怎么回应他

11、食物

今天的MTV敲三下有他们~主题是小时候的东西吧~
播了"王子面"跟游鸿明的"红糖水"
结果播歌回来他们出现以下的对话~
#@$#@%@%@$@!$#@!%#@^%(我忘了)
(忘了谁讲):刚刚有人说啊~红糖水到底是"红糖做的水"，还是"红色的糖水"
阿信:这个下次遇见游大哥要好好的请教一下
怪兽:这就如姜母鸭到底是"姜母做的鸭"还是"姜做的母鸭"
阿信:这个就要好好的请教姜大哥了、

12、阿信说要帮怪兽介绍新女友--------------如花~XDDDDDD!!

信:他很会按摩喔还会帮你加强大腿内侧喔你受的了吗!!XD[m
兽:(猛摇头)
今天西门町唱完志明与春娇
台下大家就大喊"舒服"
阿信∶你们前面这些怎么这么低级
而且谚明都还没使出绝招
你们怎么会舒服
信:你们这些女生怎么听到舞女就那么兴奋是不是有打工.....
台下:在金钱豹打工
信:金钱豹?是什么我很纯洁....我只知道有台湾云豹...好像快决种了
谚明. 金钱豹是什么?
谚:ㄜ....就是........会招来金钱的豹...........XDDDD!

13、阿信是一直以来都很自恋吗?

还是最近才这样
最近总说些很欠扁的话
例如∶问大家一个很重要的问题
歌迷∶好~~
阿信∶我帅不帅?
还有
我这个人有个特点，就是不管近看远看，还是一样帅。

14、书呆子

阿信:我..我学生时代就是个书呆子
怪兽:怎么可能人家说的书呆子是一直念书变成呆呆的
阿信:我是看到书就变成呆子

15、俗话

阿信∶俗话说的好∶搞笑有数专辑要顾

16、成语分享

阿信∶夜路走多会遇到鬼这是今天我们要跟听众分享的成语

17、传统

call-in:应该要去传统市场买传统的饮料喝...
信:那应该对传统中暑比较有用...
莎:那你的中暑可能是数码的

18、下饭

阿信∶你知道我的键盘型号干嘛你要拿来下饭吗
(空白一秒XD)

19、忌讳

歌迷传真问:听了借问众神明发现大家都很会唱歌有可能再多唱几首吗?
信:....... 我最忌讳听到这种事情了!
玛:别这样心胸宽一点
石:对啊我们也不让你弹吉他啊~

20、联考数学

信:我大学联考数学考了个不错的数字唷
听众:哦真的吗几分?
信:..................5分!!大家好我们是"五"月天哈哈这个数字不错吧!!

21、音痴

信:哼我国小还被老师评判是音痴
结果 ! 哈哈现在是五月天的主唱!!(得意)
玛:不过还是音痴啊!(冷眼)

22、处理

拥抱演唱之前，阿信说了一拖拉库的话，
规劝大家今晚把握时机表白，
结果现场出现此起彼落的『阿信我爱你』『怪兽我爱你』『玛莎～谚明～石头?
阿信∶『请大家不要跟五月天表白』
『我们处理不了那么多人耶』...哈哈。

23、海外

主播∶那你们接下来会到海外宣传吗
阿信∶嗯...海外喔..那可能要先学会游泳喔
阿给∶０分
玛莎∶不好笑不要理他他还没醒

（转纯真）